was then sexually abused by a nieghbour. My Dad now says that it part of the course?? I have tried to take my life many times. I know feel that i do not want to end it all

Hi
I would really like to share my story with you all.
I first took my first od at fourteen, 40 parecetomol. Was very sick as you can imagine.
my story goes. my mother abondoned me at 18 mths old, yet went on to have more children. I became so insecure as then my dad remarried to a hag, who constantly abused me, physically with mostly a potatoe masher and throwing me down stairs, I