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Today wasn’t a good day

  March 21st, 2019 by crazykidfrommars

Every day is terrible, but today really pushed me over the edge. I can’t take it anymore. I’m going to try ODing on my iron pills and finally dying. I hope my family disposes of my body and not leave it there to rot because they’re some horrible people, I tell you. All rotten, all abusive, all evil people.

So, goodbye. This 18 year old is finally breaking free. No more nerve pain, no more mental illness, no more abuse. Nothing. Hopefully I’ll finally be successful this time. I can only pray.

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My story… (1424 words just a heads up)

  March 21st, 2019 by Hope Dream Love

Ive been meaning to post this for a while. I probably should have. Oh well. Im probably going to forget a bunch of things but if i do ill just make another post or something i guess. Now where to start. When i was 10 i guess.

It was almost the summertime. Last month of school. A month before my 11th birthday. My mom pregnant with my baby brother days from being born. Life seemed perfect until one day.

We were at home and a truck pulled in the yard. This made me happy because it was my grampys truck and my grampy was (and still …

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Regarding my last post

  March 21st, 2019 by Wisp

I’ve reread over my last post a few times and I see how it can come across as judgmental and condescending and as an attack on others. Yeah, its not really helpful and I executed it very poorly. My shitty judgment told me that making such a post would be helpful.

If someone else had written that, I wouldn’t have liked to have read that.

I wonder how I can get my point across without sounding so condescending?

All I really wanted to say is that… to change your life, you need to go and do something.
(Which again defeats the purpose of this post because people …

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Choice

  March 21st, 2019 by darkwillow

Ive dropped all of my college classes.

Anyone else here by choice give up their chances of a better future?

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If I am going to be executed, should I die or try to escape?

  March 21st, 2019 by richies

I know this site is about sharing suicide stories, but I have a curious question regarding life’s worth if I am going to be executed. What do you think of that scenario?

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romantic and cruel

  March 21st, 2019 by eviewiththebpd

i hate myself so deeply right now. i want to be touched, fucked, to have my hand held, to hold somebody, i need to feel physical affection and i need it now.
i thought i wanted to be with her, but now i’m dreaming of him and i hate myself for it. how do you tell somebody, ‘i thought i wanted you, and i asked you out, but you’re actually too sad for me and now that i’m not chasing you, i’m bored’. what a fucking awful person i am.

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eyes wide open

  March 21st, 2019 by Wisp

After being here a few years and then leaving recently, it appears that at least a few of you aren’t interested in changing your situation and just want to complain and wallow in pity.
This site has given you a safe space to do just that!
You never actually get anything done because you’d rather come here and complain about your life endlessly. If you need therapy, go and get therapy. If you need help, ask for help. Complaining isn’t going to improve your life, believe it or not.
I will also address the fact that many are putting themselves down constantly. How is that supposed to help …

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I can do anything

  March 20th, 2019 by icandoanything

On March 19th I hit my breaking point and I felt everything more than I have ever felt before. I cried and cried. I never thought I would ever think about such a thing, but I contemplated suicide, I never knew I could be that low. An all time low. I felt the pain of everything from my entire life, it was all back. I had never hurt so much. I couldn’t repress it anymore it was there. I couldn’t take it, so much pain and emptiness that I could not handle. I looked up how much pain killers I would have to take to …

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Anyone else?

  March 20th, 2019 by heartlessviking

Does anyone else think about those that die with no effort? It’s sad, sure, but does it bother anyone else struggling with suicidal thoughts that there’s such a thing as an easy exit?

I mean, there isn’t an age exclusive set of people, it happens to a wide amount of people. One minute their living their lives, the next gone. Could be me or you any time. Wouldn’t it be pointless if we were ready to end it and cause so much more grief when we were around the corner from an easy exit?

