When I look forward and try to picture my future I see absolutely nothing. That petrifies me, that feeling of dread catches in my lungs and I don’t know what to do. How do I make it go away? Dear god I need something. The blade is not enough anymore, I love her, I always will, but it’s becoming dull. I fantasise about suicide, the how’s and when’s … pills or hang from a rope or a trip off a ledge, if you dare. I want more than anything to make it stop; I need it all to fucking stop. I have never attempted, I […]
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So, my wife fucked another dude about 2 years ago and then left me for the guy I caught her with. Â I then got fucked over by the feminist judge after the Mrs. pleaded the BS “emotional abandonment routine” in court even though we had what I thought was a great relationship and now I pay her about 90% of my paycheck. Â On top of that she got the house, the kids, blah blah blah. Â Her and her family then got her sister to come out and said I had slept with her when I had not and she was 15 at the time so […]
It feels like such a monumental task to explain everything that got me to where I am today. I simply don’t have the energy to write it right now, if ever. I don’t know.
Lately I’ve just been letting the days go by, I keep hoping something good will happen and change the current situation I’m in. I’ll explain the tip of the iceberg.
On February 20th, my best friend named jackie was supposed to video chat with me that night. We had just gotten off a stressful video chat during my lunch break that day. A few […]
Over the past 6 months my life has change in so many ways. my wife of 22 years left, took the kids and has been hiding them ever since. I have tried calling the local law but no one really gives a shit. I am a good dad and have done nothing to warrant her actions in reagrds to her taking the kids. i am working with a lawyer but the court system takes so long. I am so depressed and cant seem to turn it off or be able to go to a happy place. I have also […]