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  December 14th, 2018 by PatheticMale

Has anyone of you heard about it guys? Its the most powerful psychedelic substance. It is probably the closest feeling to dying without actually dying. You just smoke it, you fall unconscious and then you get sucked through the tunnel to some different world, many people report encounters with alien entities which are mostly trying to teach them something.  It lasts only about 15 minutes but it could feel like literally ages because the concept of time makes absolutely no sense in the DMT world. I mean technically you could say you are dead since your ego actually is dead. Many people forget completely that …

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Dying young

  December 14th, 2018 by Mouse

Has anyone wanted to die young because they didn’t want to get old? Like, not wanting to lose their young appearance? Its ok to perceive this question as shallow, I’m just curious.

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  December 14th, 2018 by samesh1tdifferentday

Doesn’t make sense. Nothing in this world makes sense.

No, wait, it actually does. I’m just too tired to accept the truth.

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My first suicide attempt on Benadryl

  December 13th, 2018 by SuicidalThoughtsButRefuseToKillMyself

A while back I finally had my first suicide attempt in What Near the end of Nov through December of 2018 I had my first real suicide attempt I am more or less better now out of the “looney bin” but I still wonder if I will ever be happy I know we are not allowed to have partners and what not but honestly I wish I did have a suicidal girl who was both willing to end our lives together in the most painless way together I am not going to post any info on here like I did last time but I still …

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Torn between staying and leaving

  December 13th, 2018 by Black Holez

I’m torn between staying with my gf of 13 years versus going to a monastery to become a monk and leaving the worries and ways of the world. Obviously, I think having structure in my life would do wonders for me as I’m a recluse at home with an almost hikikomori-like lifestyle. All I do at the house is wake up, stare at the walls or on my computer screen all day surfing the web, then only going outside to fetch my gf or talk to my neighbor who isn’t even there always as he works outside the city. I’ve got nothing going for me …

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  December 13th, 2018 by Gary

Im all twisted. Im wedging everyone apart from me. The thoughts of ending my life are ever increasing in “reality ” . As i seperate from this life i see no other choice. My head is a poison bowl of emotions bending my tolerance to this. I’m at a point right now im not sure if living like this anymore is worth it. Its at the line in the sand…..will i really do this….. That answer would be very likely a yes. Just off and no more.

There’s a place I dream about
Where the sun never goes out.
And the sky …

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I think it’s time

  December 13th, 2018 by Still_A_Human

I’m a 7th grader, and I have a above average fucked up life. I have friends, but my best friend is suicidal as well. He had 7 of his best freinds kill themselves in front of him. I have a terrible secret.
I have an std.
In 7th grade.
An std is one of those things that if you tell someone about, your fucke for life. I you don’t tell someone, your still fucked.ive been thinking about suicide for a while now, but now I think it’s time.

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School and stuff

  December 13th, 2018 by HauntedDoritos

Only few months left of highschool. I’ll miss my friends and my fave teacher. He is the only teacher who really cares about me and always tries to help me and my friends. Everyday I feel gloomy because I think too much about leaving school.

Even my squad is falling apart and I’m just making it worse by letting it happen. I feel like I’m spiraling down into the abyss.

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Whispers in the dark

  December 13th, 2018 by heartlessviking

Hey, I want to tell you something….


There’s a sort of balance, twisted and beautiful to this whole death puzzle we’re working on.

It comes back to society. Someone around here asked “Why does society make it so hard for people who want to to die to die?”

It’s been itching at me, like a phantom limb. Why would it? What’s the motivation?

In therapy that’s evidence finding. It’s how I deal with paranoia, because things that don’t make sense always have a motivation if not a rational reason. The sick man hurts others because he’s sick, wants attention. That’s easy enough to understand, right?

What if the culprit here …

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How does one get over fear of girls?

