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Does Anyone…

  September 26th, 2018 by rivets

…really know anything? I don’t know. One thing I do know is that people problems are the dumbest kind of problem imaginable. Ego get in the way? Well, that’s a problem. Better prove you’re right in the most obnoxious way possible, even though nobody cares but you, apparently. Also, the thing you’re proving is so incredibly dumb that it’s hard to believe anyone would even attempt such a feat. Tomorrow, when I wake up, I’m going to put on a banana suit and do the banana dance every time someone talks to me. Then slap them with a banana peel. Everybody knows bananas are the …

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Meh on relationships

  September 26th, 2018 by whitefurmouse

Not suicide related. Babbling.

I’m unsure.
Hey I’m not looking. Have fun reading this and thinking to yourself, well stop going after your ex!
Relationships used to be REALLY appealing to me. I used to always have to have one.
Snuggling is nice. Other stuff is nice. Feeling each other all the time is nice, hours have flown by because of how nice it was.
Anyway. Yeah. If anything. I don’t trust anyone anymore 🙂
I was craving physical stuff for years, now I don’t.
Sure is nice to be cared for though, even if said person is a complete mess and lost and doesn’t know what they are doing with …

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It’s fucked up

  September 26th, 2018 by nozmoking

It’s fucked up.
I am lonely and terrified.
Time is running out.
I reach out into the darkness, and no one is there.
I cry out,
and nobody hears me.

nobody

hears

me

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I hate my birthday

  September 26th, 2018 by The Watcher

My birthday is coming up and I hate it. I don’t want to celebrate and see no reason for it. I know my mom and my god-father are going to want to celebrate but honestly I was just thinking of staying alone in my apartment. I was thinking of buying myself beer, pizza, and cheesecake.

Hmm, I’m not happy at all. I don’t smile like used to and I feel empty. These next few months are going to suck. December is almost here. Just gotta wait a bit longer.

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0winter is closer

  September 26th, 2018 by ANONFORWOOD

I clearly remember my father asking me if i was gay, are you gay? Because i  don’t wnt my kid to be gay,  Are you fucking with your best friend? That once i thought he ws my best friend and no i  wasn’t f* with him but with someone else, I’m i disgusting?  It happened few times, i’m completely out, it still hurts,  i remember clearly my worst moments and desires,  yeah i might be disgusting, i fuckn regret it, i did , does is even matte anymore? I don’t know for who, my father hates me as he’s done no good  to me and …

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uhhh

  September 26th, 2018 by whitefurmouse

where do beyond fucked up people belong? hehehe

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I want to be happy

  September 26th, 2018 by FormerHappyGuy

Hi. I’m a guy, 18 years old, a former happy and smiling person, i don’t smoke, i don’t drink alcohol, no drugs. I think i’m seriously a weird person, i don’t have facebook, just whatsapp (althoug nobody talks me online), and i have a big problem with seeing to me in photos. As a former fat dude… just the idea of looking myself causes dread to me despite knowing rationally that i’m not ugly (and having some admirer girls by there), some female friends says i’m kind of attractive, but to me it’s hard to idealize that.

Here is the deal: I’m not happy anymore, i …

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Letter

  September 26th, 2018 by lovedOnce

I just wrote my suicidal letter. It’s the first time I wrote it in a paper and kept it. This one I probably going to use.

Now I’m really feeling the end.

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Another day to speak on my suicide

  September 25th, 2018 by Cause of Death: Suicide

It really is an accident I didn’t die 6 years prior to when I am writing this.

I used every inch of feeling and passion and power in my body spent wishing for this day, the day I would end my life……

The day was August 1, 2012.

The day was planned for at least 4 years, when I realized I couldn’t kill my self by putting a bag over my head. “There must be a simpler way,” I thought. “How can I cease to continue through this unwanted life, instantaneously?”

Of course the midnights – 4ams as a young teenager, I was in desperation. I had nothing to …

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24052014

  September 25th, 2018 by Octr

 

It doesn’t matter how long it’s been, I still miss you.
If I could go back in time and fix everything I would have, I would do anything to hold onto you for as long as I could.
I made so many mistakes and I did so many horrible things I said so much that I regret.

The universe handed me someone outstanding that I absolutely didn’t deserve and instead of rising up and pushing myself to be someone who did deserve you I let you slip away, I guess in reality I pushed you away, I hurt you and pushed you over your limits and you finally …

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Suicide notes

  September 25th, 2018 by TakeYourPillsX

”And remember everyone is facing their own fight,but I can’t deal with mine I’m not a fighter.You’ll make it through the night,just hug your pillow tighter.So let the world know that I DIED in vain because the world around me is the one to blame,and I know in a year you’ll forget I’m gone ’cause I’m not really something to be dwelled on.”
         “That’s what they used to tell me,all those kids at school,so I’m going by the law ‘MAJORITY RULES’

 

HER LAST WORDS

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why do we try?

  September 25th, 2018 by winterofdead

I moved out of my parents house because it was a toxic environment for me mentally. Living on my own is hard. My car breaks down, I fix it, and now its broken permanently and I have to buy a new car. Then it gets towed and I pay $600 to get it back. I move it to a friends house, move it back. I pay too much money for car insurance each month. My job is full of drama and working a lot of hours and getting little back. I finally save up enough money to buy a bed, and now my roommate cant’t …

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  September 25th, 2018 by defeatedbyrain

I don’t like college. There’s nothing for me here.

But I don’t wanna go home, there’s nothing for me there.

There’s nothing for me anywhere.

Why am i still here?

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Cannabis

  September 25th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

i would like to know about cannabis for depression. what strains work best for you? ive tried durban posion and jack herer. dont a fan of the jack but i like the durban and they are just heavenly mixed together. but i would like to know about maybe an indica strain that works. or another sativa strain. also how are you using it? every few hours? in the morning and at night? im trying whenever i need it but it feels like i always need it. any help would be awesome.

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You know you’re passed the point of tired when…

  September 25th, 2018 by visual eyes

You go to push phantom glasses up your nose that apparently you felt sliding down… only to realize you’re wearing contacts

>.<

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Fail

  September 25th, 2018 by clipped-wings

No matter what I accomplish I still feel like a failure.

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Really Struggling..

  September 25th, 2018 by soul_pilgrim

I feel very alone in this world. I have experienced already a lot in life, the good and the bad. I am still in my late twenties, but I feel like I have lived long enough. I don’t really have a desire to continue with life. I feel incredibly guilty, because I do have a good life. But I just don’t want it. It’s really exhausting for me to live.. I don’t want to cause any harm or pain to anyone.. but living is really painful for me. I just wish I would have never been born. I also really don’t want to die painfully …

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  September 25th, 2018 by WITHINtheShadows

I typed on Google “reasons to live” and it gave me lots of options of sites. I read them all and realized I already tried all those recommendations/tips/advices. Nothing has worked neither medication nor therapy.

Now what?

(.).(.)

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I keep getting so damn close

  September 25th, 2018 by noah5678

Almost just actually took my own life. I was holding a knife in my hand, and wanted to do it, but then I thought about how unbearably painful it would be. ONLY thing stopping me.

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The song that perfectly represents self-hate

September 25th, 2018by morado123

Deeper, deeper, the wound just gets deeper Like pieces of broken glass that I can’t reverse Deeper, it’s just the heart that hurts every day You who was punished in my stead You who were only delicate and fragile