Sometimes it seems like everyone hates me. Like every single thing i do is wrong and terrible. I wish i could just turn off my life and start over. Get new friends, not backstabbers. Stop caring what other people think. Stop being such a terrible person. And just get a life that I love, instead of living this life where I’m just waiting for the next time I’ll make a mistake. I don’t want to die, I’ve never had the real urge to kill myself. Hurt myself, yes, but never end my life. I honestly thought I had a best friend who would […]
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worthless. death. suicide. boring. annoying. hated
That’s how i feel 99 percent of the time. I feel so alone. I hate bein alone. I hate it because I can think. And its bad when I think. Nothing good ever comes out of that, only scars and tears and bad thoughts. I feel like everyone is forgetting me. Why can’t I be normal and loved? Why did God have to put me in this place? I hate living and I wish I was dead. Nothing good ever happens so there is no point to it then. Why hurt when freedom is just on the other side? It doesn’t cost to die. And […]
Let’s look at this in terms of reasons people use to live. You know, all those annoying people who go “Count your blessings!”. Well, here are my blessings. Thanks a whole fucking lot, asshole.
My Family:
Dad- Strongly dislikes me because I’m constantly disappointing him in that I don’t take good enough care of my health and that I am not smart enough. He loves all my sisters better than me, because there’s already one he loves for being cute, for being smart, responsible, nice, etc. There’s no role left for me, except for the stupid, loud, tagalong. I know he hates me, he just tries […]