You have to pick one, that’s kinda the law of life unless you hit the lottery.

I pick alone. Don’t even have to think about it, this is where life has led me whether by choice or unconscious direction. It may not be the best path but it’s what I pick.

Let’s analyze the choices. Alone is, well, alone. Nuff said

Surrounded by people who don’t care is probably what most people experience and choose. Loveless relationships, casual friends who disappear like the weather, jobs with coworkers who don’t care about us any more than we care about them. Cities of anonymous little dots. This, I’d say is […]

This is what “help” looks like when you call a suicide hotline:
This is what “help” looks like when you check into a psychiatric facility:
This is what “help” looks like when you talk to the avg therapist / counselor / social worker:

There’s only 5 ppl mentioned in this short- but I’ve watched other documentaries on others who have also invented cars that do not run on fuel (many many ppl), and many scientists/drs who have developed ways to kill cancer cells (different ppl came up with different but effective treatments)- they ALL “suddenly died,” “mysteriously died,” “had an accident,” “suicided,” or were bankrupted.

1- Thomas Ogle- invented a car that runs on vapor instead of fuel- poisoned
2- Nikola Tesla- invented free wireless energy- died
3- Stanley Meyer- invented a car that runs on Hydrogen (from water)- poisoned
4- Raymond Rife- invented a microscope that can see […]

This is an awesome short cartoon by an independent artist, (4min):

I’ve had friends in the entertainment industry, actors, musicians, illustrators, etc who are intelligent and insightful but I can’t say this to them for obvious reasons. The entire profession is a fucking scam. It’s a fucking scam on the human race, designed to lull people into a false sense of security, or call it escapism, hope, fantasy, whatever, but what it comes down to is “extraordinary popular delusions and the madness of crowds.”

Flip on the radio and on 9/10 stations there’s some dumb song spouting such drivel as “DONT WORRY BE HAPPY” or “ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE” or “JUST SOAK UP THE SUN / […]

Another interesting book I started reading purely for its awesome title. I’ve been on a reading rampage lately, devouring any book about suicide, looking for any pearls of wisdom I might’ve missed in my lifelong obsession with the subject. So far nothing has changed my mind.

So on the heels of nonfiction memoirs by authors who later killed themselves, I’m now exploring fictional thoughts which are just as valid, since no one’s an expert until they’ve killed themselves and afaik Hades doesn’t have a publishing house in the material world.

I was expecting this book to be light hearted and comic, but aside from its cheeky title […]

Hm, idk who this lady is, but she says something interesting:

“You can control who you are by what you think”

She isn’t saying the usual garbage “just think happy thoughts and you’ll be happy, easy peasy.”

I think she’s saying something a little different. I mean, if i didn’t think humans were so rotten, I wouldn’t be so miserable in this world. That much is true…but humans ARE fucking rotten. As a species. Individually, most are still shitty. You’d have to find the 1-5% of ppl who are good / compatible with you.

I wasn’t always this fucking depressed and miserable. Can I get at least […]

Do you Love Yourself?
Do You Hate Yourself?

People who are suicidal/extremely depressed tend to NOT love themselves, and many hate themselves. Are you one of these people?

Why do you not love yourself?
What aspects of yourself do you hate?

Has anyone played Total Battle?

So I just started playing this game. It was a really fun game- UNTIL they took away all the beginner “freebies” and now you have to pay to get them (faster march, faster collection time, free building finish, binoculars to find mines, monsters, etc.).

All that goes away after 24 hours. And now this game is no longer fun (It’s been 24hrs).

Especially when your protective bubble goes away and your camp gets attacked by others (in 6d).

I am not normally a gamer so I don’t normally play these types of games. And I refuse to pay through the nose […]

@dying: you said that you follow models suicides. Well here you go, take a look at this short of a famous model from the 90s. a reason why very beautiful models, successful in every way on the outside, suddenly commit suicide, get committed to psych wards, or are just depressed AF.

As I told you in other posts, beautiful girls, not just famous models, but every day regular pretty girls, also get SAed, groped or graped. Like 90% of them.

People don’t understand that being pretty comes with a very high incidence of rape and SA.

Being pretty is a curse. I was pretty before […]

I’m starting to feel it now that I’m about halfway there. It’s been around half a year since I started looking for a job. I took a month off as I was transitioning to this shitty new job, but other than that I think I’ve applied to around almost 500 jobs give or take. Says 340 on Linkedin. Must have had atleast 100 in Indeed. Then there’s the stuff from glassdoor, zip recruiter, and outside places I’ve applied to. I’m tired. I’m losing hope. I got like 3 rejection emails today alone. Some stupid ass company […]

I was replying to a comment, but then decided to make a post out of it.

I know this is not a popular opinion, and I know this will never be done in the US, but I really do think we ought to have a license to have children.

If we need to have a license to drink, drive, have a gun, or smoke weed, then at the bare minimum we need a license to do something so important as having children.

There are SO many ppl having kids that shouldn’t. Just one glance at the news and you’ll see so many unfit parents. Not […]

After this week I’ll be half way. And it’s not looking great. Still looking for a job. Still hitting that wall. The job I was most interested in recently gave me the rejection email about an hour ago. Like I said, I doesn’t matter how good I think the interview went. It always ends the same. Today’s interview was so so. So I should be expecting a rejection email any day now then. I’m kinda ok with that. Just another crappy warehouse AMR company. Those seem like really boring jobs. And it is […]

One of my mother’s favorite things to say to me when she’s angry at me: “I almost aborted you, but I didn’t.” Like I’m supposed to be thankful for that. I wish she had aborted me. I don’t think I was meant to be born.

Do you hate people too? Why? What would make you love them?
I can’t form close bonds with anyone.

Pets be living in luxury these days. Some look like they live way better and cushier lives than humans.

Would you rather be a cat/dog/pet that lives in luxury (pampered rich life, but no independence and free will- your entire life is dependent on a human, when you’re fed, when you’re walked etc)

OR live the current live you live (as a human)?

So I’m not the only one thinking this…

How we ended up raising the stupidest generation:

I bring up Epstein because just like this example- I view things differently from everyone else. Everyone is focused on the same single thing. When you need to zoom out and look at the bigger picture. When you need to look at what his main purpose is.

Or what the main purpose of education is (mass indoctrination), what voting is (appearance of choice to quell the plebs from uprising), why lab tests are terrible and never show anything is wrong until you are deathly sick (no profit in healing ppl)- too many to list.

Ever since I was a kid, I was thinking about things […]

Everyone talking about Epstein sex trafficking and all the gross men that are in it. But I’ve been saying for AGES that the MAIN purpose of Epstein was to hide/do money laundering for the worlds rich.

That is why everyone flocks to him. There are so many ppl and organizations running sex trafficking operations- there’s LOTS of documentaries on that- you don’t need a Jeffrey Epstein for that.

But you do need a Jeffrey Epstein to 1- money launder and 2- blackmail the worlds most richest and powerful men.

The sex stuff was just a side thing to blackmail all the rich pedos.

What […]

40hr work week is NOT about optimal productivity

40hr work week = optimum control

60s short: