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Psychatric wards are prisons (but no…at least in prison you won’t get drug up against your own will)

February 21st, 2017by Scaredsincebirth1

Dedicated to the God of your brain, the one and only – ttttthhhheee psyyychiatriiiisttt !

what about the lifes you’ve wrecked from giving medication approved by drug companies causing memory loss of precious memories, weight gain, liver problems, sudden death from low blood count, diabetes, inability to talk, slowed speech, shrinkage of the brain, restraining someone against their will held down with 6 nurses, allowing yourself to work in a place which destroys the natural spark that people have. why bother getting to know them when youre going to change who they are from giving them mind altering medication. Please spare the bullshit story about major …

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I have severe depression… like most people here..

February 21st, 2017by IBelieveInYou

So… I found this site a few weeks ago and now I’ve decided to post something on it.

Ok. I have severe depression. I will not be the first nor the last but I want some comfort… It all started back a few years ago; 2 or so; when I left my childhood home, at the time I didn’t realize what these awful decision were going to do with my life. My family and  i moved to a new country. It quickly turned sour…

2 years later, I have no friends, I sincerely don’t remember the last time I laughed out loud or smiled with meaning, I’m …

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Morphine Sulphate Lethal Dose

February 21st, 2017by BML84

So I have already survived one attempt and this time I want to succeed.

By crushing and drinking morphine sulphate tablets will 3000mg be enough for a healthy 45y/o 15 stone male?

Or 4000 or 5000? What is the certain dose of no return?

Sincere answers only please.

Thanks.

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IT ENDS TONIGHT — SUCH DISDAIN

February 21st, 2017by suisidewinder

This is the final thing I’ll say about you Name Redacted. You are a lying, two faced, self righteous and hypocritical woman. You manipulate and control people for your own ends. You made me carry your weight for three arduous years. All I did was give to you. For three years straight despite my own set of impossible circumstances I was there for you to my own chagrin and incongruence(even though I wanted to leave after the first couple months). Your disrespect of my time, money and all I put into you–especially my life at my lowest points you just shit on. You just took …

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Toblerone Scam

February 21st, 2017by _darkness

I happened across this video yesterday and it reminded me of the toblerone comments on SP:

starts at 3:50

Thought I’d post it cuz if I loved Toblerone, I’d be pissed. Another way companies are trying to pull one over on us.

Also this:


Hilarious!

…now I’m hankering for some chips and chocolate -_-‘

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I survived Nembutal- but I still want to die.

February 21st, 2017by BML84

Hi – have to vent.

So, despite disbelief which I cant blame you for, I survived 15g of Nembutal (and, no, I wont give you the supplier).

No idea how it happened- spent 3 weeks in hospital after a 3 day coma. I lay undiscovered for 2 days.

Doctors could only say I was lucky- I dont feel it. I was calm and happy to go. So at peace.

Since then I’ve hit the gym and people have commented on how well I look. Final blood check revealed I’m OK now. No lasting damage.
They were apparently amazed the CT scan showed no damage. Im grateful for that at …

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“Why am i here”

February 21st, 2017by Dpt59kasd

The physician i work for asked me why am i here today (when i tried to present a patient to him),… not in a what are you doing manner, but a very annoyed why do i have to see your face kinda way. I know people dont like me and i try to minimize my contact with people but this is a new low even for me. I carry a gun in my car with me every day,…. it would be very easy to drive until i run out of gas and walk until im exhausted then check out.

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Natural ways to get rid of flies?

February 21st, 2017by _darkness

The one good thing about winter is that those damn buggers aren’t around. But now that it’s starting to get warm again, those buggers are back. Some get into my apt, mostly the tiny little ones, gnats? And occassionally the big fat ugly ones. There were a couple of medium ones that came in yesterday when it was raining. Apparently those buggers like to come in when it’s raining.

What’s a good natural way to 1- not have them come in the first place? and 2- how to kill ’em? I have an electric fly swatter, which works on …

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February 21st, 2017by Darvin

Ai mal akulli ndan kohën

 

(Ai mal akulli kishte nji emën

nji emën tabú.)

Para se të mbylleshin sytë në gjumë,

pashë malin e akullit të bardhë

te kambët e mia.

Erdhi era me diell dhe e shkrini

e aty nën hijen time doli një bimë.

 

-Martin Camaj (Munich, 1978)

 

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It officially ends this week.

February 21st, 2017by MissingMy3Hearts31921

I have officially made up my mind and am at peace with it.  Time to say goodbye this weekend.  I wanted to go earlier but one of my daughters birthday is tomorrow so I am going to wait.

