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February 23rd, 2018by Agnostosx

Comment the country you are living . Im curious to see if anyone from my country is in this site and also all the different people that visit this site

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I could really use somd support if anyones out there

February 23rd, 2018by rayonhousefly

Im feeling really fucking low right now and trying not to self destruct. Refer to my previous post for details. My trip to this country is beginning to look like it was a pointless waste of time and money, and is leaving me feeling worse than ever instead of being my salvation. How do i not just say fuck it and fall into old destructive habits. If it werent for my girlfriend and all the people who have faith in me id already be there. I just want to cry and simultaneosly(sp) hit something.

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February 23rd, 2018by iamdarling

i had a dream last night. not nessecarily a bad one, but it made me feel bad.

i can’t remember much, but, in my dream, it was the last day of me being in year 9, the school year i’m in now. (i think that’s 8th grade in america.)

and in my dream, nothing had changed. i was going into year ten and nothing had changed, i was still sitting at home doing fucking nothing important.

in schools where i live, you leave school after year 11, and you’d be 15-16 then. i have year nine to complete, (the school ends starts in early september and ends in …

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Im just so tired

February 23rd, 2018by rayonhousefly

My soul is tired. Ive done so well and made so much progress only to be let down by those who helped me and those I trust most. Im not putting too much faith in those people. I traveled across the continent to do another round of treatment that helped me take back by life and become entirely independant in less than 6 months.

I had never been happier and more fullfilled. Now the depression is coming back so i quit my job, spent everything i had to come back, and even after arranging another treatment, here i am, and where are they? Ignoring me. …

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january fire, (re)revisted

February 23rd, 2018by freeroma

vent, rant, thoughts.
whatever.
better out than in, right?

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An hour-long Death walk…

February 23rd, 2018by Lady_Miren1997

Just a few hours ago, after bottling everything up for months, I walked out of my apartment and went downtown, looking for a building to leap from.
The cold wind nipped at my arms ceaselessly…but I just didn’t care. Even as I was starting to get frostbite, the only thing on my mind was dying.

On and on I walked, glaring daggers at anyone who drew too close to me. It was like I wasn’t even myself anymore…

Down dark alleys, along bridges, to the tops of open-air garages.
Deep down, I sort of hoped some stranger would just come up and end me, so no one could blame me …

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Depression-Suicide

February 23rd, 2018by Taf Taf

Crying.Again.Having headaches.Again.Body pains.Again.And my thoughts are not happy.They’re not even normal.I’m thinking about my wasted life,I’m thinking about the sufferings of the world,I’m thinking of clipped wings,I’m thinking of a friend of mine who died in a car accident,I’m thinking of a girl that I loved and I didn’t have the courage to tell her that I loved her,I’m thinking of how I failed in everything I did.I took painkillers to ease the pain.It’s not working.I feel like somebody is putting a nail into my brain.I remembered something that I saw when I was 10-11 years old: there was a little girl with her father …

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what would it feel like to truly live?

February 22nd, 2018by oxygen

I want to die Most times I just feel like it’s the only way to make everything just stop. I’m young but from what I understand life only gets more and more crappy, so really what’s the point?

Because I sure as hell never seen one

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Setbacks

February 22nd, 2018by Agnostic Angel

It feels like no matter what I do, no matter how much progress I make, I always end up making the same stupid, shitty mistakes that send me back to square one. Each time, I keep on thinking that I’ll know better, and that it won’t happen again. But it does. It always does. I screw up, and everyone around me is disappointed in me. It puts a black feeling in my stomach, and when I get like that, I can’t feel any emotions. But that doesn’t stop me from hurting people. Whether it’s my intention to or not, I end up hurting people when …

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parents have a favorite

February 22nd, 2018by ratlovinggirl

So I have been dealing with suicidal thoughts and depression since I was 10, and it took my parents years to believe me and “help” me. When I first told them I was depressed my stepdad said “well wtf does she have to be depressed about”… a shit ton, but thats not even how depression works. My brother who has anger issues heard what I was saying and decided to copy that to get himself out of trouble. He now punches my 7 year old sister whenever he wants but as long as he says he did it because he wants to die they leave …

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Trying To Gauge The Community

February 22nd, 2018by IronWolf

I have a question for everyone. I’ve been visiting this site off and on now for about 6 months and would just like to know, what are the general demographics of the community here? Are you here because you feel depressed, alone, hopeless, etc., or are you full on suicidal? I am just curious and would like to get to know you all a bit better.

