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What happened on April 17, 2018

  August 20th, 2018 by HelpXairyBeatLeukemia

That was the day my family and I received news that would change are lives in a single day.
Please Help
I have two younger brothers, ages 8 and 5
April 13, 2018 my five year old brother was supposed to start his very first day of school.
The week school had begun we were told he couldn’t enter school because he needed to get his shots first.
I was pretty bummed out that he wouldn’t be able to start the same day as everyone else
But we made him a doctors appointment for the upcoming thursday.
My parents and my eldest sister were at the doctor’s appointment with him.
I was at …

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A Walk

  August 19th, 2018 by clipped-wings

I took a long walk last night in the woods. I did a lot of thinking. I enjoyed the aroma of rotten wood and ferns. Several times I listened to screech owls and insects. I was very aware of the weapon in my waistband. I took it out twice. Positioned it where I thought it would do the job. And twice I put it back. I came so close. I couldn’t do it. Maybe my next walk. Who knows?

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Pointlessly posting

  August 19th, 2018 by SweetQuietus

There’s no point to posting, right. But there’s also no point to not posting, so wtf, why not?

There is no one I can turn to for support, and not just the mental health kind, but really any. Truth is, I need help. I don’t know which person or entities i should leave my paltry savings to. Spouse? Brother? Human and animal orphans? Wildlife rescue? Idk.

I want to make sure my dog is tco. The one won’t adapt, but the other one will.

I miss my dad. Life made sense, sort of, when he was alive. Our family has been decimated by his loss. My …

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Something new I have written

  August 19th, 2018 by Cause of Death: Suicide

Felt as if I was being visited by the devil. I was dragged into a very dark place.
I couldn’t write about anything other.
This is about how I felt upon death, about how I presume vivid visual hallucinations will swamp your faculties.
And even after a physical death – I approach a hallucinatory experience.
No heart rate, no breath, but still images bustling in and out of your faculties.
In this stanza, the vultures are in the driest dessert.
They are crazed from dehydration.
They are everywhere, but there is no other wild life around apart from these vultures circling in the air.
Only the driest conditions.

A fire on the funeral pyre
Faith …

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i’m weak

  August 19th, 2018 by Hope Dream Love

im suicidal. im breaking down. im going insane. and i havent been through anything like most of you have been through. i at least have the capability to be happy. im a horrible person for ever thinking i was anything like you.

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poem for my dad

  August 19th, 2018 by anonymousie

i am too young to lose you now
my heart is heavy and weighing me down
my tears are in abundance
forgive me if i drown

i am too weak to be strong
i am too smart to not know this is wrong
you were always consistent
when i had no one, you were here all along

but now the only thing you’re consistent at
is killing yourself slowly
you were dealt a bad hand of cards
i know you must feel lonely

you deserved everything, but you lost it all
you don’t feel like a man, you feel small
but i’m begging you to stand tall
but i know that this is your call

i can’t make you take your …

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I found the meaning of life.

  August 19th, 2018 by anonymousie

today’s the day that i have come to the conclusion that everything in life is fucking pointless. things that i love i now found a way to hate them.
i saw a dead dog on the road and immediately thought, “this is why i hate animals”. of course i don’t really hate animals but fuck. when i saw that collar around it’s limp neck, i saw children crying over their lost beloved pet. my pets will probably die before i do and i fucking hate them for it. i love them so much.
when i realized my dad was slowly dying, i found a tiny piece of …

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What are some songs/music that are therapuetic for you?

  August 19th, 2018 by Johnsmith8611

I’ve partly been listening to songs that I try to listen to to get into a good mindset so if I do the deed that I can think of those/listen to those. Some for getting over fear of death like Don’t Fear the Reaper. Others I listen to that I just listen to because they fit how I’m feeling. Five Finger Death Punche’s Wash It All Away has got me crying at the chorus. You’ll probably understand if you listen to it.

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Sed

  August 19th, 2018 by EmptyPluto

I’m trying a little. I hope you’ll be alright. You aren’t dead. Just say something, yeah? It doesn’t always work, though. The music doesn’t play itself.