I learned that due to my NP hydrocephalus that I am about 18 to 24 months away from suffering the same symptoms as those with CTE.  It is almost like dementia.  I do not want to sit and be a burden to anyone.  Especially do not want to be a burden to my soon to be ex wife and my kids.  I think I have come to peace …

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What do you dread?

February 21st, 2017by _darkness

Maybe I have an abnormal amount of fear, stress, and bad luck. But I dread a lot of things. I dread bad news, am terrified of receiving bad news. What do you dread?

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What do you look forward to?

February 21st, 2017by _darkness

Some people look forward to coming home to their pets. Some people look forward to new movies and tv shows coming out. I look forward to getting the packages of things I bought (some stuff coming today and later this week). I really don’t have much to look forward to except for that really. And too tired to go out and do stuff most days.

What are the little things or big things that you look forward to, that keeps you going for a bit?


P.S. I finished my choco Pocky :/

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This country is killing me.

February 21st, 2017by dickhead

I’m not sure if I should say where I’m from since I’m about to throw shit at this country but i’m just gonna say I’m from Eastern Europe. I truly hate the country I live in and I have reasons to. Recently I came back from Berlin. For these few days there everything was fine. I didn’t have to worry about anything. The second I left the train everything came back to this awful state. Part of the reason it was this way is because I planned killing myself after I’ll come back. But everything here makes me feel more and more depressed. This country …

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Sobriety

February 21st, 2017by Chip

Ive been clean and sober for 10 years, but fell off the wagon over xmas and New Years, and this weekend. Not alcohol, but weed. Used to live on it. I thought it was going to be fun, like it was back in the day, but in all honesty, it kinda sucked. I WANTED it to be fun, but no, it was sort of a drag. How interesting. I feel guilty for smoking, but I see that I honestly didnt enjoy it also, so maybe thats a good thing. Fuck this getting old crap. Also probably doeant help that the THC levels in todays weed …

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Medication

February 21st, 2017by braiNsane

I’m giving in and trying medication. Something I said I wouldn’t do again but the other night I got drunk and lost my shit in front of people who care about me. I scared them and I scared myself. I cut up my arm and nearly broke my hand. My knuckles are bruised and swollen still. I can’t keep going like this. The pain of utter emptiness and tangled thoughts is inescapable. I don’t know what else to do. I know there are better ways to treat depression, but I don’t have the energy/drive to do them anymore.

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Lets all rebel.

February 21st, 2017by Woody

And talk about methods! Maybe have a chat about hanging or jumping.  I’m feeling in a rebellious mood.

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I have a question. (Or three)

February 21st, 2017by DoNotResuscitate

Has anyone found it easier to cope, with their suicidal thoughts, suicidal ideations, etc, as time goes on? I’m finding it hard to cope lately, especially tonight… it’s 3:45am and I can’t sleep because all I can think about is my own death, and how much easier it would be if I were dead, but I can’t do it because my cat relies on me. (I honestly don’t care if that sounds silly, but I brought her home, raised her  and I need to give her the best life possible). I’m the one who makes sure she’s fed, is on time with her flea and …

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I don’t

February 21st, 2017by Foxglove7

I like the people here on SP, I don’t want them to die. Not before me.

i don’t want to burden anyone by saying too much

i don’t want to say too little and feel bad for it

i don’t want to wallow in misery and I don’t want to forget … I do want to forget

i don’t know

anything

completely, I am alone and I don’t want to be alone

I know I am loved, does that grant the will to live?

today it does, tomorrow……

i don’t know

anything

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Depressed?

February 21st, 2017by idontevenknow2

Hey guys, I think I am depressed. I really haven’t been feeling well lately. But at the same time, I don’t know if it’s my brain that is trying to come up with something, you know, just to feel ”special”. And, I am afraid of going to a psychologist. I want to be able to solve this problem by myself, as I always have done, and I also don’t want my family involved in this mess.

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Missing Amsterdam

February 21st, 2017by heathclifff

I spent a few days in holland recently. Drank a lot, smoked a lot, ate a lot and spent a lot. The atmosphere in Amsterdam feels vibrant and hectic, and everyone I met seemed nice. We rode bicycles around the city and explored the landmarks, as tourists do. The usual anxiety which usually overrides my enjoyment of anything went away, calm washed over me and it’s only upon leaving that misery started to return.

Certain districts of the city are designed to facilitate bad habits. That’s part of the appeal. The laws are relaxed, which makes people behave more honestly. Now I’m back home in …

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