as a person I can generally endure alot losing friends, doing bad in school, arguments with my family, deadlines, a slowly declining bank account and other daily stresses i can survive a lot on my own but today everything kindof just got to me a litl bit. Today i felt my heart seriously racing im not even exagerrating it got to the point where i thought i was gona hav a heart attack. Im on the skinny side too it wasnt really due to physiological causes it was mostly just me getting to that level of stress. im striving to b a doctor/surgeon n im […]
What is respect and why dbe people demand it…..why do people ask to be treated wit more respect then others……I really do get it……Respect doesn’t exist?.. But I don’t know, what do you think?
evry day i wake up next to mi girfrind
she is teh luv of my lyf, her smile is so butiful.
i m reely scared dat i will hert her bcuz she is rlly in2 bondage
1 day wen we wer gettin dirty i got carried away
ALL I SAW WAS RED
nxt thing i now she waz pased out on da bed wit blod evrywere
i had broked her but
aftr i had take her to haspitol she had lst so mch blod she now brane damged
nd she hats me
nd bcuz i luv her so mch and trst evryting she thnks
i now h8 myself nd m goin to Â kil self
gudbye ally, […]
It seems almost childish to be posting something here – from my perspective anyway. I’ve always associated some sort of guilt with sharing. Â I’ve never been great at articulating my feelings well, and I’ve never found much comfort in expressing them, regardless. I’m not exactly sure what I’m even searching for by registering here. Closure? Comfort in confiding in countless, faceless others? Furthermore, I’m not even certain that, after posting this, I’ll even bother to return and read the comments – again, I’m uncertain as to my feelings regarding this. Fear, perhaps? Or maybe it seems unnecessary, as my only goal was, ultimately, expressing this […]
”When I Die, Fuck It! I Wanna Go To Hell. ‘Cause I’m A Piece Of Shit, It Ain’t Hard To Fuckin’ Tell. It Don’t Make Sense Goin To Heaven Wit The Goodie-Goodies.Â Dressed In White, I Like Black Tims And Black Hoodies.”
I’m so done wit life..I cut way worse and way deeper than I ever have tonight..I can’t live life anymore I’m so done..
The black ominous shadows loomed up and faded away as I ran through the halls of what seemed to be a dungeon.
Up a head a figure sat in a curled ball against the dingy wall, as I approached I saw her bruised eyeless face â€œ indulgeo quis is has perfectus tamen nunquam alieno â€œ it hissed at me.(forgive what she has done but never forget)
Spasmâ€™s of pain racked my body as memories forced there way into my head.
My torso convulsed as more waves came upon me, worst than the next,its like standing on theÂ bottom step and having throwing knivesÂ hurled down stairs.
But no matter how […]
Maybe I need to live in hell on earth before I can ascend into heaven? I feel as though my life on earth is just a plain hell. I walk, aimlessly, seeking some type of purpose. It never seems to be attainable.
I think out of my whole life, i was only happy for a year. After that, I never found that kind of joy again or magic so to speak. I know compared to others, I should be grateful for what I do have. I just cannot seem to be uplifted.
I look at myself and just feel disgust. Maybe my life is an evil joke […]
i dont what to do anymore… when i was a kid i always got beaten by my parents sumtimes for nothing… i always saw my father beat my mother and out of anger my mother beating herself…. my mother once told me she never wanted me and my father says no point of having a daughter cuz i don’t have interest in cooking or cleaning …. my parents got divorced after living with each other for more that 10 years… after their divorce none of my friends wud ever talk to me till today been 10 yrs nw and i dont have a single friend….. […]
Our journey continues in my mind.Â We converse, we laugh, we dance, we engage in battle with zombies, we awaken the Harbinger in the ones who are lost and suffering.Â I know you’re suffering right now and it’s torture for me.Â If there’s anything I can do, let me know.Â I begin school in the spring (I hope) to obtain an associate’s degree in Physical Education.Â The Vampire Order grows and it seems as if my friends with Anonymous have the same intentions.Â I have discussed joining Anonymous with the Order.Â We feel at this time, we will remain separate, as we draw inspiration through […]
Well today is the day, im finally leaving this horrible life of mine. I have discovered somethings recently that have become the straw that broke the camels back. So im taking care of the problem, and that problem is me. You can call me selfish, i dont care, i know i am. If its selfish to end my life to end the pain and lonliness i have been dealing with my whole life, then so be it. No one will miss me, because i dont give a shit about anyone anymore. People say that killing yourself is wasting god’s gift. Well i dont believe that […]
“I have a dream that if a person desires to die that person should be aided to do so to help their passing be as easy as possible instead of letting them suffer alone to create a more painful exit. Death comes to us all. Why not help those that desperately need it.”
