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  August 20th, 2018 by Hulk

My “mom” makes me feel like dying. Do not ask me why.

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A suicide forum is the worst place to ask for advice

  August 20th, 2018 by AXYZ

I read that in an article about online depression resources once. The author’s point was that suicidal people should not be helping suicidal people. My initial reaction was anger and wanting to tell the author she had no clue – the old “you just don’t understand” argument that we all love to end arguments with.

Over the last year or two, I’ve been reading along here, commenting less & less, posting almost never, until I realized that there is truth to what that author said, for a number of reasons.

First there’s the obvious “physician heal thyself” argument. If we give such good advice, then why are …

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Tip

  August 20th, 2018 by spectralgiraffe

Focus and work on yourself first, then on others. You are the only one you can rely on in the end. People will come and go.

PS, ex, I will see you on the 2nd Sept. I’m focusing and working on myself.
I know it will only be your loss if you don’t want me 🙂

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How Do You Know When It’s Time?

  August 20th, 2018 by thehusk

I don’t think I have it in me to live a worthwhile life. To deal with the reality of my situation, or my experience of it. There just isn’t enough motivation in me. I’ve screwed things up to such an extent that it doesn’t seem worth salvaging.

It’s entirely possible that I could still get something from life, with enough hard work, dedication, and consistency. I’m not without resources – supportive family, savings, mostly physically healthy, some education. Someone else transported into my situation could probably make a go of it. If I woke tomorrow with a completely different mind, then who knows.

The problem is what’s …

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Why does everyone lie?

  August 20th, 2018 by T3R3Z1

Hello,

It’s been on my mind for quite a while and now i’m getting trouble sleeping. Why does basically everyone lie? Why does everyone have to be so mean? Let me explain my point; the other day I was asking a girl I know why she found me so annoying and stuff, she said “I don’t, you have to understand that I really like you and I’m sorry if I did anything wrong!” Haha. In French it’s called “la mauvaise foi”. Why does she have to LIE? I don’t understand! Why does everyone has to fake the fact that they like me? I don’t deserve this! …

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can’t sleep

  August 20th, 2018 by ebullientballoon

i promised my partner to keep trying to make a better life for myself.  i have been planning to go to residential treatment to work on my eating disorder.  but i just feel like giving up.  i’m staying afloat for another couple months, then who knows.  i don’t want to upset people by dying, but my life is going nowhere.  it feels like my whole life has been leading up to my death.  it’s not that i really want to die, i just am not good at life.  i never have been. i don’t know if i just came out broken, i’d my childhood broke …

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Experimental Suicide Assistant

  August 20th, 2018 by Yikrens

First of all, I’m not a Medical. I’m not a Killer. Not a Lawyer or Judge.

I’m a Theft, for taking the Leftover of a Local Hospital. I made 13 ml of Propofol and 70 ml of Medivacain. Will that kill a Person? There are no studies, I am unaware. I can’t ask anyone so far I know.

I am Assistant. And I deliver. Nothing in return, this is not a Business. I never found a Assistant for myself. But Killer who would do it when I desire it. I dislike Pain of any kind.

I want to die Myself. Legal, with no Long an Deep relationship to …

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  August 20th, 2018 by Itsyaboy.uhskinnypenis

“Yes ma, im fine” i state whilst looking her directly in the eyes with long sleeves so she can’t see the abuse I’ve put my arms through.

“No ma, there’s nothing wrong” i say as I’m staring at the bridge im gonna commit suicide off of

“I love you too ma”. And thats the one i truly mean.

I love you more than i love anybody in the world. And im so sorry for what im gonna put you through, for the anguish you’re gonna feel that your daughter died

I love you ma.

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Misunderstood

  August 20th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

Some people are sruck in their ways. They belive that witchs were made by the devil. That its satanism to be a witch. But they never took a second to read the wiccan rede. It ends with “thou shall not harm” where does that sound like satanism? Why cant people come out of the stone age and realize that witches arent bad people?

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Is this where it ends?

