I have a great, great counselor. We’ve been through a lot together but things took a turn for the worse in my life about a year and a half ago and then I became physically injured on top of that. I had a list of phrases he helped come up with that used to help but now they no longer help. Like “I’m bigger than this” but I’m not, what I’m dealing with is bigger than me. I have fought and fought fought and almost made it, almost won but then I got smacked down and I can’t seem to beat my physical problems. I’m […]
so im sick of this…. my drunk 15 year old sister is now bullying me to. she was my last true friend….. imma take all my sleeping pills tonight and all the pain pills i can find. i am srry i cant go one in this pain. imma just end it. i love you world i just wish u loved me back…. 
I’m Lily, I’m 15- I have social anxiety and I have no friends- well I have fake ones 🙁
Every day I go to school I feel alone and awkward when my friends are with their friends. I’m just standing there, I wish I was confident enough to make other friends but I’m not. My closest “friend” does her best to make me feel out of place by ignoring me and leaving me out of things. I’ve tried to tell them how I feel twice but they must think I am just trying to get attention or something. In a way I am trying to get […]
im tired of my life. i just give and dont get. my mom needs me my dad needs me. some 16 year old friend of my mom needs me. i like her but turn she will probably never move to where i am even if i wait. she is not stable right now. my sister is always busy and not easy to talk to. my dad cut me out of his life. my mom just doesnt get how i feel. if i killed myself i would just be inconveniencing them. i woyldnt lose anything. yeah they care about me, but isnt every one supposed to? […]
I’m not even sure how to do all this, I haven’t taken the time to read through everything. I just need to get this out. Now.
I think too much, way too much. I’m a 40 year old female who has thought about dieing since I was a teenager. I guess I’ve always been scared to live. I was bullied horribly in school. I never felt like I was good enough for my parents… But all of that is more than 2 decades in the past. Maybe that is what started my depression. I can’t even remember not being depressed. Now though, I’m on medication that […]
This ones for Vikki.
My only true friend. Through thick and through thin.
The first person I told.
This ones for Austin.
My boyfriend. I love him because he broke down my walls.
The one who taught me how to love again.
And this is for Jason.
My youth pastor. Because he saw through me.
He saved my life.
I am determined not to cut. I will not.
Everyday it’s a constant struggle on trying not to cut. Not only thy but seeing all the many scar that completely cove my thigh  I’m trying my best to try and have god back in my life I fell like I need him mor than my razor . I really have tried I tell my friends but they  dont care at all. It sucks not hacing a true friend  thy will respond but I’m just trying my best
Guys I really need some help. I am not doing good at all. Each day just gets worse and worse. I feel like im suffocating, drowning in my own fears of having to live another day. How can I survive when every part of me is telling me to end it? How much it would be easier without me here? I can’t tell my friends anything because they tell me I am being overdramatic, my family would just throw me back into a mental institution and the only true friend I had died. The two year anniversary of him killing himself is coming up and […]
I don’t even know where to begin. I’ve never been good at opening up to people, never really had any close friends who I can actually trust to tell this to. My parents, pshh I’d have more luck venting to my dog. So excuse me if I seem nervous.
I’m turning 24 in 4 days. A lot has happened to me in these 23 years of life. Not a lot of them good. And the worst things have happened within the last year.
I wish I was a kid again. Being a kid is so damn easy. You have not a single care in the world, other […]
Words hurt, but actions hurt most.
This is my first post.
I wish someone really understand me. I think I’m going to commit suicide tonight. I know that my family will be better without me. Everyone will be better without me. If nobody support me, Why should I live? I wanted to do a lot of things in my life, but nobody’s approval. I don’t want to feel anything anymore. I’m sick of people telling what to do, what is right and what is wrong. They drive me crazy and then they says I’m a psycho. I hate lies! Why is more easy to invent, to make a lie, when is […]
This one’s pretty long, sorry if I bore anyone. I should preface by saying that I’ve been depressed for four years. I was formally diagnosed with major depressive disorder January of this year, but I knew long before. I’ve never had a true friend, anything even close to a relationship (been led on a few dozen times), and I feel alone constantly. Recently my diagnosis was changed to suggest the cause of my pain is ADD. I’m not sure if the doctors are right, but amphetamines are helping a bit lately. This is the story of the last eight months or so, from the first […]
I’m blind.
