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if you are 15, then you have all we would like to have to be happy. It is easy to feel the way he does at his age, but at the age of 15, what is troubling you?

At 15 you have the horizon and the sky and the 7 seas to cross, and boyfriends, and friends, and volleyball in the beach and Eurail pass, and college parties and some booze up, and learning Spanish, and growing flowers, and helping homeless children and gettting a degree and go to Europe in an Erasmus program, and have a boyfriend in that country, and go to Venice and take pictures and take a trip on a gondle, and try Italian pizza, and join a cause, and celebrate Christmas and buy yourself an Iphone and an Ipod and get an account in facebook and put your album on the net, and gather with your friends to gossip all night long, and buy your first car, and apply for a job, and be cute and change the color of your hair, and visit one day a church and see what that looks like, and watch one day one of those trashy reality shows. That is what you can do, and then find your love, and have them for you always and be his forever and go together shopping in the supermarket and cook together and bring him breakfast and make out and marry and have children and decide where to live, and be in love every single minute of your life.

We would give our lives for that. But we cant, because we dont a life to give. However, you, with 15, you have all that.

I could not create a family because I have always been extremely poor, despite my Harvard education and all that great know how, life works other way, but it will not happen to you because you are 15 and you can plan.

Bless you girl, I wish, I wish, I wish I were 15!