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Letter

  September 26th, 2018 by lovedOnce

I just wrote my suicidal letter. It’s the first time I wrote it in a paper and kept it. This one I probably going to use.

Now I’m really feeling the end.

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Another day to speak on my suicide

  September 25th, 2018 by Cause of Death: Suicide

It really is an accident I didn’t die 6 years prior to when I am writing this.

I used every inch of feeling and passion and power in my body spent wishing for this day, the day I would end my life……

The day was August 1, 2012.

The day was planned for at least 4 years, when I realized I couldn’t kill my self by putting a bag over my head. “There must be a simpler way,” I thought. “How can I cease to continue through this unwanted life, instantaneously?”

Of course the midnights – 4ams as a young teenager, I was in desperation. I had nothing to …

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24052014

  September 25th, 2018 by Octr

 

It doesn’t matter how long it’s been, I still miss you.
If I could go back in time and fix everything I would have, I would do anything to hold onto you for as long as I could.
I made so many mistakes and I did so many horrible things I said so much that I regret.

The universe handed me someone outstanding that I absolutely didn’t deserve and instead of rising up and pushing myself to be someone who did deserve you I let you slip away, I guess in reality I pushed you away, I hurt you and pushed you over your limits and you finally …

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The horror

  September 25th, 2018 by Gary

Ugh…..I’m still alive squirming in this shit hole. Someone flush me away. I simply hate this. Ugh…..oh bother. Why….the horror….the horror. Flush. Wish it was that easy. Just flipping stop this shit storm….the horror. I’m all out. All done. All finished. I hope it is, and it ends soon.

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Suicide notes

  September 25th, 2018 by TakeYourPillsX

”And remember everyone is facing their own fight,but I can’t deal with mine I’m not a fighter.You’ll make it through the night,just hug your pillow tighter.So let the world know that I DIED in vain because the world around me is the one to blame,and I know in a year you’ll forget I’m gone ’cause I’m not really something to be dwelled on.”
         “That’s what they used to tell me,all those kids at school,so I’m going by the law ‘MAJORITY RULES’

 

HER LAST WORDS

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why do we try?

  September 25th, 2018 by winterofdead

I moved out of my parents house because it was a toxic environment for me mentally. Living on my own is hard. My car breaks down, I fix it, and now its broken permanently and I have to buy a new car. Then it gets towed and I pay $600 to get it back. I move it to a friends house, move it back. I pay too much money for car insurance each month. My job is full of drama and working a lot of hours and getting little back. I finally save up enough money to buy a bed, and now my roommate cant’t …

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  September 25th, 2018 by defeatedbyrain

I don’t like college. There’s nothing for me here.

But I don’t wanna go home, there’s nothing for me there.

There’s nothing for me anywhere.

Why am i still here?

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Cannabis

  September 25th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

i would like to know about cannabis for depression. what strains work best for you? ive tried durban posion and jack herer. dont a fan of the jack but i like the durban and they are just heavenly mixed together. but i would like to know about maybe an indica strain that works. or another sativa strain. also how are you using it? every few hours? in the morning and at night? im trying whenever i need it but it feels like i always need it. any help would be awesome.

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You know you’re passed the point of tired when…

  September 25th, 2018 by visual eyes

You go to push phantom glasses up your nose that apparently you felt sliding down… only to realize you’re wearing contacts

>.<

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Fail

  September 25th, 2018 by clipped-wings

No matter what I accomplish I still feel like a failure.

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Really Struggling..

  September 25th, 2018 by soul_pilgrim

I feel very alone in this world. I have experienced already a lot in life, the good and the bad. I am still in my late twenties, but I feel like I have lived long enough. I don’t really have a desire to continue with life. I feel incredibly guilty, because I do have a good life. But I just don’t want it. It’s really exhausting for me to live.. I don’t want to cause any harm or pain to anyone.. but living is really painful for me. I just wish I would have never been born. I also really don’t want to die painfully …

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  September 25th, 2018 by WITHINtheShadows

I typed on Google “reasons to live” and it gave me lots of options of sites. I read them all and realized I already tried all those recommendations/tips/advices. Nothing has worked neither medication nor therapy.

Now what?

(.).(.)

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I keep getting so damn close

  September 25th, 2018 by noah5678

Almost just actually took my own life. I was holding a knife in my hand, and wanted to do it, but then I thought about how unbearably painful it would be. ONLY thing stopping me.

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The song that perfectly represents self-hate

September 25th, 2018by morado123

Deeper, deeper, the wound just gets deeper Like pieces of broken glass that I can’t reverse Deeper, it’s just the heart that hurts every day You who was punished in my stead You who were only delicate and fragile

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A chance of recovery

  September 25th, 2018 by VenusHope

I’m in my studies and am going to retain due to my poor academics grades. this will mean i can repeat a year studying the same thing which hopefully will be a load easier.

The question i ask you guys is what you would be spending this time on if you had it. next year would be really relaxing and i was just thinking about how i should go about spending it in terms of getting my mind into a healthier position

Leave your comments below of what you would do

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Dunno.

  September 25th, 2018 by whitefurmouse

I’m too much of a lost mouse. I’m too much of a fuck up. I don’t even know what I’m saying anymore. Doesn’t matter. I convince myself that life has a purpose and I try to keep myself busy. I am rather busy.
I’d say overall life’s been… pretty bad, but also pretty good. I guess.
Heh. I really did try.
Thinking about ending it in December. Not entirely sure though. I’ve lived as far as I’m concerned. I’ve experienced a relationship, I’ve experienced living semi alone (I’m not lonely),I’ve experienced having a small business. I’ve seen the beautiful twinkling stars at night at some tourist place …

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Possibly Last Post

  September 25th, 2018 by Todamnbad

If anyone remembers my username, i have been a member for about 2 years. Trying to fight off my suicidal thoughts. As I can very least say, for me; it never ends. Suffered two finger injuries that led to two surgeries. But are a year apart. 2015 tendon repair on right middle digit, 2016 pins in snapped pinkie. Anyways, these injuries have taken a great toll on me as the physical pain is never ending.  I slit my wrist back in feburary of 2017. Yeah, each year takes a part of me. Those scars of damage have never left me. If the trauma doesn’t haunt …

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Back at it again

  September 25th, 2018 by lazyjake

Once more I leave my house (this time at 3A.M) because of my brother screaming and breaking things. This time I’m at a playground at my old school. Got me thinking and confirming the fact that I have to move out ASAP. Or kill myself, one or the other.  There’s too much on my mind to spill out. Ugh.

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  September 25th, 2018 by WITHINtheShadows

There’s a time you know

It’s time to go

The last sparkle’s gone

And you know

It’s time to go

I must be a brave lady

And pull the trigger.

Keep expecting someone or something

Hasn’t helped me

suffering only increases

For some time I have known

It’s my time to go.

I must be a brave lady

And end this “life”

While I can go with dignity.

 

 

 

 

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The only good thing I can do for this world

  September 24th, 2018 by soulless_angel

Is Not Be In It Anymore