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Resigned To Suicide

February 22nd, 2018by IronWolf

Currently, I find myself resigned to the thought of killing myself. I have reached a point where I have come to accept that it will happen, it must happen, and it is the most beneficial course of action for me, and for those around me. I have the means, a plan, a general date and time, and a location which I have pre-prepared to make my attempt easier.

Does anyone else feel the way I do? Also, how does my explanation of my feelings towards my suicide resonate with you? I would very much like to discuss this with all of you.

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Hey SP, tell me a joke

February 22nd, 2018by eternaldarkness

or anything funny, silly, weird, interesting fact, etc. Need a little pick-me-up from…well, life…

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Things could be worse, even so…

February 22nd, 2018by mindlessgamer619

I’m fully aware I have to work to make money to survive and what not. I have a job now, I should be grateful.

I believe I overthink things way too much. It’s flat out unhealthy.

The way I speak and explain things, and overexplain them, the way I attempt to prepare for future events (going so far as to imagine scenarios that usually never actually happen), etc.

What is normal? All I know is that it’s something that I’m not, and yet, what makes me supposedly “normal” is my supposed uniqueness and individual experiences that have shaped me.

I don’t trust my memories a lot of the time. …

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To Clipped Wings

February 22nd, 2018by Iucy

I don’t even know you Clipped wings. But I’ve seen you’re recent posts and i don’t even know if you’re still alive to read this, but I care about you. I know that sounds weird because I’m a total stranger but I really do care about you. You’ve been so encouraging and sweet to everyone on this site including me and I don’t want to see you go. You don’t deserve death. And I know you’re thinking that life right now is a fate worse than death and I think that too a lot of times but you were put on this earth for a …

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save me

February 22nd, 2018by amesstoconfess

i went back to cutting. i think everything is falling apart, i dont belong anywhere, i just want to die. i want to kill myself. when i got home yesterday i had the urge to overdose but this time i almost went with it. i just stopped caring for the time being. i still dont know what to do. lord. someone save me.

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I finally get what I need…

February 22nd, 2018by Jean-bean102

So… *check the time* that is about 18 hours so far and I am still in good mood from last night. I feel so happy and..belong maybe.

Maybe it is just one time thing every once a while. They may not that serious about want me as their friend or whatever…I don’t know honest. I hope so… We did have really good time last night. Lot of joking and laughing. It was so good but I am not let myself have some hope just yet…  I would love for them to be my new friends and maybe more than that though if things go well. It …

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Melancholia

February 22nd, 2018by Taf Taf

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For those who are new.. or bored.. or looking

February 22nd, 2018by Cause of Death: Suicide

ÑI’d like to reintroduce myself. Refresh my story. First name: No, last name: Name. I have no emotion, no feelings, no anything. I have been suicidal since Spring 2006. Vowed in Winter 2009 to kill myself Summer 2012. I’m not support on this site, I am just a member. It is now almost spring 2018. I live like I died in 2012. I count the seconds on the clock until they turn to minutes until they turn to hours until they turn to my resignation date. The day I have prayed for since a child – the day my soul dies along with my body, mind, brain, and heart.

It is my mission. To leave the planet. …

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when…..

February 22nd, 2018by Foundhappiness

I guess I am proof there can always be at least some hope….

The lady I now have in my life is even better I could have hoped for…..

A beautiful lady physically and also (where it counts) a great person inside…

 

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