I have now reached the point where I feel like I’m at the end of my rope. I am absolutely exhausted with trying to pretend that I am ok. I have had these intense feelings of loneliness and sadness lately and they are starting to become consuming. I have tried talking to everyone I know, but no one seems to understand. They tell me its just a phase or that things will get better just “try to be positive” (like I haven’t been trying). I have tried self medicating but the effects are only temporary.I tried cutting, but it just made me feel worse about […]
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Trying To Find A Way
got caught.
so scared.
stupid doctors.
i went to one, just a check-up
with my parents
the other day
and when she did that fabric around your arm
that squeezes
well before she did it really
she had to tell me
“roll up your sleeve.”
in my head i was
“goddamngoddamngoddamn”
and trying to find a way out of doing what
she told me to do.
i couldn’t
so i just rolled up my sleeve.
this was not one of the ways
i imagined the finding out.
my mom gasped
as the nurse wrapped the
stupid
scratchy
cold
fabric around my upper arm
and said
“what happened to […]
This is my second post now that I’ve started talking about suicide, I know its only been like a day since I started posting but I wish that I could feel like this was helping me, the urge to cut is so overwhelming but I’m trying to be strong. The reason I’m posting now is cause I’m trying to find a way to tell my off and on boyfriend that I’ve been trying to kill myself. I’m scarred that either he will freak and tell my parents or leave me permanently without even trying to understand, and maybe I want that, to have something physical […]
Well people it’s a cliché that we born to die, but is true we have moments but always the end is dead, so what is the problem with smoke? What is the problem with uncontrolled sex? What is the problem?
We spend all our life trying to find a way to live more years or to be healthy… Life is more than that and maybe that’s why we are here in this site screaming and begging to someone’s support and a shoulder to cry, we are a symbol of self harm because we choose it unconsient.
I know how hard is but please take my […]
Well people it’s a cliché that we born to die, but is true we have good or bad moments but always the end is dead, so what is the problem with smoke? What is the problem with uncontroled sex? What is the problem? We will die finally.
We spend all our life trying to find a way to live more years or to be healthy… Life is more than that and maybe thats why we are here in this site screaming and begging to someone’s support and a shoulder to cry, we are a symbol of selfharm because we choose it unconsient.
I know how […]
I made a concerted effort to kill myself which resulted in a DUI and landed me in the ER. Still trying to find a way to be sucessful. Im afraid ill be brain damaged or something that wont get me there. Not sure anout slitting mh wrists. Thougjt about renting a storage facility and parking my car in it leaving the motor running. However newer cars the emissions have been improved. I dont have the courwge to find a gun.
I’m sick of waiting.
I’m sick of having my heart broken again and again. This year has been horrible. I started off telling someone something and having it thrown in my face, and then recovering from it only to find myself falling for the same things all over again with someone new. But this person is different, yet I have to wait for her, but she will disappear from my life. I don’t want that…
She makes me want to strive, but then not being there for her makes me sick, I’m being to obsessive maybe.
I feel empty without her, she’s special, and I don’t want this […]
ive lost everything. My money, my friends, my family, my job. People keep telling me “oh you’re only 16 you’ve got your whole life ahead of you” but I know that’s total bs. Of those 16 years, I’ve been depressed for 6 and I’ve wanted to die for 4. I don’t want to see what life brings in 30 years. Because I already know what it’s gonna be like. Me miserable, alone, broke, probably homeless living off booze weed and ramen I cook using trash fires and a pot I stole from walmart. Trying to find a way to die but unable to actually do […]