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6&7

  March 20th, 2019 by Atintofgreen

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Obstacles and Intimacy

  March 20th, 2019 by Night In Atlantis

They both lapsed into silence, each aware that they’d lost something which was building between them. Winter had set in around them, and there’ll be no spring.

Yet, just maybe, the rhythmic dance of communication is a substitute for and serves as a defence against intimacy. For as long as something happens, nothing can happen. The mutual acceptance of a period of transition then acquires new meaning, and once the vulnerability and uncertainty are overcome, lasting dialogue can flourish.

Or am I the fool?

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Empty, tired

  March 19th, 2019 by heartlessviking

I know that most of the time lately I’ve been feeling better, and it would be better if I didn’t spiral just because some of the depressed feelings are starting again…

Life is good at least by all measures that anyone else cares about. I’m working on a degree in a double major I like, I have shelter, lots of stuff that I wanted/want, people that care about me. It seems like I should feel blessed, and usually I do.

No matter what I do though I can’t run from that feeling deep down that I’ve sold out. Worse still I sold out for cheap. For some …

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am i depressed, suicidal, normal, wtf

  March 19th, 2019 by Gary

im having a hard time understanding normal. i seem to be in this ponder mode questioning life and its normal. i must be normal as this seems to be my normal state, but others says its not normal. wtf. normal. what the f is it?

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Depression in one word?

  March 19th, 2019 by noblube

– lost

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Rumors @ innuendos …

  March 19th, 2019 by Spokestoo

Anybody hear anything about there being an apartment building that has been referred to by the name of this site ??? Maybe in some sort of doublespeak or real low channel . Like people being warned to death or being in the center of life insurance fraud schemes …

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  March 19th, 2019 by EmptyPluto

Don’t speak. The world won’t hear lies that way.

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Music and stuff (pointless, dont read)

  March 19th, 2019 by PatheticMale

Hey.  If you guys remember I said I wont post anymore because it only makes it worse for me but this doesnt count coz its not a rant. Anyway sorry for wasting up space here with non-suicide related stuff. I am trying to change my life for  better now. It is really slow and so far nothing has really changed on the outside, I am still addicted to weed, but I feel like my mindset is gradually  getting better. I try to push myself out of my comfort zone, even was on a few dates for the first time of my life. It didnt really …

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i tried and i dont think anything matters

  March 19th, 2019 by lostcase

so i tried because i was so tired and i couldnt care less about anything else, i dont give a fuck weather anyone would be sad or mad, i texted goodbye two friends and wrote the rest letters, one tried to stop me but i told them this is what has to be done. so after cutting many stupid cuts on my stupid leg i looked at my arm and got too weak to cut it open so i opened the pill bottle and ate it all. i was already dizzy from blood loss and fainted on the bathroom floor. a tiny while later i …

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I’m going to die

  March 18th, 2019 by edrudd

I got completely impotent after stoping pristiq and lamictal and taking 1 invega injection. PSSS MIXED WITH ANTIPSYCHOTIC POISON. I am 18 and I was murdered by psychiatric. I had a life… a fucking future… I can’t even have an erection with viagrs my dick is dead. And I’m not even depressed . I’m not feeling depressed that makes it difficult to kill myself. I’m not depressed but I am being tortured 24/7 that’s worst than being depressed.
This is me. A guy with a good future who have to kill himself because he was castrated by greedy pill makers. I should never have taken any …

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Who Am I?

  March 18th, 2019 by Insomnia disaster

Who am I you may ask? How can I tell you who I am if I don’t even know myself?
I don’t know who I am today
I know who I used to be
I miss her
Her smile and determination
Her drive and passion
Here naivety
Her eyes filled with energy
That girl could dream a dream though
They were so vivid, colorful and plentiful
Today I dream the same dream over and over again, only it’s a nightmare now
It always ends in unforgiving darkness as I realize that I’m imprisoned. Chained and weighed down by the mighty unrelenting force of my own mind
But she is gone, she died a long time ago
Right now …

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