Your simple ghost-like face
Brings beauty to a darkened age
Like a white rose standing alone
With a raindrop trickling down

I saw you greet the unfortunate
With a joyful smile to bring reassurance
Like a petal in the afternoon breeze
Gifting yourself to a downridden soul

It gives me all I need
All that I want
Is in your life
All you want

Your bright hair lightens everything
A great display of natural light
To everything
Everything

You shouldn’t go away
Everyone needs you
You know you need yourself
Stay for a while, just stay for a while

It …

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I think you all need to hear this song

  August 19th, 2018 by Itsyaboy.uhskinnypenis

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Thanking my depression

  August 19th, 2018 by morado123

I used to care a lot about how people thought of me. I was consumed in an everlasting obsession to always show my best side and never show weaknesses. It obviously didn’t affect me in a positive way. I guess experiencing some hardships in my life did bring quite an unexpected, yet positive change in my personality – I stopped caring. This might look like nothing to someone else, yet, for me, this change was so comforting to me. I’ll do whatever shit I want to do, and that’s that.

Then, I also lost interest in maintaining relationships. I used to feel bad for myself for …

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6th sence

  August 19th, 2018 by PatheticMale

I ve noticed that girls developed a special ability through evolution to sniff out male losers very effectively (probably coz male loser is one of the most dangerous things for a woman like rapists etc.) I guess they do it unconsiously through  pheromones and insecure body language.  Guys can recognize losers too but it takes much more time and getting to know that person. With girls it just takes one look in the eyes and she knows Im a loser, she knows Im a virgin, she knows I hate myself, she knows my life is boring and I have nothing to offer.

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How it all started

  August 19th, 2018 by PatheticMale

The story of how I came to this world is as tragic as my life itself. When my parrents met my father was a 30 year old weird sociopath, loser virgin when he met my mother who at the time was 20 year old university student with depression and very low self asteem so she thought noone else would ever want her. They got together, condom broke and 9 months later even greater loser was born. A year later my parrents split up.

Im just the same as my father exept he manages to love himself despite still living with his mom in his fiftys, and …

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goodbye

  August 19th, 2018 by twoplayer

You are sitting at a table, crying. Tears slowly drip onto the pages that are lying below you, blank, empty. Just like your life. Just like you. The pen hovering inches from the pages. Hovering. Hovering. Then it falls next to the page, lying there, useless. Just like you. You take the tear soaked page and throw it into the fire, burning it up until the ash is all that remains. Gone. Just like you wish you could be. Gone.
You are torn. Torn between who you are, and who you want to be. You are torn between who you where and who you are becoming. …

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Depression? Does it REALLY ever goes away?

  August 19th, 2018 by mylastsmile

I’ve been deeply depressed for the last year, it doesn t matter what I do or what I think it seems that I just can’t get “undepressed”. Does depression ever REALLY goes away?

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Back at it again on my BS

  August 19th, 2018 by SuperSoup

I never got therapy like my parents said I would. I’m starting to cut (it’s not deep and looks more like scratches but I’ve never cut before). At least I stopped “drinking” antifreeze (I found out it was actually coolant because I’m so fucking stupid I can’t even hurt myself when I want too). Whenever I feel like shit I keep making plans for my suicide. So far I’ve chosen a date and time, a method, a place, and, today, my last words. I don’t know when or if I should talk to people about the root causes cause they really can’t do shit to …

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  August 18th, 2018 by SwishAL

Suddenly the deepest can get true
When you’re living life without a clue

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Misunderstood

  August 18th, 2018 by HearMyBrokenHeart

I’ve never posted here though I’ve thought about it before. Scrolling through the stories of those who seem down, heartbroken, or even suicidal… Today, I will finally post, as I once again feel misunderstood and left unheard.

I tried to kill myself Tuesday. My mind raced as I left work and went out to a spot I had pictured before, but not without stopping by my apartment for a knife that I wasn’t sure would complete the work – but at least enough to try. I had texted my therapist, who I wrote a short text, one she labelled cryptic, as my mind was made up …

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reality is boring , life is boring , it’s all about money , i hate money , i hate business , i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

  August 18th, 2018 by niki

reality is boring , life is boring , it’s all about money , i hate money , i hate business , i wish i live in the movie game anime manga novel comics books

I hate reality , reality is boring !
I hate real life , real life is boring !
I hate real world , real world is boring !

I wish I live in movie / movies , I wish movies were real
I wish I live in video games , I wish games were real
I wish I live in novels , I wish novels were real
I wish I live in anime , I wish anime …

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Every small detail

  August 18th, 2018 by Brokenangelwingz

Every small detail…

hurts me.

It may be small for you, meaningless but for me it’s so much bigger.

Every small detail…

Kills me inside.

You probably can’t see it but if you look deep into my eyes you can.

Every small detail….

Haunts me.

I may forgive but never forget.

Every small detail…

Takes my breath away.

I feel like drowning Every time I hide how I feel.

Every small detail…

It’s making me fall deeper and deeper again.

 

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