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Dreams

February 25th, 2017by Diem S. Sky

Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions

I keep my visions to myself.

Its only me that wants

To wrap around your dreams, and,

Have you any dreams you’d like to sell

 

Original song by Fleetwood Mac.

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Today.

February 25th, 2017by braiNsane

I think I’m going to end the pain.

For myself and everyone that has to deal with me. I hope we can all feel relief.

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!LOVE ME!!!

February 25th, 2017by The Last Snorlax

i’m so fuckin needy….

come close let me hug you and squeeze you so tight like the bunny whose head popped off

don’t worry i certainly won’t lock you up in a dungeon and keep you forever never letting go (hope you are good at humping around with an extra 300 pounds wrapped snug around your one leg)

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Analyzing the psychological reasons behind cutting

February 25th, 2017by ignorance will prevail

Well, I just tried cutting for the first time. A little background: when I was a child, for a brief period I had trichotillomania, which is classified as self harm and an impulse control disorder in which the sufferer plucks their own hairs. Much like cutting, engaging in the activity of hair plucking provides sufferers with a feeling of relief afterwards. I used to think that being masochistic and engaging in self harm were correlated, but after thinking about it myself, I realized that connecting the two together is a fallacy. The most prominent apparent reason assumed to be behind cutting for most is attention, …

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Fuck up

February 25th, 2017by braiNsane

I was supposed to open the store I work at for 8:00 this morning- I’m working alone all day- I woke up at 9:00. I kind of hope I just get fired. I can’t even handle the most minor of responsibilities. I am a fuck up.

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Better today

February 25th, 2017by shatterediris

Yesterday was pre bad, I missed part of my final, got a chance to get it doe by midnight yesterday but that didn’t happen…. Yesterday was pre bad, I don’t recall if I talked about it, but basically it involved locking myself out of my car at the gas station and having to wait there for my father to come and let me back into it…. that’s the second time in 2 weeks…. then my friend spent time with me which was nice (got home after midnight, so missed the chance to do the test) but I’m doing much better today ^_^

I’m quite happy that …

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This girl

February 25th, 2017by SJ529

I’ve been feeling suicidal again, but I can’t do anything since my birthday is just around the corner and I don’t want to put the pain out on my family, but there’s this one girl that I really like but I’m afraid that if she rejects me and I go ahead with it or fail she may blame herself for the rest of her life and I don’t want her to feel that way. Yet I still want to tell her really badly to get some closure but at the same time I don’t want to hold off my death any longer if she does …

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Update

February 25th, 2017by Casino96

Sorry I haven’t been on for the last several days. It’s just that a lot’s happened, not least of which was being horribly ill.

Plan’s off.

Everything started when my mom told me I needed to be gone at the end of the month. The job I have doesn’t pay enough for me to pay rent at the moment because I’m also going to school, so I’d have to give that up to work full time in a shitty apartment in one of the most dangerous cities in the country. I feel like such a whiny bitch typing this; it’s obviously not the end of the world …

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Miss you Wanted85!!!!

February 25th, 2017by KatRose

I hope that you are okay hun, you mean something to me and i think about you! Lots of love to you hun!!!

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Just something i needed to get out!

February 25th, 2017by KatRose

I just to be a teenager why is it so fxcking hard! Why can’t i have normal teenage problems like “omg i broke a nail” but no its “i cut” “i just had an anxiety attack for the 3rd time today” “my step dad beat me” I fr trying here but its so hard…yesterday i broke down so bad i was so depressed i was about to slit my throat till my mum walked in…i just wanna be okay! I’m trying so hard but i feel like it just not good enough and now my mums trying all these herds and natural way to help …

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Should I go out on my terms or let it play out?

February 25th, 2017by MissingMy3Hearts31921

Not sure if I mentioned this but wondering what anyone on here would do if they were told that they have a medical condition that cannot be fixed and is not going to kill you but take away your mind within two years?

Would you want to go out when your mind is still able to function correctly and normal or would you let it play out until your mind is gone and you no longer can control how you exit?

I am thinking it is better to go out on my terms and what remains of my mind instead of losing your mind and waiting to …

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When is this torture gonna end?

February 25th, 2017by BrokenAngel8

Sorry its been a long time since I have written on here. But I’ve had a lot happen in the past month.

Well first off I got a letter from my colleges pride club officers telling me that my position as social media coordinator has been eliminated. I mean having it done by email was honestly trashy and really set me off.

Me and the president have never gotten along. She has been nothing but rude and disrespectful towards me the whole year. I have had thoughts about resigning … I still kick myself in the ass mentally for that one….

The club has been a bad place …

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I’m not ok

February 25th, 2017by braiNsane

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the sounds in my head

February 24th, 2017by The Last Snorlax

and so it continues, without respite it would seem. Be it when I sleep, dream, awake, close my eyes, “surrounded” with people, or just talking to an “idiot”, the music keeps playing.
and so far, always the same:

mind you; all while i have stuck my fingers in the ears and going lalalalalalalala, and still the tunes keep playing, deafening and drowning all other sounds out
i don’t know how much more or longer i can take this….

 

PS. great, cant upload files larger than 8mb, so i hope youtube will suffice (atleast the music was avail there to link/share, i guess Tchaikovsky file sizes are too much …

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“Don’t let your diagnosis define you.”

February 24th, 2017by whiskered-fish

The worst part is knowing that I’ll never get better. I will always, always, always be crazy. And knowing that, what other choice do I have but to despise myself?

“Don’t let your diagnosis define you.” I’ve heard that a lot from therapists. But it makes absolutely no sense to me. Your diagnosis is you. Or, more accurately, your brain is you. You are your brain. And if my brain is garbage, then guess what that makes me? Exactly.

My diagnosis does define me. I don’t have an illness, I am an illness.

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Devil is weak

February 24th, 2017by xoxosiamese-catxoxo

Running nameless. Never hungry.

Born to get excited everytime the bells ring. Insignificant smile.

All cherished things are flying above our heads. Messengers are birds?

Devilish identity , pressure personified. Imposed always exerted , makes the poor worker swet and stunned to fear.

Maybe clouds direct your heart. Clouds are white while your heart is palpitating and red. Thus lightingbolts are created. Thus people walk and all they see is Godsent strikes that strike them.

It’s better to enfold yourself on the green fields. It’s preferable to allow desperate rotten men to raise their colored kites on the sky.

 

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help

February 24th, 2017by who_even_cares

i deserve this

i deserve this

i deserve this

i deserve this

i DESERVE THIS

I DESERVE THIS

I DESERVE THIS

I DESERVE THIS

help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help

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Poor Bastard

February 24th, 2017by SweetQuietus

The police “rescued” a jumper from the George Washington Bridge today.
Poor bastard.
What do I know? Maybe he wanted to be rescued.
Poor, desperate bastard.
My sympathies to you.

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February 24th, 2017by xoxosiamese-catxoxo

I look up to the sky and know i’m nobody

I close my eyes while my sight burns . I ask to be healed by this white dove. I wish to kneel at it’s grace.

I can’t picture a scene where i am someone.  I can’t touch anybody i peeled off the skin from my palms. My mother loves to call me a coward. Deep down i know i can’t face a person in the eye. My face is suffocated into black petroleum. I can’t sense anything else. All i know is the smell of asphalt that skins off my face. I can’t look straight through you. …

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They never told me I had to.

February 24th, 2017by allstarofsuicide

.. but there I went.. the usual trouble I couldn’t live without..

Death Metal people..

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