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Foreshadowing my Climax

by luckystar 2/14/2013

written by luckystar

Before this post is removed, I hope someone can help me find the information I need. For the SP Moderator, whenever you swoop in, technically I am writing about my suicide story.Â It just hasn’t happened yet. Foreshadowing technically counts as a literary technique. I’m writing the introduction to my story. If Shakespeare was allowed to give away the ending of Romeo and Juliet, why can’t I?

Of all the methods I have (not efficiently) researched and heard discussed, the one most obtainable and suitable for me would be a bullet through the brain. However, as an incompetent, sheltered teenager, I don’t even know how to buy […]

2/14/2013 6 comments

the cold war of my heart

by Alayna 2/11/2013

written by Alayna

Currently we are studying the cold war in my history class, I think about how a war was never really fought. I realize that the fight between my heart and my brain is like the cold war except I am the only casualty my body and soul take a beating every day while my mind battles what my heartÂ desperatelyÂ wants…the sweet relief of death…theÂ adrenalineÂ caused by the blade and the worry that I will soon be caught…

2/11/2013 0 comment

my story

by xxxlonelyxxx 12/28/2012

written by xxxlonelyxxx

Hey everyone most of you might know some of this but i really just need to get this out. No one really knows some of this stuff in my life but I need to get it off my chest.. I can’t carry this weight forever. and I can’t carry this weight alone. I trust so many of you on this site not to judge me or even respond but just to.. understand. Sorry if this doesn’t make much sense either.. I’m just trying to purge all of this information to maybe make more sense of it.. don’t worry it won’t be too long ill try […]

12/28/2012 5 comments

Please help, suggestions

by MusicMatters 12/14/2012

written by MusicMatters

My dad is depressed andÂ I’mÂ a little worried about him. IÂ don’tÂ know why I feel the fear I do of losing him to this depression but I am scared. The last two nights he has come home late and been drinking,, not hardÂ liquorÂ just beer, but if you knew my father,Â you’dÂ know, before the depression he might of drank one beer every 7 to 8 months ( notÂ exaggerating) Â his depression has struck a cord in me and In worrying about him I kind of worry about myself. IÂ don’tÂ mean to sound selfish, because I am not but if suicide were on his mind and he went through with it (though […]

12/14/2012 3 comments

by imsodone12 12/4/2012

written by imsodone12

Once I was happy,

Full of laughter and cheer,

So sometimes I wonder

How I ended up here.

Life just seems grim,

And I don’t want to try,

Everyday I go home,

I sit down and cry.

You made it worse,

Your Â teasing and fun,

I was ready to give up,

And admit you had won.

But instead I pushed on,

Didn’t want to let go,

Didn’t want to give up.

But how could you know?

You didn’t know,

Because I wouldn’t talk,

Open-mouthed you’d stare,

As I struggled to walk.

No one would help,

But you couldn’t see.

Inside I was crying,

For you to help me.

But why should you notice?

Why should you care?

I bet you couldn’t tell,

If I vanished, into thin air.

You didn’t see,

How bad I […]

12/4/2012 0 comment

The Day

by JustTooLate 11/11/2012

written by JustTooLate

Walking through the halls
Glancing only at profiles
Never look em in the eyes
So why do I even own a mobile?

If anyone ever got to know me
They’d know im not suchÂ a bad guy
Im just like everyone else homie
Except, oh yeah, I wanna die

Is that was this is all about?
You people feeling weird?
You getting a tingling in your tummy
And an ichin in your beard?

Well don’t worry that’s normal.
Just not for someone who was built.
Like you.
My friend, that not-so-friendly feeling is guilt.
It’s true.

Now I can name names
And I can point fingers all day
But that […]

11/11/2012 4 comments

Just A Lil Letter From Me To You, Lovlies<3

by nolove14 10/5/2012

written by nolove14

Quit Worrying About How You Look, it’s About Whats On The Inside!

i don’t care who you are. your beautiful and amazing in your own unique and special way, please don’t let what he/she says make you stop believing that. the people who hurt you most are the ones who usually are the closest to you…but don’t beat yourself up, and depress yourself with it, because they may have called you ugly. stupid. fat. etc..but only you can believe them..only you can take it to heart. only you can take it as far as it gets. You, are Your Biggest Enemy. free yourself from mental slavery, […]

10/5/2012 4 comments

Honey, Here comes a lullaby….

by Nat.... 8/11/2012

written by Nat....

‘Well, I know the feeling,
Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge,
And there ain’t no healing,
From cutting yourself with the jagged edge,
I’m telling you that, it’s never that bad,
Take it from someone who’s been where you’re at.’

Damn, I love Nickelback.

Anyways. Feeling depressed :I and obviously suicidal.

Did i tell you guys about the day before my birthday? Well, I didn’t really know much about Daniel then, I just knew that I had a voice in my head that was driving me crazy. For some reason I thought I could release the voice inside my head by scratching at my hand until […]

8/11/2012 33 comments

Cold Summer-2

by queen827 7/13/2012

written by queen827

Its happening again. can someone help me. I feel that peak, that moment approaching again. but this time the decision has already been made. I wont be brought to that point again and not go through with it. I will ignore any signals this time because those signals will be like the ones from b4- a fake illusions to buy time for right now. Im very sad…very dark…i dont want nothing but a solution as to how to do this quietly and quickly. I want to plan it properly. Start a fight or some reason for me to be gone for a few days, I […]

7/13/2012 3 comments

LMFAO

by subtle_bloodstains 6/20/2012

written by subtle_bloodstains

That awkward moment when that person you forgave betrays you in EXACTLY the same way again.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

It’s actually funny because of how screwed over I am.

