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I Just Want To Die

  July 18th, 2018 by Lifelong Loser

I no longer want to live. I have no skills, no talents, no real friends, am completely alone most of the time, am low-income, live in a small, crappy apartment, have constant bad luck, my brain is screwed up.. I often can’t sleep, my memory is bad, I have depression and am just sick of life. I want it to end. But I don’t want tp end it myself.

I’ll probably get into it more in another post about why that is, but I wish for death literally every day. It’s my first thought in the morning and my last thought before bed. I am not …

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Community

  July 18th, 2018 by Evil_Pity

Sometimes i feel as though they could help but i haven’t found the correct community for me. I feel very disconnected not sure exactly how things work anymore. My therapist has a very optimistic point of view for me while everyone else seems to have pitch forks for me. Or maybe its just in my brain I see more pitch forks than actual ridicule. That last part that’s what my therapist would say. Currently thinking about entering the workforce like everyone else maybe that might prevent me from being pessimistic. You know staying active.

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obstacle…

  July 18th, 2018 by ladolcemorte

I was intending to execute my plan tonight but there is an obstacle…a problem I noticed with the method…(I won’t say what the method or problem is because the site rules prohibit disclosing methods)…

I am not sure whether to go through with the original method despite the issue or to change to a new method. I’m so afraid this won’t work…

Dammit. I wish I could just push a button to end all of this. 🙁

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My life is not only my own

  July 18th, 2018 by ClairDeLune

If it were, I could take it now and end it, without having to worry about anything. But I can’t. The thought of my loved ones suffering because of me is unbearable, so much so that I literally cannot do it. My conscience just prevents it, it gives me even more pain at the imagination of them mourning than I was feeling before, regardless of how bad I was actually feeling then.

I don’t know if there will ever be a time that this changes, but right now I can’t see that happening, and so my life is not just mine, but it is theirs, and …

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Skin

  July 18th, 2018 by 01tree.bottom

Ever been sunburned?

Well if you have then you know what its like to have peeling skin.

I truly wish that you could use the peeling of the skin to transform. To transform into a new, happier version of yourself that isn’t corrupt by today’s hateful society. I wish that we humans were able to tear away our old, damaged, scarred skin to reveal a ‘better’ self.

But that is not true. It is not real. Instead, I am stuck inside the skin that reminds me of my constant pain. The skin that reminds me I don’t belong here. The skin that is cold and lifeless alongside my lifeless organs. I …

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sorry

  July 18th, 2018 by Dungeon

im not doing well
i just want this to end
sometimes its simple

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Death Wish.

  July 18th, 2018 by BL98

 

It was an alarming thought that these false selves should still have me in their power, and in my bewilderment I began wondering whether any such thing as my real self could be said to exist at all. Like a sudden revelation, then, it became clear to me that the self was always changing, always developing, only capable of evolving fully through the integration of all past semblances. I wouldn’t be my true self till I accepted and learned to know all those selves I’d disowned and deserted…As if this were something I could do consciously, …

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What?

  July 18th, 2018 by EmptyPluto

You want me to cut off another part of my body just so you can feel satisfied? Give me a fucking break.

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I’m back from the dead..

  July 18th, 2018 by Alive7

So some of you may have seen my post ” attempting now”. So what happened in detail after that post is I overdosed on my anti depressants, sleeping pills and other anti depressants I had laying around at home. My mom found out brought me to the emergency room where I had a seizure and the resuscitated me not to long after and I woke up hooked up to a bunch of machines with people crying and sad around me saying I almost died. Then they put me in the psych ward on a 3 day hold which felt like I was in jail then …

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The Madman

  July 18th, 2018 by Taf Taf

Wouldn’t it be better if everyone of us could live in his/her own unique madness?

