i’m getting nowhere.  why is it that i don’t hold onto the things i experience and people i talk to? it’s like everything passes through me, i don’t absorb anything, i am hollow. it’s a struggle to produce a thought.

on friday a girl at work said she doesn’t want to work in the same room as me because i’m boring, the guy she was talking to chuckled. safe to say that no one wants to be around me. idk what it is about me that makes people not start a convo with me, on some occasions i’ve put the effort in to try to start […]

Is anyone else enjoying her getting publicly dragged?

When she first came out to the limelight, and the very first time I saw her speak in those videos, at the memorial and the creepy one where she’s whispering to his chair – I knew she was a fake ass shit. But at that time, ALL the commenters and MAGAs were ALL vigorously and vocally defending her saying “Everyone grieves differently. “. Which is bs bc she is anything but a grieving widow. It was obvious to me from day one.

It’s satisfying to FINALLY see the public turn on her bc she is SO obvious […]

This showed up on my feed lol. I guess YT Algorithm thinks I’m morbid (which I am)

If you’re into morbid YT vids:
(This is only Animated stick figure)

“What dying from every type of poison feels like:”

Anyone can see a storm cloud over me
Once sunshine and rainbows appeared like new chapters, ushering wishes and blessings

A bridge to nowhere flickered first and shimmers endlessly
what started out another chance is so batten by the torrents of God’s anger toward me, for being… beautiful, i guess
Tempting, they say. So I may never be free

Hallowed be thy name, and thouest may agree,
The cold and the gray of a disenchanted story is every which way
But beware the path of the righteous and afraid
Home is a broken compass… only Jesus calls, compassionately

A crown of thorns makes my eyeballs bleed,

-“Everything happens for a reason”
-“it’s God’s will”
-“it is what it is”

-writes “grabs popcorn” to everything

-“let that sink in” as if your sentence was so profound that it needs a few moments to digest.
-ppl who write out “Period” at the end of a sentence as if that makes them and their sentence more important. No, it’s just annoying.

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What phrases annoy you?

There’s a horror/dark comedy show called Happy! that I finally got to purchase on Amazon that really shaped a lot of my philosophy about death, or at least the way I’ve been thinking about intentional death lately. In the second season they have an episode called “Friend of Death”, because they are setting up a little girl to assassinate a kids show host, but you can’t kill someone straight out the gate as an innocent person, you have to make a friend of death. So they have one of the darker characters take the little girl out and help her kill someone.

It’s just something that’s […]

The guy makes great points about wealth, power, and crime. And a system that rewards psychopathic behavior.

Lee Camp- Unredacted Tonight
The One Epstein Revelation No One Says

http://youtube.com/post/UgkxXsiXqqEzQ3OTPcSq33HmCutTGEicYHt8?si=trk2bHsyOSSKttw4

Let’s air out our grievances with life/humans/society, shall we?

From big things to small things, comment here.

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Big issue- we live essentially as serfs and peasants, just like back in the old days. Nothing has changed. New rulers and new peasants, but peasants we are nonetheless. Low wages, high cost of housing, food, education, healthcare, etc. we do not own anything. Even if you think you “own” a house or land, the government can just take it away via eminent domain, banks via “unpaid taxes.” Private corporations can just burn everything down, then swoop in and buy it for pennies on the […]

Do you feel like life is just passing you by? That every year you get older but yet nothing in your life really changes? i.e. you’re still poor, still stuck at the same crappy job (or another crappy job), still stuck in that shitty house/city/state; still alone (even if you attempted multiple times and have gone out on dates, end result is still alone) etc

Do you feel like trying just nets the same result as not trying? That “resistance is futile?”

I mean we SHOULD try- after all, if we don’t play the lotto, we’ll never win. But winning the “lotto of life” […]

I rarely talk about a popular movie the way the masses do, but The Matrix is kind of like the world we are living in.

Hell, I’ve been red-pilled but if we can’t do anything to escape or change anything, is it not better to just take the other pill and stay ignorant but happy?

Ignorant and happy vs Informed and miserable.

It feels like I’m the raincloud, just hovering over the world and making everybody miserable. Like my sadness and my mess is just leaking out of me infecting everyone around me. I go from just dumping everything to isolating and only one of those options seem ‘safe’. I gotta be so miserable to be around. But I’ve kinda sorta have done better, just trying to process everything by myself. But at the same time, I’m not. I don’t know. I seem to burden the least amount when I’m numb. Even if the few I consider close could scream until they’re blue in the face that […]

I’m in that period where things go by fast. The work week goes by fast but so does my weekend. That’s the last thing I want. To become comfortable with this miserable situation. 17 weeks. I’m 1/3 of the way done. Please please please tell me I’m at least 1/3 of the way done. I’ve gotten a handful of interviews for jobs. I think they went ok-ish. Not amazing, but ok. I’ve felt better about other interviews for jobs I didn’t end up getting so it’s hard to be excited for it. I’ve also […]

Is Equality Possible in a human world?

I am deeply unhappy with humans.
I am deeply unhappy with this world.
I am deeply unhappy with the unfairness and injustices at life.
I am deeply unhappy with all the natural suffering in life (disease, bad health etc).
I am deeply unhappy with all the man-made suffering in life.

There’s lots more but too much to type
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Happiness is _________
Fill in the blank

I loved you more than my own life…
but I chose your peace over my presence

Logan’s Run is about a future society where people live perfectly, with all the pleasures available, enough food & toys & fun for everyone until age 30 when they’re “renewed”. Although they believe renewal means transference to a newborn body, it’s actually just plain death. But aside from that, everyone is blissfully happy.

I first saw the movie when I was a kid, loved it, but I didn’t understand any of the social statements being made. Now that I’m past my “renewal” date, I totally get it.

All the world’s problems are caused by people over the age of 30. To be specific, all our politicians, lawmakers, […]

How much of “Luck” in one’s life is due to one’s economic status?

I’m tired of everyone saying it’s all about intelligence and hard work because it’s not. Or one’s “mindset.” You can have the most “positive mindset” in the world, but if you’re born in the slums of India, or in the deserts Africa, or in Gaza- your life is pretty much screwed. Telling us life is all due to how smart or how hard you work or your mindset is just an excuse for ppl to tell you the reason you “failed” is bc of you, and NOT bc of systemic […]

A bit of a read but a decent article on “luck”

https://nymag.com/intelligencer/article/is-luck-real-meaning-philosopher-lee-john-whittington.html