But don’t worry, retaliation is coming, *****. I let the last time slide because I must be a fucking saint, but this will not go unpunished.

MWAHAHAHAHAHA. You’ve yet to reckon with me, sweetheart.

6/20/2012 5 comments

Update: Fade to Black

by Help89 5/14/2012

written by Help89

I just can’t deal anymore. Everyone says to “hold on” and “be strong”. But they do not walk in my shoes. They do not feel the pain I feel. They were not physically and emotionally abused in their childhood. They didn’t see their boyfriend of 6 years find a new girlfriend and the two of them crack jokes about me on Facebook, saying that I am lunch meat while the new girlfriend is steak….yet the ex-boyfriend calls and tells me the same week he not over me and wants to be friends and I am a great person.Â How can I be a great person if […]

5/14/2012 2 comments

Fade to black

by Help89 5/12/2012

written by Help89

5/12/2012 4 comments

the Watcher

by the Guardian 5/5/2012

written by the Guardian

the Watcher

The woodsmen, on this day as any other, dragged his found logs from the forest, on a small cart, into the village. Winter was coming and like his father before him he would need to gather a lot of wood to fend off the coming cold. He patted his children on the head and headed back into the dark cool forest for another load of wood. Deeper and deeper he searched for trees that had fallen and split so that he may break them with his hands and fill his cart. Deadfall wood was getting hard to find, his need was great but his […]

5/5/2012 5 comments

She told me I’m strong, for never letting go of my smile.

by mysmilecoversalot :) 4/6/2012

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

I really feel like I don’t belong here. For awhile, I thought I was holding on for a purpose, but now I just feel like it is my time to go. I can’t hurt everyone who loves me. I promised myself I wouldn’t do that to them, they don’t deserve it. I was getting counseling, but I hated every second of it… I thought it would be hard to convince my therapist I was okay again, but it wasn’t… at all. The lies came so quickly, I know the perfect things to say. She believed me, every expression she gave was of utter joy. She […]

4/6/2012 6 comments

Not so down but getting there…

by aerapp09 3/24/2012

written by aerapp09

I’ve so often thought of suicide, but when I hear that word it seems inappropriate to convey what I really want. The truth is I just want an ending. I want to be free from the expectations of parents and people around me, free of the worry for money or to have a social standing. I’ve been going to college for 3 years and they haven’t been very happy. Now I flunked cell biology and my moms cutting me off, and spoke to me with the most sincere sense of disappointment. She said she loved me but I saw no love in her words. It’s […]

3/24/2012 0 comment

dont want to live

by tphg 3/21/2012

written by tphg

life and living, for me, is an outfit. you put on all these clothes that weigh you down but eventually, end of the day comes; time to strip ’em off and rest.

I’m afraid that I’m genuinely losing my mind. That analogy, if you can call it that, is a half finished thought. So many of my thoughts are half finished and incoherant; I’M half finished and incoherant HAHAHA! self loathing is always hilarious.

I try to wear my life for as long as possible, but I always end up stripping it off and proclaiming myself animal.

What am I saying? WHat am I writing? How is […]

3/21/2012 4 comments

What should I do?

by shtbnhk 1/31/2012

written by shtbnhk

I keep starting and deleting everything I write. I try and articulate how I’m feeling and what I feel I need to do but I just can’t. It’s not so much that I’m insecure, mostly just that everything I try to explain doesn’t come out right. Writing has never really been my strong point. I really need someone to talk to but there really isn’t anyone here (not the site but where I live). I tried to open up to my mom but she’s was so oblivious to what I was trying to tell her. And I can’t really blame her because she is going […]

1/31/2012 1 comment

last papercut

by lastdose 6/30/2009

written by lastdose

Too deep to hurt,
yet too painful to ignore,
i try to forget,
but there’s blood on my floor.

screaming inside,
but mouth swollen into a smile,
i sing a song,
cause i know I’ll be here awhile.

it stings and it burns,
like fire among us,
but don’t worry at all,
i won’t make a fuss.

if you see me lie here,
just laugh and walk away,
because some things are just too fast to see,
and for a mistake you will pay.

I’m shattering inside,
a heart of broken glass,
yet with each new strike,
the pain starts to pass.

as I’ve told you before,
my mouth is […]

6/30/2009 6 comments

Hey all…

by jtmajor 5/13/2009

written by jtmajor

It’s Jake and I’m proud to say that the site I have created ( jaketalks.web.officelive.com ) is growing in the number of volunteers. This site offers you a place to talk 1 on 1 with real PEOPLE for free regardless of who you are or what you are battling. I hope to hear from some of you that I have grown to care about. You may still e-mail me at jacob.major@stu.oldham.kyschools.us or paintballerspike777@yahoo.com

All are encouraged to visitÂ the site. I hope to hear from those of you that want to talk. Don’t worry about someone force-feeding you any religion or beliefs. We are here […]

5/13/2009 0 comment

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