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I’m lonely

May 21st, 2018by MotionlessButNotEmotionless

I feel like it’s just so stupid, but lately when my best friend started dating, she doesn’t listen to me anymore. I talk to her about my day and stuff and she doesn’t even respond to it. My depression, social phobia and anxiety are something I would like to talk about, and actually I need to talk about, but now I have no one to talk to. It’s sad and stupid as I said earlier, but I wish my friend would help me. I feel so lonely and I have to keep it all inside, trying to keep myself somewhat sane. Smoking has grown into …

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Emotionally Damaged

May 21st, 2018by falling_soup

The pain, emotionally, it has this way of creeping up on you, like a dark cloud you see in a distance on a sunny warm afternoon.  The way it’s presence can just be noticed and then dismissed. looks like it is going to rain later, I thought to myself and then shrug it off. You think you have control over what you are feeling. You think that you actually can see the first drop of rain before the storm. When it rains it pours and thunders. I try to cover my wounds with band-aids but the rain just washes them off. I always think about …

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I am still here

May 21st, 2018by hadenough636

I should have been gone in Jan but somehow I am still here. Sometimes I think I am not desperate to go yet but I feel that day is coming. I have the kit it’s just time and location that goes through my mind

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May 21st, 2018by Nobear

You know what i hate about dynamics is their not consistent

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I feel like I need help

May 21st, 2018by infectioushumanwaste

I can’t control this anymore. Once upon a time I was feeling like loosing it but now I tottaly know that I’m off the rails. All the people who have been there also feels excatly same. There are lot of things happened in the past like drug abuse, alcohol overdosing, suicide attempts and my sexual abuse history. All this pain makes me feel worthless. I just need somebody to talk. Please contact me.
mrs.yagmurdeniz@outlook.com

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May 21st, 2018by Hulk

I don’t know what to do to solve my problems, it’s killing me…

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Angry

May 21st, 2018by nooneimportant15

Do you ever just get so mad that you want to just slit your wrists? Do you ever just get so fucking mad that you don’t wanna feel the pain of anger, but the pain of a blade slicing your wrists or thighs? Because I do, and I am getting to the point where I can’t feel it anymore.

The cuts, they all get deeper and the scars get darker. They never go away. The thoughts and voices in my head telling me that everything is going to go wrong, they stay. I have nothing except for horrible thoughts.

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2 weeks left ????

May 21st, 2018by Cpt obvious

Hi guys ive decided to give myself 2 weeks from tomorrow ….monday 21 may to see if life improves . Im 39 ive had depression for 5/6 yrs although looking back ive hated and not enjoyed 90 % of those yrs . Back story …. i split up from my ex bout 6 yrs ago got really down living by myself took to drugs then sat in the shower with a knife to wrists but couldnt do it because of my 2 little girls . Got over that and moved back with parents (for my saftey) then met someone else someone i love more than

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Painful limbo

May 21st, 2018by Agonizing

TLDR: I went from being happy and in control of my life and set for a successful career in music and software until I got injected with brain disabling drugs now I’m fully suicidal with a lobotomized brain.

I’m 35, I smoked weed drank beer exercised and spent 6 hours on personal projects in music and programming everyday for the last 4 years building on 15 years of devotion.

I took psychedelics often and mdma every 3 months, my mind swam with thoughts about creativity in music art coding and tripping on DMT, the greatest substance and gift, DMT was my religion, I saw beautiful complex visions …

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your avatar

May 21st, 2018by spectralgiraffe

if you have your default one, what do you think it looks like? I think mine looks like a face

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its not fair

May 21st, 2018by itsmecat

its just not fair

is this the way i deserve to be treated?

im so fucking understanding im so fucking caring im so fucking forgiving

but the fucking second i do something wrong god its basically unforgivable

any mistake i make is so hateful and awful that theres no way i could have meant something else theres no way that maybe just maybe they could have misinterpreted what i was saying

i deal with so much bull so much bullshit

im always the bad guy

every single time without fail

is this really what i deserve

is this really worth staying is it really

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I been trying to commit suicide

May 20th, 2018by definitelyworried

I’m having a hard time with life and suicide, I been trying to end myself, I would have killed myself about a week ago, and I’m not sure if that would have been a good thing or not. More likely it would have been better. I know I can’t go on like this.