  December 13th, 2018 by PatheticMale

I am socially anxious person but its mostly relatively manageable. The only scenarios where I like really panic is either when I need to talk to a group (like presentation in front of the class or smth like that) or when I talk 1 on 1 with a girl. Its really strange. Like when Im in class with other people around I can go talk to a girl and stay relatively calm but if I was with the same girl alone I couldnt talk to her without cringing super hard or even physically shaking. The weirdest thing is that this occurs (to a lesser extent) …

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Media in The Sky

  December 13th, 2018 by Todamnbad

Electromagnetic Waves traveling through our brains

Mine says kill yourself until it drives you insane

Its more my body than myself

My body wants to end this hell

But I keep going, only time can tell

Where I’m Going Where I Been

Its like all the same shit has been hand in hand

I’ll smoke weed to forget myself

To forget I am even alive in this hell

Completely obliterated

I don’t want to consume energy and be existing



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How to…

  December 13th, 2018 by Mouse

Everytime I read the news I feel sick. The horrible disgusting cruel things that humans commit…

On another note, mice cause infestations in homes and other places, and multiply, and there’s mice everywhere!
I’m sorry if I offended anyone. mice infestations are anything but funny. Even for this mouse. I prefer that mice would get their own place, live in harmony with humans… oh wait, humans keep them as pets.

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  December 12th, 2018 by NO_REMORSE


Im counting all the days away

Im cutting all my pain away

Its all the- same shit but a different day



Im wasting all my life to shame

The clock wont change its got me irate

Its all the- same shit but a different day


Uno dos tres quatro cinco

Dey Mayo day of the dead its my life so

Im just waiting for the day that i might go

Until than lets just fly some kites at a lightshow


I cant sleep i think im an insomniac…

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Unlucky to be so lucky.

  December 12th, 2018 by MarinM

One thing guaranteed to worsen depression is the knowledge of how lucky you are.

Whine, whine, whine. That’s all it feels I do. Why can’t I be grateful for what I have, thankful for all the opportunities I am provided that I am sure billions of people would be thankful for? Depression feels like such a disgustingly self-centered, selfish disease. I despise myself so much for not being able to make something of myself, to live up to any expectation I have of myself no matter how small and pathetic. If only I had a reason to be unhappy, aside from whatever quirk in brain chemistry …

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  December 12th, 2018 by samesh1tdifferentday

I had 2 friends over today for a little exercise session.

Feels surreal typing this… i act as ive always been when i was with them earlier, while here i am now typing away on a suicide website.

I feel like i should be grateful for having them, but i still feel so alone and empty.

I just had tickets booked for a trip to Japan with other friends too, but would i be gone already before i fly there?

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  December 12th, 2018 by midnight1234

For many, it’s a fear.

For some, it’s a hope.

For a few, it’s salvation.

For all, it’s the end.


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What does your nickname mean?

  December 12th, 2018 by morado123

Purple brings such mixed feelings to me.

It’s more fiery than blue, yet colder than red.

It’s neither frantic nor calm.

Just like life,

purple bring image of a bruise;

you’re not being hurt per se, but you still feel the pain.


Hence, my nickname “Morado” is such a perfect way to symbolize life itself.


What about yours? Why did you choose that nickname?

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Waking up

  December 12th, 2018 by PatheticMale

I hate waking up everyday so fking much I cannot even describe… Anyone got it the same? Like I get it, everyone hates it, no one gets used to it but still I feel like its different for me. Like my mom for example told me that when she wakes up earlier than supposed to she has trouble falling asleep again and Im like: What? That is a problem? I would fking do anything if I could have it like this… I have like 6 alarms and its still not enough. I just cancel all of them, sleeping to the last moment possible, then I …

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Am I an Hikikomori

  December 11th, 2018 by Black Holez

Hikikomori is a psychological condition which makes people shut themselves off from society, often staying in their houses for months on end. Due to external circumstances of being attacked on social media and my friends turning on me and trying their best to isolate me, I’ve been like this for more than 2 years already. My routine consists of waking up in bed, staring at walls, staring in front of a computer screen and then logging into the internet for hours on end and only going outside to fetch my girlfriend either in the afternoons or evenings. I feel so empty and so lost that …

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I just need a nice safe quiet place to live.

  December 11th, 2018 by Clayton Michaels

I’m still facing eviction with nowhere to go.

I pursued a lead on craigslist and it turned out to be a scam.  They wanted me to wire them money and then they send the key and papers in the mail.  Yeah right.

I feel so stupid.  Wasted a week pursuing this lead before they revealed their scheme.  People think because I’m mentally disabled that I’m completely stupid.  It’s hurtful and I’ve grown to resent it.

I don’t know what to do.  I’m pretty much at the bottom of the barrel as far as housing goes.  If I go to another boarding house or worse, a halfway house, I’ll …

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