Its not as if I am suspicious for no reason. Much as I wish I were delusional and my paranoid thoughts had no base in fact, previous incidents and repeated behaviors are pretty hard to ignore. Words are powerful but only when your actions match them. And then there are facts that back up my theories that cant be denied and you refuse to explain. I think what I neex to move on is closure and for you to take some responsibility. But if you havent been able to be truthful in the last 2 years its like waiting for a liar to tell the […]
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To Tell The Truth
The shooting today.. 20 kids dead… 6 adults it brought up so many memories, that may have even no relation.
First the shock that someone can hurt kids so innocent.. then i remember my past 2 people hurt me.. when i was so young.. to innocent to protect myself. At their entire control, my life was basically in there hands…
Then i thought of how these kids would suffer 5-10 years from now. Like i do today, the symptoms of my PTSD have cause severe depression, anxiety, insomnia, psudo siezures, multiple persanality disorder, and bipolar. I agree some of these may not have been a direct result, […]
Hey everybody, EmM here. I’m feeling in a very inspirational mood tonight. It’s great to be happy for once =) Here’s just a couple things that I hope might brighten your night=)
~WriteOn=)
BeYOUtiful
Don’t underestimate your full potential.
You’re beautiful how you are.
Inside you there’s a brightly shining star.
We are all unique in our own special way.
Who I am is who I’ll stay.
I don’t want to fit in
if it means I have to become pretend.
I don’t care about having a million friends.
‘Cause the few I have will be true to the end.
As for anyone who wants me to be
the perfect person they forsee…
I apologize for my objection,
but that […]
Words hurt, but actions hurt most.
This is my first post.
I wish someone really understand me. I think I’m going to commit suicide tonight. I know that my family will be better without me. Everyone will be better without me. If nobody support me, Why should I live? I wanted to do a lot of things in my life, but nobody’s approval. I don’t want to feel anything anymore. I’m sick of people telling what to do, what is right and what is wrong. They drive me crazy and then they says I’m a psycho. I hate lies! Why is more easy to invent, to make a lie, when is […]
You’re thirsty for life, yet, so eager to die.
When you reach for the stars, you fall from the sky.
To tell you the truth, life is only a lie.
You fear yourself, but you don’t question why.
You’re hungry for more than lonely nights.
Thinking you’ll learn to fly if you reach for the light.
When you realize the truth, you’ll give up the fight.
Did you ever forget that you’re empty inside?
I know no one cares and no one wants to read this, but I want to tell the truth about myself.  I am a complete joke, I am desperately in love with someone, they mean the world to me, I would happily die for them, but I will never get to be with them, even if I only see a glimpse of their face, it has made my whole week, I would do anything just to say hello and for them to acknowledge me. Because I know I will never be with them, I have made it the sole purpose of my life to make extraordinary achievements,  so that maybe one day they […]
I really feel like I don’t belong here. For awhile, I thought I was holding on for a purpose, but now I just feel like it is my time to go. I can’t hurt everyone who loves me. I promised myself I wouldn’t do that to them, they don’t deserve it. I was getting counseling, but I hated every second of it… I thought it would be hard to convince my therapist I was okay again, but it wasn’t… at all. The lies came so quickly, I know the perfect things to say. She believed me, every expression she gave was of utter joy. She […]
I feel alone…empty….like nothing matters anymore…maybe it doesn’t matter…..I’m tired…tired of life…tired of people…and their acting. Acting like they care….acting like they want to help when in truth the one they really care about is themselves. Im not stupid. I believe in the truth, because lies hurt. Don’t protect me from the truth with lies and lies. I know better. I’m not a play toy. I have feelings. Humans are liers and sinners. They are worthless. I’m worthless. Even I lie from time to time. It’s hard to tell the truth but I wish that someone could even if it hurt more than the lies. […]