  August 20th, 2018 by thomas7184

I’ve had so many conversations about suicide with friends and family, most follow the line of “I could never do that.”, “How could you ever want to end life?” Yet I wake up nearly everyday and my initial thought is – I have been squandering my years on earth. I often think, someone who didn’t get the chance to live should have my time. There has to be someone who deserves it more, who would appreciate it more and cherish the time they had with people who cared about them. Every year on my birthday I wonder why I am celebrating. Not to induce sympathy. …

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What happened on April 17, 2018

  August 20th, 2018 by HelpXairyBeatLeukemia

That was the day my family and I received news that would change are lives in a single day.
Please Help
I have two younger brothers, ages 8 and 5
April 13, 2018 my five year old brother was supposed to start his very first day of school.
The week school had begun we were told he couldn’t enter school because he needed to get his shots first.
I was pretty bummed out that he wouldn’t be able to start the same day as everyone else
But we made him a doctors appointment for the upcoming thursday.
My parents and my eldest sister were at the doctor’s appointment with him.
I was at …

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A Walk

  August 19th, 2018 by clipped-wings

I took a long walk last night in the woods. I did a lot of thinking. I enjoyed the aroma of rotten wood and ferns. Several times I listened to screech owls and insects. I was very aware of the weapon in my waistband. I took it out twice. Positioned it where I thought it would do the job. And twice I put it back. I came so close. I couldn’t do it. Maybe my next walk. Who knows?

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Something new I have written

  August 19th, 2018 by Cause of Death: Suicide

Felt as if I was being visited by the devil. I was dragged into a very dark place.
I couldn’t write about anything other.
This is about how I felt upon death, about how I presume vivid visual hallucinations will swamp your faculties.
And even after a physical death – I approach a hallucinatory experience.
No heart rate, no breath, but still images bustling in and out of your faculties.
In this stanza, the vultures are in the driest dessert.
They are crazed from dehydration.
They are everywhere, but there is no other wild life around apart from these vultures circling in the air.
Only the driest conditions.

A fire on the funeral pyre
Faith …

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i’m weak

  August 19th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

im suicidal. im breaking down. im going insane. and i havent been through anything like most of you have been through. i at least have the capability to be happy. im a horrible person for ever thinking i was anything like you.

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poem for my dad

  August 19th, 2018 by anonymousie

i am too young to lose you now
my heart is heavy and weighing me down
my tears are in abundance
forgive me if i drown

i am too weak to be strong
i am too smart to not know this is wrong
you were always consistent
when i had no one, you were here all along

but now the only thing you’re consistent at
is killing yourself slowly
you were dealt a bad hand of cards
i know you must feel lonely

you deserved everything, but you lost it all
you don’t feel like a man, you feel small
but i’m begging you to stand tall
but i know that this is your call

i can’t make you take your …

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I found the meaning of life.

  August 19th, 2018 by anonymousie

today’s the day that i have come to the conclusion that everything in life is fucking pointless. things that i love i now found a way to hate them.
i saw a dead dog on the road and immediately thought, “this is why i hate animals”. of course i don’t really hate animals but fuck. when i saw that collar around it’s limp neck, i saw children crying over their lost beloved pet. my pets will probably die before i do and i fucking hate them for it. i love them so much.
when i realized my dad was slowly dying, i found a tiny piece of …

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What are some songs/music that are therapuetic for you?

  August 19th, 2018 by Johnsmith8611

I’ve partly been listening to songs that I try to listen to to get into a good mindset so if I do the deed that I can think of those/listen to those. Some for getting over fear of death like Don’t Fear the Reaper. Others I listen to that I just listen to because they fit how I’m feeling. Five Finger Death Punche’s Wash It All Away has got me crying at the chorus. You’ll probably understand if you listen to it.

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Life and Death

  August 19th, 2018 by visual eyes

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Sed

  August 19th, 2018 by EmptyPluto

I’m trying a little. I hope you’ll be alright. You aren’t dead. Just say something, yeah? It doesn’t always work, though. The music doesn’t play itself.

Your simple ghost-like face
Brings beauty to a darkened age
Like a white rose standing alone
With a raindrop trickling down

I saw you greet the unfortunate
With a joyful smile to bring reassurance
Like a petal in the afternoon breeze
Gifting yourself to a downridden soul

It gives me all I need
All that I want
Is in your life
All you want

Your bright hair lightens everything
A great display of natural light
To everything
Everything

You shouldn’t go away
Everyone needs you
You know you need yourself
Stay for a while, just stay for a while

It …

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I think you all need to hear this song

  August 19th, 2018 by Itsyaboy.uhskinnypenis

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