I’ve never had a true friendship until I met my best friend/sisster/coach. I mean I’ve had friends but never one I could go to about anything. I’ve had fake friends, friends that used me, friends that left me, friends I’ve pushed away. It feels so good to have a true friend that knows everything and you can always go to. A friend that brings the best out in you. A friend that loves you for you and not the person you make everyone else fall for. A friend you trust with your life. One that will do anything for you. One that you will do […]
To be honest I don’t know why I’m here… I just want a place to write down what I feel, without someone judging me or calling me an attention seeker, I’m not looking for someone to pity me or anything like that. I just want to express my self.
Every week of every day and every minute and every second I feel like I should die! I have never experienced true love or true friendship, but what I know is that I feel so lonely and sad that I cry every night! I don’t know why I haven’t killed myself already to be honest… Every day I think up […]
I was feeling ok, actually ok for the first time in ages, the new antidepressants seemed to be helping. And then today it all went rapidly down hill again. I don’t know why, except that I realised nobody has contacted me for days, and I ruined the one true friendship I thought I had. I just can’t take being alone. And I know that because of how I am I will be alone forever. So what’s the point? I just want out. I don’t want to do this any more.
Today i live in a nice two story apartment, its safe and secure, its not on the ground floor, its quite. (I love the quite) I have a full time job, good friends and i can say that i am honestly happy again. But my life was not always this way.
A few years ago i was living on the streets, i had no money, no was looking for me because they knew where i was, i was depressed and high and i had given up on life, and my then family and friends had all given up on me. (Its not their fault, i was being a totally […]
This is a picture of me in the summer of 2010, on my 18th birthday. Â I’m the guy in the middle, the two next to me are my younger brothers. Â I picked this picture, because it was pretty much in the middle/peak of the best time period in my life.
Me and jackie became what I would call close friends in early 2009, like around march. Â We had met october of 2008, online. Â She was 13 at the time, and i was 16. Â She lived in New York, […]