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shame

April 21st, 2018by miszion

today I woke up on the last day of a very stressful week. I’ve been working 7 days a week for a month and yesterday was my last day at one of the two jobs. I’m also diving back into school head first after a much too long and lazy break from it. I got a call from my oldest brother who is visiting my estranged and abusive mother in another state who went missing for two days and came back drunk and was threatening to kill them and then proceeded to kick them out on the street. They were stranded with no car, not …

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can you relate?

April 21st, 2018by metamorphosis

I feel in the day on a human flight mode fighting with a sadness inside and an exterior which secretes a lie of joy to others which really isn’t there.

However from where ever you are reading this can you relate to me when you get into bed and feel the inevitability of death, your subconscious and that voice in your head can finally talk to you and tell you that you know you feel like shit and that you feel like no mater what the stuff you do even in glimmers of true happiness you will inevitably be dead. Do you ever plan …

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April 21st, 2018by spookichick

of all the people on SP, who believes in god, heaven, and/or hell and if you would, please give a reason.

personally, i don’t believe in any of them. i can’t go on blind faith.

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The World Idling Humming

April 21st, 2018by AnonymousCK

I will not argue that people aren’t shit, but there is merit in this world. Maybe not for people like us, but for some people, this existence, is the best thing imaginable. Now I know we may not get that, you have to want to see good in the world but not only that you also have to accept that there is bad. It is the yin to our yang. I’m not saying you have to be happy about it. Hell none of us would be here if we were happy. However, if you just sit back and listen to the hum of the world …

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fresh meat

April 21st, 2018by metamorphosis

will people actually reach out to me? are people going to hear my cries? its far fetched but I just wish there was someone anonymous person out there to hear my pain and help me out, I guess thats why I am here.

I lost everyone I loved and I managed to get them back but theres an artificial feeling now and I don’t know what to do, I feel wrapped in this old world and everything is fake and I have no one but myself to blame.

this is my first post and I hope by the end on this I can find hope

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What Defines Me?

April 21st, 2018by J Doe

I don’t know what I am supposed to be. What am I supposed to think. I have held on tightly to the little scraps that I thought made me unique. Then I let it fall apart. I think I wanted it to fall apart. If I lose my definition, I’m free to go, right? No more tethers to this place. I’m a coward. I’m a runner. I don’t know how to deal with difficult things, and this makes me weak.

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I feel lost

April 21st, 2018by lostsoul28

Everybody has a phase in their life when they feel lost, in my case it never seems to end. With every passing second there’s a gnawing sensation in my gut that I have lost a huge battle. I fight this battle every day in vain. The irony is I’m my biggest enemy.  I’m letting myself down everyday. I try and I fail .  It’s been so long now, I’ve grown tired of failing… I’m not tired of trying… I’m in anguish of getting up everyday facing my fear and coming back to my bed at night with the same fear of not doing enough, only …

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Who are you now?

April 21st, 2018by mranony

I don’t know anymore.

I didn’t bother what the doctors said about my mind.
I disagreed and I denied the evaluations. All that matters is what I know.

I bothered what people said about my mind.
They mocked. They joked. They sarcastically accept what you have.
But I don’t know where the line overlaps.
So, I sarcastically accept I’m a normal edgy emotional fuck.

I am a normal edgy emotional fuck.

I just want to die without labels but some sort of clarification would help.

Do all humans crave death? I guess in a certain part of our life, it does become a norm.

Do we have to have a labeled illness to kill …

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Nov 5th, 2016

April 21st, 2018by ELECTRICAT

I didn’t know how and why it happen, we were fine before but without me realising he distances himself from me. I can’t even remember what we were arguing about sometimes because he wasn’t happy with whatever i do or say, he will say i am wrong, selfish, slut, ***** and i begged him to stay everytime. Even if it wasn’t my fault i just took the blame and this has been going on for 7 months, i missed him everyday wishing that he will see me as myself.

I made a mistake that he can’t seem to forgive me and he seeks revenge, he made …

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How dare you

April 21st, 2018by laelaps

How dare skinny people to walk around in “oversized” things, like it’s the coolest of trends, while that oversized thing is my actual size. Wear clothes that fit you because god knows if I had your body I would show it off. And I know this sounds so god damn selfish of me to say but I just feel like shit knowing that I should be that size S rather my size L.

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shit

April 21st, 2018by felo-de-se

I thought I was getting better. I’m wrong. I’m so fucking wrong and I hate it.

 

It’s only my first time here, but I think I’ll be returning a lot. Because I’m a piece of shit, who is so natural and inclined to drive anyone who get closes to me, away, I don’t have anyone. People keep saying “think about your friends and family! How they would feel if you do it!”

lmao. My family won’t give a shit, and I have no friends that would care. I saw that cringe-inducing post that have this short story about what would happen when you off yourself and shit, …

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Punished

April 21st, 2018by eternaldarkness

Does anyone else feel like they’ve been put on this Earth solely to be punished? I’m not even religious and I feel like that.

It’s just never-ending misery heaped onto depression heaped onto a mountain of suffering. And all I’ve got left is a pocketful of despair.

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What’s really important in life?

April 21st, 2018by eternaldarkness

Does anything have any meaning anymore?

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Repeat

April 21st, 2018by Koda

What can I write, that hasn’t already been written before?

Shall I write of my hardships? Of my dreadful emotions and thoughts? It all repeats itself.

It just repeats.

And repeats.

And repeats.

And repeats.

And repeats.

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The pain is bad today

April 20th, 2018by definitelyworried

I been trying hanging methods today. Found one where I almost past out with not much physical pain. It’s been a month that I been planning to kill myself. I have a few things I need to take care of, otherwise I’d just do it. Sometimes I’m really close to doing anyways. The mental pain is unbearable. This no way to live. I am a 32 year old male.

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April 20th, 2018by Hulk

My grandmother doesnt hear well and she keeps the tv loud for hours and it bothers me alot. This is going on for the last seven years. Its a torture for me although my mother explained to her many times to keep it less loud, she doesnt want to understand. She has a hearing device but she doesnt like to use it
My mother and grandmother make my life hell
She has her own tv and room but the sound is quite high and it reaches me, i live in the next room
She lives in the kitchen, she has a bed there and i cant go in …

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What do I type?

April 20th, 2018by J Doe

I’m not sure. What is it that I want. I can’t tell anymore. I’m scared. There is only so much that can be done. I’m trying to calm myself down, but I don’t think that’s working. I keep going between wanting silence and noise. Everything seems so disturbing. Is anyone there? I can’t put my thoughts into words anymore. It seems like it is dragging. Can’t tell what it is doing anymore. Why do I keep going? The medicine doesn’t work? I’m not sure. Why. It seems long and …

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deleting later

April 20th, 2018by iamdarling

at the beginning the month, something about me shifted. i’ve started to care less about things, i mean i still care a huge deal just… idk, maybe acceptance? maybe i’ve accepted that i won’t ever be able to get a job, i won’t ever make any friends and my family will never stop abusing me. i don’t know. i just feel slightly different.

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April 20th, 2018by LifelessAnatomy

If anyone wants they can send me an email @ Shatteredglasszzy@gmail.com for the full transcript between me and stephan1985 also known as dick@deds.nl for full disclosure and transparency sake.

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April 20th, 2018by Hulk

Life is a bad joke, dont take it serious.

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