It happened after my 7th attempt, I was desperate and intrigued to Attempt again. My parents suggested we head to the mall, on my way to the car I found something that got me excited. There was a big Anti-freeze container sitting outside In our neighbors doorsteps. Now Ive been researching my crap for 3 years so I knew damn well how dangerous that thing is. The next day after that I told my parents I’m taking walk outside, little did you know I went to grab that antifreeze and dashed as fast I could without getting seen by anyone. I went behind the church […]
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Twice in the past week I’ve tried to hang myself.
How naive of me, to think it would be so easy?! Yeah, it’ll be painful but I’ll only feel it for 5minutes I thought. I even got the right measurements for an immediate neck break and everything. (thanks to an anonymous website)
Yet I am stopped by the simplest things. The first time nearly happened spontaneously in a toilet cubicle at school …okay that sucked. I got interrupted by a fucking teacher anyway. T_T
Then I tried in my bedroom when no-one was around. And the peg snapped. I was so close. Instead I tried hanging myself lying […]
I wrote a post sometime last week. I am not sure of the date as it was mostly a blur.  The time came again. Last Tuesday at 5pm after countless minutes/hours/days/weeks etc etc of wondering if suicide was what I want, I tried to commit suicide for the third time. I popped a hell of a lot of panadol, drank some vodka and cut my wrist (again). This time I was going to be successful, I was bleeding everywhere (I had hit a vein) and I was slowly passing out. It was getting harder and harder to keep my eyes open. Then much to my disgust my mother […]