Am I the only one right here feeling this way?

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May 20th, 2018by OFFTheShadows

The truth is I’m staying alive

But

I don’t believe in life anymore…

(I’m making volume in the world)

 

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stop the ride. i want to get off now.

May 20th, 2018by hypergirl

have you ever just cried because you’re here, and alive?

have you ever just not even had the strength to lift your own head? i remember sitting in my car three and a half years ago, sobbing as i physically ached from my own existence. it hasn’t gotten any better for me. i still feel like that today. i felt like that yesterday. it didn’t just start three years ago. i’ve always been like this. i remember sleeping over at my best friend’s house at 19, waking up in the middle of the night to hide in her sliding door closet and cry. i cried all through …

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Definition of SELFISHNESS:

May 20th, 2018by OFFTheShadows

Everyone who says to you: “live!” “Remain alive” “please insist on life” “blah blah blah”

Does not eplain to you that every time you decide to stay a bit more it means you’ll suffer more and know a bitter worse kind of suffering you haven’t even imagined it was possible to exist.

That’s pure selfishness!

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Idk.. Just drained mentally

May 20th, 2018by I.beg.for.mercy

Hi my name is anonymous.. Anonymous because I will be a forgotten memory one day eventually.. Knowing my name or who I am will not matter 10 to 30 years from now..
A forgotten memory only because I wont be around for people to keep up with who comes and goes..
When I do pass I dont want no crying.. I would like a open comment no rules on whats said about me..
maybe it will cure their hate or whatever knowing im no longer breathing..
To be in the ground, tossed.in the garbage or even burned in a tire burn..as long as I give those freedom …

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I would just like to not exist anymore

May 20th, 2018by Shoo01

I’m a 41 yr old woman, and basically just dysfunctional and almost homeless. Well moving around from place to place, and no permanent spot. I never held jobs for very long because I had issues revolving around this. So basically I kind of just get by through informal ways of making money. Anyway, I often wish my life was over and I had a peaceful way out. All my would be kids were taken by the abortion clinic. I struggle with regret and grief over this now but it didn’t hit real hard till I was older. So being childless, no partner, no stability, no …

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Fuck everything, dude.

May 20th, 2018by Zigzag

I feel fucking horrible. I didnt do anything today really. No energy. Still, I decided to use some coping mechanisms. I tried going to the gym this morning, but I couldnt make it 10 minutes on the treadmill without breaking down mid-run. I left embaressed with my hood up, hoping that no one saw me. When I got home, I thought getting out of myself and helping others might make me feel better. So I replied to some posts here on SP, but…I think Im too depressed to be of much help to the people here…I made mistakes and gave bad advice without intending to. …

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I woke up thinking today is the day to end it all

May 20th, 2018by definitelyworried

I have been waking up everyday for a while thinking today is the day to end it.

Why is suicide so difficult when you are right there and then?

I can’t seem to get my thoughts straight, I can’t clear my head.

I made up my mind I’m going to end it, if I don’t I will live miserable.

Everyday is so painful, I’m a 32 year old male

Since i dont think anyone understands me, I could use someone to talk to that is feeling extremely suicidal, anyone out there struggling with the final act?

I been thinking of Hanging.

I don’t know why I’m alive still.

I don’ want anyone cheering …

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Goodbye

May 20th, 2018by Chanty

Since I’ve joined this site, I have only posted once. Not because I felt like this didn’t help, but because sharing my feelings is like sharing my soul; and I couldn’t bring myself to share anything truly worth sharing. I wish I’d shared some of my thoughts with all of you guys because maybe I wouldn’t feel so overwhelmed right now. I’m “happy.” I guess.

I keep saying those as if one day even I will start believing them. I can’t open up to anyone in fear they will not understand me. My culture does not exactly believe in mental disorders. This all makes everything …

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