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What I Wish I’d Known Five Years Ago – Finn Butler

by stellaeric 6/9/2013

written by stellaeric

What I Wish I’d Known Five Years Ago – Finn Butler

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I know the heart is a heavy thing
and if today you managed to lift it
a few inches off the ground,
I am proud.

You need to understand that there are no turning points.
Your life is not a movie and your fears will not disappear
as soon as someone loves you back. There are only moments
when the glimmer of light you are chasing seems closer
than the darkness that is always chasing you but in these moments
every single thing has been worth it.

And I know sometimes you only want it […]

6/9/2013 0 comment

I guess I’m back to cutting, again.

by Miss Blythe 3/18/2013

written by Miss Blythe

i think i went over a month without cutting. now i’ve done it nearly every day for 5 days. My head hurts, my mouth hurts, my throat hurts… i think i’m just forcing myself to live until my next shrink appointment. is that the way my life is going to go? making myself resist suicide until the next month’s appointment? i’m such a loser. i have so much cleaning to do, so much happiness to fake. stuck between wanting to eat and wanting to starve, but wanting and doing are two different things. i will always eat, because food is all i’ve really got.

3/18/2013 1 comment

Have I told you my favorite word is Halcyon? I hope tomorrow is a Halcyon day.

by jjgirl13 10/23/2012

written by jjgirl13

I’ve set my date. It’s tomorrow.

I’ve set it so many times before. I keep putting it off. Dragging my feet. But life isn’t looking like sparkles anytime soon.Â Well, not life in general. Just me. Life could be sparkles. I don’t think I can see it again though. I’ve lost the art of experiencing joy.Â There’s no point not living; existing and living are two different things, and I can’t bear the former. Can’t walk the edge of the knife forever. Have to choose a side at some point.

When I look out the window, it’s fall. Fall is my favorite season. The air is crisp, and I […]

10/23/2012 25 comments

An intro – seems like so many days run togethor

by donotgiveashit 6/21/2012

written by donotgiveashit

This is first time I have ever posted on web about suicide, this is actually pretty cool. I will not go into all my problems, just to the point where as so many other times in my life, I question why am I living? I have lost really great jobs, decent marraige, etc. and now I feel alone. I also like many others here have seen countless therapists, doctors, been diagnosed with two different things by several doctors, bottom line – I am miserable, I hate where my life is, unfortunately I do not have the balls to commit suicide. I prayed even today several […]

6/21/2012 3 comments

My eyes open…

by warrenkarlneild26 2/28/2012

written by warrenkarlneild26

Where am i?

Groggy and disorientated! Scared, no…Terrified! Lost! Alone! Â Iv’e disappeared into a bottomless pit of desperate pessimism.

I find myself lying on the floor, naked. The room is a mess. The abstract paintings on the wall are askew and there’s glass sprinkled like dangerous confetti all over the carpet. My head is throbbing to unknown injuries and my thoughts are incoherent. I’m having difficulty remembering where i should be and how i got to be here. Is that electricity sparking between the lights? What’s going on?

Where did Vicky go? I needed her and she was here. I spoke to her and the others, Warren? Jackie? […]

2/28/2012 13 comments