Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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Goodbye

May 26th, 2017by Suicidal13yrOld

I’m gone. I’m sorry but I’m gone. Before I go I want to thank mehikka, photographyismylife, and the one dude who’s name I can’t remember for trying to stop me. Hugs to you guys, it didn’t work for me but keep it going and it may work for someone else.

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My Story Part 2

May 25th, 2017by gioia

I’ve decided to not tell anybody else about the abuse; their reaction just made me realize how inconvenient and unpleasant this was for everybody.

I knew before that I wasn’t an easy person, but I never felt that rejected in my whole life -not even when I was bleeding and bruised from my exboyfriend.

But I made a mistake. I’ve tipsily told a guy I’ve been with for a while. We’ve never been officially dating but we spent almost every day with each other.

I didn’t want a label for what we had and neither did he.

But I’ve told

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26

Home alone.

May 25th, 2017by Suicidal13yrOld

Well, I’m home alone. Bad idea. Run or Suicide?

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Why am i alive

May 25th, 2017by ImSayingGoodBye

Seriously… why the f am I here? I just don’t get myself.. everything planned is ready. The tools are placed. But I’m making excuses. Why? I keep telling myself “eventually it’s over, but stay a few months longer for the hell of it” I bought a computer for games. Considering I spend most of my time now.. hiding from sound. I had surgery to fix my ears.. didint work.. we’re going for another attempt/ approach in a month.. I don’t know why I’m trying to fix myself when I’m just going to suicide soon. I guess I’m just scared and I still wanna live in …

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Lost of Interest in Video games, and Missing Childhood

May 24th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I don’t seem to care about video games that much anymore. I have these video games that I brought, but now I have no interest in playing them. Fun hack to afford video games: wait until the gaming console is a gen old, then buy it. It should be at least 150 dollars, and then buy all the games you wanted to play on it. They should like 10 to 30 dollars mostly in the 10s. You can it though Amazon or Ebay. I have reason on why I’m starting to grow apart from the gaming community. One reason is that I’m near-sighted, don’t how …

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I’m going to do it.

May 24th, 2017by Suicidal13yrOld

Now you can try to stop me, I won’t listen. You can refer me to a hospital, that’ll make me more determined. So here’s my story.

 

Im 13, and my parents hate me. I’m that one fat kid in school who tries to fit in but gets made fun of. My own parents make fun of me. I can’t get a girlfriend, and it’s the end of the school year, so only one option. Suicide.

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Can I wake up please?

May 24th, 2017by Maddie.Shit

Is that reality?
i look at the old me ,4 or 5 years ago,i was quite happy
then in 2012
my parents love, me i have friends,not too much but they are loyal and i love them
my weight is appropriate ,when am sad i can describe my feelings,people listen to me
whenever i shut my rooms door,dad follows me ,tries to make me happy as he can
on my birthdays i get gifts from my parents,relatives and friends
mother is my best friend ,i tell her everything about me
my house is a sweet home
………….
oh god ,what happened?where had all these days gone?
have my parents died?who are those?are they my parents?
where …

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2

brain junk

May 22nd, 2017by plasticflower

words won’t come out.
talking and expressing anything seems like too much work, or like something too complicated that i can’t figure out.
and when i do try to reach out and open up to others, it always goes wrong. i try telling someone about the panic attack i had, and they assume i’m lying and then proceed to tell me i’m not trying hard enough, and that only makes everything harder for everyone. they tell me to try harder.
i thought i was trying my best. and i was. but it seems like, once again, my best wasn’t enough.
i tried to open up, and …

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2

I want to disappear

May 22nd, 2017by _Angel_x

I don’t know what to do.

I don’t feel anything anymore and I can’t stop crying.

I’ve started cutting again.

I’ve started drinking again.

And attempting to throw up my food.

It’s all come back so fast it feels like the world is crashing down on me and I can’t take it.

I need everything to just stop for a few days. College, the future, Time , Life.

I just need to disappear and I fear if I don’t find a way then I’ll just kill myself.

I’m so fucking tired I just cant do this anymore.

I give up.

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9

my worth is in the comments

May 22nd, 2017by Milestiba

I am so stupid. All my life, I have measured my worth on the comments. Now, with social media, it is exemplified.

And I am a blood sucking parasite. I suck the life out of those who show me any attention. I can’t help myself. It is an addictive compulsion.

They tell me it is explained as Borderline Personality Disorder, but I call it torture. Both for me and the other person. The world would be better off without me.

Where can I find the resolve to finally commit suicide? The pain is all-consuming… overpowering… causing constant despair.

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I can’t do this.

