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communication

June 24th, 2018by SweetQuietus

the desire to connect through ideas is negated by the understanding that all of it fails: the desire, the connection, the conveyance, the comprehension, the willing participant(s), individual’s personal agendas, honesty, compassion, having nothing of merit to say.

nothing post from no one to nobody.

hellish bubble longing for a sharp

all the narrow misses

(“there must be a ‘reason’!”)

winds of change my ass–the same breeze blown clear across the world and again.

the nature of man doesn’t change, though he thinks otherwise.

you say you understand, but do you know yourself?

 

 

 

 

 

 

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i tried

June 24th, 2018by Lifeistrash

I tried to reach out tonight.

I was more honest and open then I have ever been with anyone.

The two people I thought I was closest to in this world completely shot me down

I feel so alone. I’ve never felt this low in my whole life.

I’m so tired of hiding what’s going on in my head and now that I have tried to reach out and been rejected things are worse.

Maybe I’d be better off just going. None of it seems to matter anymore.

Not to them and especially not to me…

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Lost

June 24th, 2018by sadgirlxx

They say I have a brave soul. 

Is having a brave soul enough to go through this? This sadness. This loneliness. This feeling of being lost. No direction. 

Nothing is new. Everyday. It’s better in those times that I can cry because of something. It’s better that way than this way. I can’t cry. It is locked inside me. My emotions. My demons. 

I am lost. And I have nowhere to go. 

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Something’s Different

June 24th, 2018by Inconceivable

Something changed. I don’t think it was me, at least not to begin with.

Now I’m planning an idea so far out of my personality; something that feels like I’m retaliating. I’m not sure if I care either, Maybe it’s just an excuse to do something crazy.

What else is there to say.

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Selfish

June 23rd, 2018by unknownsoldier

I really should be happy with my life… I have a lot going for me but all I can think about is if they are better off without me.. what the fuck!

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I am a lost

June 23rd, 2018by wadehart13

I feel like I am completely useless. I have attempted 2 times before and was unsuccessful. I am 29 years old. I was married for 7 years as of the 1st of this month. I took a shot gun to my marriage. I think I am bipolar but I have never been seen for it, mainly cause I was am to afraid to actually be diagnosed with it. My marriage has turned to hell. I have been in many relationships and only ever loved one woman and I know Ill never love another woman like I loved my wife. I was never a good husband …

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Life is Pointless

June 23rd, 2018by goonanufty

I walk among people in public, see them smiling laughing, conversing with one another and I don’t get it. I can’t comprehend why they’re happy. I can no longer connect joy to living. Its stressful for me to be around people that are happy. It’s akin to being in the same room with someone with whom you have nothing in common, someone with whom you are opposites. Looking at them I am completely disconnected from them. I don’t understand what they’re so happy about and why. Why they see joy and meaning in life and I don’t. It’s becoming increasingly more difficult to be around …

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A beautiful game that’s helped me cope

June 23rd, 2018by Agnostic Angel

Heya, it’s been awhile since I posted on here.

So, a few weeks ago, I heard about this game that got released at the start of the year called Celeste. While it does have high difficulty, the relaxing music and encouraging words of the game help the player to persevere. But what really got to me was the way it handled dark subject matter such as anxiety and depression. Not just through the story and characters, but through the very MUSIC as well.

I’m not going to be reviewing the game in-depth here. Both because I don’t want to spoil anything for those who haven’t played it. …

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Darkness

June 23rd, 2018by clipped-wings

I can feel myself slipping.  My carefully managed mask of normalcy is flaking off. I’m not sleeping. I don’t eat. Drinking too much.  Getting nothing accomplished. I feel worthless. I avoid looking in the mirror because I see a sad old woman looking back. I picture myself dead.

I need to pick myself up.  I don’t want to be suicidal. I want to live. I just wish it wasn’t so hard.

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“can i die now”

June 23rd, 2018by soapandwasser

“can I die now?”
-yes. go on.

“can I die now?”
-no
“why?”
-your friends…/*no answer/why are you even asking me this?/your family

the same questions over and over and over in my head like a broken tape stuck on replay. it drains my whole self to have this question stuck on loop.

sometimes, id flick a rubber band on my upper arm, sometimes i just let it be. i cant continue being bitter at people living their lives with the privileges i either dont have or not granted for me. but im just this. bitter as fuck. at people on social media.

some of these people are my friends. …

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quick question, im curious

June 23rd, 2018by born.loser

why do suicidal people cut themselves?

is to feel something or what?

 

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My problems, I guess

June 23rd, 2018by NotAnEdgyName

I just feel like venting, generally my entire life i have been just bottling up my shit. i learned how to deal with my emotions and im quite intelligent in that regard, but i have just always kept what i thought and what i felt to myself. because that was easier for everybody around me. my mom was always pretty set on teaching me things about my emotions. she was raped and was a shut in and all of that untill she met my dad, my dad was abused as a kid and never learned to handle his emotions or anger, he is an alcaholic …

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Sensational burning

June 23rd, 2018by Mutilator

Had i  unpacked my shaving kit i would have cut today. Post-poned for another day i guess. Having thought of where i could without observation and without immediate tear to work functions i knew where i would. I can feel that sensation in that designated marr tingling, sirens calling, though i have not made the deserving infliction.

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Do you know what I mean?

June 22nd, 2018by Cause of Death: Suicide

How do they put the ‘Pretty Pictures’ behind your eyes??

Category: Night Terrors/Nightmares/Sleep Paralysis

To me, the images appear as slides underneath a microscope. Being inserted and then withdrawn. Here…place another. Some move like a theatre screen, others are just images. Never anything but dreadful, nonetheless.

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Xoxoxo

June 22nd, 2018by abraxas

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Funerals

June 22nd, 2018by notwanted

My great grandfather killed himself on Tuesday. I went through all of the pain already. The funeral is tomorrow, and I have to go. Why must we grieve twice? The shock and pain have started to pass, why do we bring it up all over again? It’s dumb. But I might as well accept it. There’s no getting out of it. He wasnt even related to me. He was my great grandmothers second husband. Yet he loved me and my family as if we were his own. Suicide hurts. This doesn’t stop me from wanting it, but it really does hurt. I hadnt seen him …

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Dissociative horror

June 22nd, 2018by Mutilator

this void in this husk is true horror. If i could get out of this vacuum i would, least for your company. I hope i dont lose who i was through this black hole that my soul has imploded. I dont think i will be the same on the other side. Thank you for being there when i was the person you met. My soul is internally ripping as the earth into this vacuuming flesh container of which nothing can escape: forests removed tree by tree as hair folicals as oxygen rips from hydrogen the oceans deplete along with my breathe.

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homeless for the night

June 22nd, 2018by metamorphosis

got kicked out for the first time I don’t know what to do Ive got 4g and I guess ill live.
things are different knowing that my family don’t. love me or maybe they just don’t get me
ive got exams on Monday which are important to I can’t drink or get high because I need to concerntrait
any body got tips for rough sleep

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Cereal

June 22nd, 2018by Casino96

i voluntarily ate a bowl of cereal about an hour or so ago. I guess we’re off to a good start today.

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My problems

June 22nd, 2018by blue_pink

I’m new to this and I don’t know how to do this. So I don’t want to say my name but you can call blue. Friends are the main reason for me being on this site writing all this right now. My friends are not like normal friends. normal friends aren’t meant to ignore you whenever you try and talk to them. normal friends are meant to invite you places mine don’t but I don’t mind really. coming home on a Friday is worse than the week days my family hate me and I know that for sure. dealing with these problems on my own …

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