Being friends with someone is hard when they are blind, depressed, and at times has a temper. But even me, yes, even I, need someone to love.
I had a friend one time, but she’s gone away now and has decided to leave me. It hurts so much that my one true friend is gone, but that’s just life. It really doesn’t help my depression.
But what should I do anymore? 6 days out of 7 I’m hurting, and noone knows because I don’t know who I can tell anymore.
I’ve given up on suicide because I’ve tried it twice and it failed. […]
NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME!!!!! my mother says she does but i know she doesn’t , she is taking out all the pain of her childhood on me , My father is an alcoholic – and no matter how hard i try i cannot impress them , i play piano until my hands bruise so bad my whole hand is blue! i sing and win awards , and dance until my arms and legs cannot move. But its never enough… They think my little sister is the best things since sliced bread!!! she tells me to die everyday , and i only have one true friend […]
I am not one for showing my true feelings to the general public. I consider myself to have gone completely numb on the inside but nobody could ever tell thanks to my happy personality which I fake just so I do not have to answer questions regarding my true life. I thought once I got out of high school my life would be a bit different, it is in some ways but not everything is peachy. I have been physically and mentally abused by my mom since I was born and I am 21 now and it still continues. According to her I am worthless, […]
I have been depressed before and had thoughts of suicide, but the fact is that in life, you go through phases and cycles.
Some things might seem today to be SO BAD that you cannot overcome them- yet down the track they will go away and you will be able to look back on today’s situation with NO EMOTIONAL REACTION.
The key is that you need to hold out for that future instead of giving up.
IF you are running a long distance race, you can’t just quit halfway because it seems too hard.  The race is hard and unpleasant, but the prize is at the end and only if you […]
What a watchful eye. Not a moment is there just for myself.
Those who I confide in my outer most opinion know nothing of my inner pain or what I really think. Those who I have believe I can share this with are no longer the high points of my life. I’m too personal, well I would if anyone took the interest. No one wants the opinion of a 16 year old with all the gadgets and a loving girlfriend. He has the life, what’s to complain about. IM ALONE! I’m fucking alone damnit! What do you care? You don’t! Bu still I will listen […]
I’ve changed. A year ago i felt like i was missing out on a true friend that stuck by me, someone i could talk to about anything.
Now that i have that i have completely changed. I used to be reserved, never spoke what i thought. Never talked about myself and kept a distance from everyone. I liked it that way.
But now i open up to people, tell them my worries and about my past. I don’t like this. But i find i can’t stop.
I know that these people will turn on me and i will be alone again soon. Although i am looking forward […]
my life feels like a living hell the only good thing in it my only true friend the one person that i trusted has now abandoned me jst like everyone else i opened up to her hoping she would accept me but iwas wrong now im more alone than ever i feel like its hopeless there will nvr b someone who understand someone whose willing a stand by me i will always b alone and now im left wit nothing no family no friends jst me a worthles sack of skin bones and blood
1. i have CAPD (central auditory processing dissorder)
2. im bipolar
3. im bulimic
4. i cut myself everyday
5. im highly suicidal
6. the principal is like my best friend
7. i have no friends
8. i hide who i really am
9. im totally weird! haha!
10. i have a bf..
11. im not a virgin (of course ive been hurt a lot)
12. ive been raped 8 times
13. my family hates me
14. i was almost bullied to death
15. i almost commit suicide at school but the principal saved me
16. i wish i was beautiful
17. i wish i […]
Im crying while im writing this, i dont value my life anymore, nobody likes me i feel all alone by myself and even if i try i always fail at everything, i’ve heard that im horrible and stupid and all kinds of bad things that you can imagine, i just have one single true friend and a couple more that i just feel that i cant trust, i never had a girlfriend neither i kissed anyone, i feel like im too young for suicide but i just cant take it anymore, i feel like an empty in my heart, that theres a growing pain inside […]