May 21st, 2017by Velveteen Human

I woke up feeling okay. It lasted less than an hour. She is expert in bringing me from okay to suicidal in two seconds flat.

First it’s guilting me about the puppy, then it was crazy-making behavior that made my head spin trying to keep up… and now it’s her friend whom she invited to the birthday party she planned for me without asking me, is now going to be here early… which means I’ll have to wolf down dinner and not be able to digest it peacefully, which means my ulcer and gallbladder will be miserable all night… but who cares, as long as it …

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1

I should be the one died…

May 21st, 2017by andriealthomas

There are five of us. im the middle child, i have an older sister, an older brother, a younger sister, and a younger brother. our age difference wasnt that much either, so we’re more likely to hang out as friends. our relationships are so close even our friends are jealous of us. we’re like bestfriends because we can talk about almost everything together. mom and dad always loved it when all five of us gather, and hang out and joke around. we were so perfect.
But out of five of us, im the one whos different. theres just someting wrong with me. plus me being the …

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4

Out of sight Out of mind

May 21st, 2017by Baked13

It’s funny how the people you were closest to can forgot you so fast, move on like you were never here.

It’s somewhat comforting at the same time because I now know that when I leave, I’ll be forgotten just as fast.

I think about him everyday. He left me broken.

 

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Trapped and tortured but “only temporarily”

May 20th, 2017by Velveteen Human

I seriously wonder how I can make it another two and a half months here. Today it feels like a new ulcer ripped open in my stomach. She went to a friend’s wedding (must be nice), leaving me here with the puppy all day, and it’s driving me fucking insane. I can’t color or draw because it keeps jumping on me and would mess it up, can’t read because it keeps whining and being so distracting I can’t focus… so basically any distracting and soothing activities are impossible. Let alone trying to be productive, like starting to go through my stuff to prepare for …

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What does a nonperson need with privacy or peace?

May 20th, 2017by Velveteen Human

My birthday was two days ago. It’s a day I feel should be mourned rather than celebrated. So it’s just as well that it passed with only Her giving me a small cake, balloons, fake flowers, and two small gifts. And that horrible song. So awkward. But at least there wasn’t some pitiful attempt at a “celebration.” I literally have zero friends, and my aunt who is absolutely insane and emotionally abusive to me all my life was out-of-state, so I thought I got off easy.

This morning I was grateful that I was feeling okayish so far. I could tolerate existing, for the time being. …

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What is reality?

May 19th, 2017by Alfred1688

As we try to survive in this world we live in

We seek out meaning for the life that was given

Some search for it their entire youth

Yet little find it or see the truth

Majority give up when all hope is lost

Others are consumed by the lies they came across

We all believe it gets better after it gets worse

But those words do not apply on this curse

Even if we tried to satisfy every need

There is no cure for one’s greed

It destroys us like a cancer

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3

relate? No. Not really.

May 19th, 2017by _lost._.one_

?

 

Why do we fear death, why do we fear the thing that will come for us all one day? Love and hate are intertwined with death, and when it grips you all emotion is lost as you flow into the interstellar’s of death. Soul and mind are empty and all thoughts are heavy. Death is powerful, wooing you into an insatiable thirst for life; for knowledge.

 

I wish that it was easier to love and to hate, I wish saying goodbye didn’t always mean forever; especially not in death. To be rid of all woo and worry, to be …

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People can be awful

May 18th, 2017by shes like a rainbow

This utter garbage waste of a person was harassing me the other day for simply telling his girlfriend the truth about something. She wasn’t even angry, we talked things out like humans in an amicable manner… but oh man oh man, this dude is really a prize. I feel bad for his girlfriend she’s such a passive person who settles for anything because she feels like garbage too. But he, he is this angry, horny, uneducated and not self-aware fat ugly pig. A respecter of no persons but his greasy indulging self. He came after me and tried to tell me I didn’t know what …

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Desire to be pregnant

May 18th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I haven’t been on here for a while because of work. My back sore from sweeping soil and my feet are forming blisters. Last night, I had a dream that I had two sons. Hopefully this is a prophecy, but highly not. I will never get my ducks in a row. Besides, I know people have hinted that I shouldn’t have kids. I can tell if I brought them into this world, people will be ready to tear them apart. I know they want me gone, they’re too much of a ***** to admit it.

I sometimes get baby fever. It can also get bad when …

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january 27 – 11:47PM

I always give too much To a friend or to a lover and i cant seem to understand why my giving is never equal to what i receive and i have never felt the kind of happiness i see in their eyes on mine when i am being returned the favor They seem happier than me and […]