 

Lyrics:

Leave the madman in his madness

And don’t try to bring him to his senses

You don’t know what is hidden

Inside the mind of a madman

He might find in his madness

Everything he has desired

And wasn’t able

To see and to obtain

Leave the madman in his madness

Leave him in his dream

He’s been sick and tired of this world

And he created one of his own

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Feeling lost

  July 18th, 2018 by fakehappy

What does it mean when someone you love and fell out with badly because they met someone new, and were a general nightmare to be with suddenly unblocks and texts you?… it just hurts. And to be fair it hurts even more pretending I wasn’t in hospital the other day for suicide attempt… life is strange, cruel and unusual at times.

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a losers part

  July 18th, 2018 by Rainwatch

So its come to this. I’ve been reading the posts on this site for a while now and the people on here though strangers i can relate to. I’ ve nobody to turn to irl, don’t want to be a burden and all that jazz. I play a losers part on the stage of life, I just can’t get into life, i see everybody else out there leading full lives and heres me on the sideline crippled by fear,anxiety,paralysis. I want to end my life so badly but i hang on for my family, my suicide would devestate them, but i’ve reached the point where …

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I just wanted to get this off of me

  July 18th, 2018 by PeeledBanana

Feels so weird writing about my feelings. I always ignore them, as much as I can, they get so suffocating, and my thoughts do the same as well. It’s not that I’m dumb like many people think, I’m just extremely aware of everything and my mind just doesn’t stop overthinking every little thing and I don’t know how to control it, so I just ignore it as hard as I can, and as a con, this coping skill makes thinking in general harder, it’s very hard to use my brain properly, that’s why many people thinks I’m an idiot, and I would be fine with …

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No way out

  July 18th, 2018 by TheDyingEmperor

I genuinely feel like I cannot escape misery. The source of this misery is myself, but I’m so fundamentally broken that I cannot improve.

I wanted to kill myself since I was 9. I was getting bullied, I had no friends, my mom was in a terrible shape mentally and was an incompetent parent. Dad doesn’t exist (even my mom doesn’t know who he is).

People don’t want to spend time with me. I’m not a likeable person, in fact, I’m somewhat of a dickhead actually. I’m that guy that will disagree with you just to start an intellectual debate. From my experience, people fucking hate that. …

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Help…

  July 18th, 2018 by idkkkkk

So last night, i had enough and needed relief. I got a razor and started cutting my arm and my leg. It honestly helped. Its like my brain forgot about everything and focused solely on the cuts on my body. It was a very relieving feeling. This was the first time i did this. When i woke up today, i regreted what had happened. I been having an urge all day to do it again. I really badly want to hurt myself again and that scares me. I cannot stop thinking about it. All i wanna do is cry. I dont know what to do anymore. I …

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solitude

  July 18th, 2018 by SleeplessMind

I know there are a chunk of people here who tend to feel lonely, what I’m wondering is if there are any oyhers like me who would feel peace with a month of solitude?

Assume your bills are prepaid for the month, so you have no dire need for internet, your provisions have all been set to be delivered (also prepaid) to a remote location. Your phone has been turned off, you have yourself, books (writing/reading/sketching) art materials (your preferences) unlimited music..

Would you feel at peace?

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Life is fine. I just want to die.

  July 17th, 2018 by AXYZ

Every few months I come back here to say basically the same thing, wondering who else might feel the same way: I have no complaints in life, but every day I find myself obsessively craving death.

Although I’m not rich, I don’t worry about money. Although I could be more successful in my work, I’ve accomplished plenty in my lifetime. Although I don’t have a girlfriend, I’m good friends with enough smart, caring, attractive females that I never feel lonely. Health is fine. Everything’s fine. And I’m sick of living.

Most people would never understand this, and even here I doubt many would understand. All the posts …

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Both sides of me

  July 17th, 2018 by annon111

I wish me at my lowest could have a face to face conversation with me at my highest (which isn’t that good it’s just like average).  Because when I’m low like right now, it just doesn’t seem worth it anymore; living for those short, infrequent, average times. I wonder, who would win the argument? When I’m in either state being in the other seems so irrational and obviously how I am thinking at the time is the true right thing, if that makes sense. I can’t rationalize my other self.

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  July 17th, 2018 by visual eyes

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Sometimes

  July 17th, 2018 by spectralgiraffe

Sometimes I really get urges to die.

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