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Hello. You do not know me, but I go by Fern. I was recently diagnosed with depression and perscribed medication. Unfortunately, it does not work very well.
Right now, I’m sitting in my room, because my father has yelled at me. He is NOT an abusive man, but he took out his anger on me and my very young brothers for making a mess. Unfortunately, I am not a confrontational person and let him yell at me.
What was the consequence, you might ask? The removal of my only true antidepressant, video games.
I know he is not aware that this is the only thing keeping me from using that rope in the garage. I am also aware that any kind of addiction is unhealthy. But, as stated before, I am not a confrontational person. I do not share feelings, and therefore do not get the help I need.
I might post again, I might not. Sometimes, I want to die so badly it physically hurts. Sometimes I lay awake at night wondering why I was unlucky enough to be so insignificant, so worthless that I am isolated by my own family.
Other times, I am fine. i am a normal girl with a normal life. Those times are rare these days, though.
Thank you for listening.