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Two years

I try

by death pisces 6/9/2017

written by death pisces

I read something today what reminds me of something I forgot.

“My goal this summer is to just fall back in love with myself and the world and life again.”

Yeah, I rememeber that this was my goal for last summer. And last year. And the year before. And here I am.

Still not loving me like I used to do and still not loving life again. I’m drowning since nearly two years now and I see nothing better to come. The only reason why I’m still here are my parents but I don’t know how long I can take it. I told them how I feel but […]

6/9/2017 0 comment

What the fuck should I do

by tuningout12 4/25/2017

written by tuningout12

Fisrt of all I’m not proud of this. I’ve never thought I would be publishing something in a page like this. I guess there’s a first time for everything.

Second, I’m spanish that’s why my grammar sucks, pretty much that.

I have no idea where should I start. I’ve been depressed for a lot of years, I tried to kill myself a couple of times but I didn’t suceed.

Background:

My parents are not together, they divorced when I was eight. My mother started returning really late from work, kids started bullying me at school, but I could handle it, until I was twelve. My father was getting married […]

4/25/2017 10 comments

I don’t know what I want anymore

by Tummibear 11/6/2016

written by Tummibear

I’m just going to put this here for me to re-read when I’m at a low point. Kind of as a public time-capsule. Bear with me as it’s going to be a lot about I-Me-My.

I was born to a single mom with a lot of personal issues. She was a pretty promiscuous party girl during my early childhood. She dated, and we lived with a few
different drug dealers before I was even 3, not that I minded at that age. I temporarily lived with my grandma for a year from 3 to 4. I don’t have any memory of
this but apparently, according to […]

11/6/2016 7 comments

I WILL DIE TONIGHT (AVISGONE)

by avisgone 1/28/2016

written by avisgone

Tonight, I am planning to kill myself. I have planned many times to but I have held back because of what seemed like people who cared or the sacredness of what people would think if I failed. Tonight, however, ends all of this. To if you were my friend or you call yourself a friend of mine, I am sorry, but you should have known this was coming. To my family aside from my adoptive mom, I am sorry. To my teachers and other adults, why could not have done something. I know you guys have seen my cuts and scars. Some of you have […]

1/28/2016 16 comments

Alive and Kicking

by Stoic0209 9/14/2015

written by Stoic0209

I really have no reason to complain. I’ve done pretty well for myself. I got my degree, got a good job, etc. my students loaned will be paid off by early next year.

But in the pursuit of all this I lost one thing that has haunted me for years now. Love.

I was engaged to be married may 2013 to my college sweetheart. We’d been together through a lot of things, but there were some things I should have noticed were not right. She never really loved me. I denied it at first, but that’s the only conclusion. We got together in college because neither one […]

9/14/2015 9 comments

terriblelife55

by disyy 12/16/2014

written by disyy

As a kid growing up, I didn’t grow up happy. The pain I go through everyday of my life does not equal to the average kid today. My biological father was my everything to me when I was young. He was the only person I look up to. We weren’t close, but he was the one in my life that gave me hope and happiness. Around the age of five, I was oblivious to see our family problems. I had no idea what was going on. My father told me in the midst of my sleep that he loved me, that he was leaving. Again, […]

12/16/2014 4 comments

It’s Been Two Years…

by thefailure 10/7/2014

written by thefailure

I’m still alive. For now, anyway.

My wonderful adventures with DCFS are over-not only did we get the kids home, we blew the lid off some serious corruption in the courts, too. And my asshole in-laws will never, ever be allowed to foster another child. They’ll never see my kids again-we ended up going no contact with my husband’s entire family a little over a year ago, and our lives have gotten progressively better ever since. Amazing how things improve when you stop surrounding yourself with assholes.

I also cut off my relatives. All of them. I finally realized that they’ll never change, and I don’t have […]

10/7/2014 0 comment