February 19th, 2019 by Tellmewhy
I need other people but there’s nobody to get help from
Keep on waiting, waiting on the world to change
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Dreaming of death- anyone else experience this?
February 19th, 2019 by hopeisafourletterword
I haven’t posted here in a while. But a few nights ago I had the most vivid, morbid dream I’ve ever had in my life and I just need to get it out there and ask if anyone else has had a similar experience.
In this dream I came across a guy who was holding a gun, and asked him to shoot me. He did, but I lived. Then I went home and attempted to kill myself with a knife. Still in this twisted dream, I passed out, but woke up later. I then went to the bathroom, cleaned my horrendous wounds, and gave up trying to …
Journal #something
February 18th, 2019 by WastingtheUnknown
My face only gets more bitter…
My bones only ache more and more…
My room only accumulates more than enough dust…
And my skin, only becomes more and more distressed…
I’m still here, while everyone else around me moves forward with their lives.
P
February 18th, 2019 by Atintofgreen
I don’t think you’re unusual. I found this as I was helping my sibling with hw and it reminded me of you.
It has to end
February 18th, 2019 by Lostlullaby
It is really sad, I had so many projects, so much going on. I wish I hadn’t slipped, I wish I hadn’t act that way with my friends, sabotaging all my relationships with self-pity and paronoia. I wish I didn’t have vodka yesterday afternoon. But I did. It took me forever accepting to take meds only to realize my anxiolytics make me even more suicidal. I am supposed to have a whole new life, a fresh start in a couple of weeks but even I don’t believe that. Because I haven’t be that sick in a very long time and last time it ended …
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February 18th, 2019 by Dreary-elf
I had some friends over last night and it was fun.
the next day they all left and I just felt like shit.
I tried taking naps and see if I could shut my mind up but it didn’t work.
I didn’t know what to do..
I didn’t know where to go.
I wanted to kill myself.
Everything hurts.
I’m really tired and I just want my life to end.
There’s this guy I like.. His name is James
I adore that boy but lately, I feel like he is losing interest in me and I don’t want to go back into that hole again.
He helped me figure myself out and made me a …
February 18th, 2019 by Tellmewhy
I’m not sure what to do in this life. What about you?
Can you imagine.. all the people, and other life forms that lived and died on this earth. Where are they now…
Voice
February 18th, 2019 by darkwillow
I work night shift so i have to sleep during the day. If I wake up at around 3 or 4 pm, it would be normal sleeping hours. And that’s how it started.
Almost every day now, I chose to stay in bed. Until I have to go to work again. My inner voice always tries to tell me other wise.
“You should get up, you have homework to do.”
“I don’t care,” I’ll reply. “I’ll probably drop out anyways.”
“You should get up, you haven’t eaten anything. What about that piano song you wanted to practice? And wouldn’t this song sound lovely on Violin? Remember that story you …
Perspective
February 18th, 2019 by thehusk
I think I need some outside input on this. My own feelings fluctuate all over the place.
I’m trying to weigh up whether suicide is the wisest choice for me, as things stand right now. Whether it would be more rational than continuing to live. Whether it would be in my best interests, all things considered. I’ll start by trying to clarify my present state, compared to conditions where I’m fully convinced it would be better to end it.
For starters, I don’t have cancer, or some other terminal disease, or a degenerative condition like dementia. I’m not severely disabled, and I’m not in agonizing pain. I …
Very beautiful
February 18th, 2019 by Cause of Death: Suicide
Stumbled across this the other day.. at first it didn’t seem like so much but then the beat picks up around 6 minutes or so, and it might just be the best instrumental riffs I’ve ever heard. I’ve bought the album and this is the last song on it for a reason. The album is The Stage and definitely one to check out for music lovers. You will not be disappointed. Not to mention a soliloquy of the worshipped Neil DeGrasse Tyson to end it all of. Listen up and tell me how you feel on his sermon.
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February 17th, 2019 by ninjarhino21
I see a wall and I try to climb it without a second thought.
Again.
I’ve tried to climb it before and a fierce wind knocked me down.
And so it has again
How many bones but I break
Before I realize I was never meant to climb it in the first place
20 years of depression WTF!
February 17th, 2019 by WITHINtheShadows
I dont know how to get over my depression anymore so I read on google, wikihow more specifically, what to do. In a nutshell, it said you should keep yourself busy most of the time.
I came back to sports and reading. It seems it’s working…let’s see in a week…
But suicide is always the biggest temptation and my best friend…I wouldn’t need never again have to create solutions for sth I know has no solution at all…
I’ve had depression for 20 years. Nothing cures this shit.
O.o
I can say, for sure, my life didn’t take off. In fact it’s a shit I’m trying to decorate as a …
not suicide related
February 17th, 2019 by princessmousy<:3)~
man if I really have nothing better to do than to ‘hump’ aka pelvic thrust my ex and another girl (she isn’t a girlfriend btw) in a video game at night, I really do have a stupid life.
I think i’ve seen her pic, I think she’s hot.
As much as its fun, its meaningless bullshit, just like flirting and whoring myself to my ex. I figure I want to see him again in real life in the future… I don’t expect anything, I only have one year left, I’ve got to seriously hurry up. I don’t know what plans mousy even has for him …
I prefer to listen to it alone.
February 17th, 2019 by Hope Dream Love
I was listening to random things on youtube and found this. At first it made me cry but it makes me feel a little better so i thought id share it with you. I hope you like it as much as me.
Not getting any better…
February 17th, 2019 by ladolcemorte
I keep pushing myself to stay alive long enough to see if I can turn things around. All I have managed to do is add to the list of reasons to die. The list is so long now. The list is long and I am tired.
Better? (Please excuse the emo post)
February 17th, 2019 by EmptyPluto
You can’t hurt me anymore. I’m in control now, okay.
Lately, I’ve had a bad urge to just start harming myself. I don’t like looking down at myself and being reminded of the scars from days past. Some were inflicted by others, some by accident, and some by myself. Why can’t I be in control, huh? I’m just gonna do whatever I want. I just wanna tear into myself because it’s easy, because I know how sweet that sting is gonna make me feel. It’s gonna make me feel better when I’m awake. It’ll be all better, and no one can tell me otherwise.
It feels like …
Hi
February 17th, 2019 by Nihil_Mea
Hi
Hopefully I found a forum to get my thoughts out without being judged. I hope no one I know will even suspect I am here. I am looking forward to reading the posts made here.
The reason why I am here is because I feel tired. I have been battling loss, grief, and depression – its taking its toll on me; the meds, and the therapy only got me as far – at the end of the day, I am still in despair, and utterly alone.
Hope everyone else is doing better than I am.
Hi there
February 17th, 2019 by mindlessgamer619
Didn’t last too long off the site. Found myself reading posts in the general section again. Not too sure how I’m feeing currently. In another rough patch atm. Jobless and struggling to find another before months end…
I figured I’d post just to get it out of my system. I’m okay. Just… okay. Went back a few days, saw some familiar usernames still around. It’s weird. I’ve been on and off posting here the past four years, and I don’t know how to feel about things, about a lot of things.
I didn’t have the heart to start completely fresh and blend into the background as a …
I want to get it over with
February 17th, 2019 by Hoody
The time i stepped into campus i want to kill myself. Everything here brings only painful memory. I can’t say nothing good happened here but even if something good did happen i cannot remember them. Dorm sucks. I hate the shared bathroom. I feel extremely vulnerable and insecure here i have to fantasize about killing my schoolmates. I am pretty fucked up on this.