Okay, so nearly six months ago, I was extremely lucky to find an awesome girlfriend. She’s beautiful, smart, funny, caring, the lot. But, she has a few major shortfalls. One: she can’t deal with my depression or bi-polar very well at all. Two: she shuts down when I try to talk to her (I.E. she tries incredibly hard to either swap topic or turn it into something else) and three: she doesn’t like the fact that I smoke (she fucking hates it more than I hate me).
Anyways, I very rarely see her these days because her schoolwork is absolutely ridiculous. She’s only in year […]
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Year 11
i remember when life was fun, it was exciting and adventurous. i remember as a little girl, sitting in class dreaming of growing up and travelling the world. i remember dreaming of the places i would go, and the things i would do. i remember dreaming of my career, and the love of my life. but now, i sit here in year 11. life seems to have gone so quickly, i walk through the hallways at school as a  nobody. invisible and unseen. bad thoughts running through my head, constantly. life seems to be a burden now, a task, something i must endure. yet no […]
hey im new at this im gonna be straight foward now im not good at spelling or punctuation so just stay with me
ive always had the feeling of committing suicide but always ignored it,till just recently when a ex student from our school killed himself.i dont why or what but from him doing it i got a sense that it was socially accepted some how…
so i started daydreaming about where and when to do it what my parents would say or do.how life around me would be and it hit me no one would really care eveyrone would just get on with life.but recently my […]
8 minutes. I was 8 minutes too late to catch the very end of the Liverpool vs Arsenal game tonight.
I’m not your regular football fan, in fact I’ve never even watched a full game before… Until recently I had never presented an interest in Football, but it’s basically our sport, England’s sport, just like ice-hockey to Canada or basketball/baseball to America. And to not even know how the game is supposed to function doesn’t quite give off the impression that I’m proud to be English. And also there’s this guy, and well the guy before that, and the majority of my male friends for that […]
I hate it when every time i feel like i’m getting somewhere with maintaining and re-establishing my 8 year friendship with my best friend she finds a new way to dimish all hope of us still being friends when we leave school and i don’t have alot of time because year 11 finishes in 10-11 weeks and my friend will stop going to school to go to tafe and it’s frustrating because it feels as though i’m the only one fighting for our relationship, because i’m the one to ask her do you want to see a movie? go shopping? or have a sleepover? and every single time […]