I believe there should be a program designed to test people’s desire to end their life. This program would involve doctors, but its rules would be governed by former depressed people & suicide survivors that cope with living. They will calculate a system to divide those that could be […]
well last night i lost it and dumped the rest of my pills down my throat…i wish i were like the restof youwhere i could drone on and make some huge intresting explaination about what happened but i cant…i feel like a real ass not expressing my issues because now you guys think i make them up right? Well here goesmy explaination:you dont know how it feels to wake up everyday and be drowned wit annoying bothersome voices and demons who leap onto you and rip your soul out! You dont know how it feels to always long for suicide, to always look down at […]
as long as i chudd remember my mom was on drugs. wen she was high on pills me nd my sister picking her uhp off dha floor nd putting her on dha bed, making shure she ate, nd giving her a bath became a every dayÂ routine. we were young, very young nd we had to run behind our mom like a toddler. our dad wasnt going to do iht nor was our brothers, he had a enough wit herÂ poppingÂ pills nd being selfish. me nd my sister was too bhuh our love for our mom was so much dhatt iht chuddnt let us leave her der. […]
â¯Jst as i am without one record of hapines.an overdue chronicle of sadness.i hpe it arowses ur dead conscience 2 realise dat all tru dose yrs dat i ws down and u kept on kicking.still wit dose scales dats on my arm..all tru d nite u stole d light and left my lyf in total darkness.a perfect being i still remain 2 d few who cares i ll gve ds seemingly worthless lyf of mine 2 share a moment wit all u angels.here i stand a perfect being.not dat i am free but that i am loved by those who bruise.here i am 2 draw […]
Okay so when I first started this, I had not one thing to say on it. Now I have a slight idea…
When I first joined The Suicide Project I was lonely, depressed. I had suicidal thoughts running through my mind, tormenting me. I have attempted suicide 5 timesÂ so far.Â My memories haunt my every waking moment and I cut my wrists and upper arms so deep that the scars will never heal. I would cry because I hated myself so much, I hated my looks, I thought I was the ugliest person alive, my weight to me 7 andÂ a half pounds or 107ibs, I thought this […]
Your mom finally knows the real me now..suicdal..n she says she dont want you to be with me cuz of that but what do you want..u laughed when she told you that..and you say “I’m glad every1 is starting to see the real me” so what your saying is you want people to make you break up wit me or something cuz im pretty sure they’re guna tell you that…every1 has there limits babe
well ive been with this amazin guy for 1 year, 5 months, nd 1 week.. evryday i feel soo grateful for havin him.. nd hez fixed the problems i had wit my family.. he evn helped me thru the pain ofÂ the past 15 yrs of physical abuse ive suffered.. nd evrythin is perfect.. my grades culd use a little help.. other than dat, evrythin is perfect. but wen im alone.. all those thoughts of suicide nd alcohol nd drug abuse come rushin thru my head.. nd i feel like im abt to fall over nd jst pass out.. i get light headed nd feel a […]
my life feels like a living hell the only good thing in it my only true friend the one person that i trusted has now abandoned me jst like everyone else i opened up to her hoping she would accept me but iwas wrong now im more alone than ever i feel like its hopeless there will nvr b someone who understand someone whose willing a stand by me i will always b alone and now im left wit nothing no family no friends jst me a worthles sack of skin bones and blood
Im sitting in my apartment listening to the verve and thinking about how lucky i am. I swear i dont im gona stop smiling for a week.
Im happier than usual because i met someone amazing. She is so perfect its crazy. I seriously never thought i would ever meet anyone i could like every again. But this girl has been relentless, i met her in the library and she has been coming up and talking to me for a few weeks now, i have been politely brushing off her advances until now. Last Saturday i was sick of making excuses, i just said look i […]