Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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sorry mom

  August 14th, 2018 by thisisnothing

my mom told me to go drown about a year ago. the thought stuck in my mind and it really just cant be erased or ignored to the point that i actually conidered it. she doesnt love me. it’s obvious. i’m pointless. pointless to the point of my own mother wanting me dead. i decided to be numb and quiet. a bit recently, she said that if i would kill myself she wouldnt care. she shamed me in front of everyone and cursed at me. i know that i can’t bear this anymore. i tried to get help but she told me that everyone experiences …

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I feel hopeful

  August 11th, 2018 by NotSoSuicidalNoMoe

I started taking this drug my psychologists prescribed me. I was initially very hesitant to try it since she said my skin could fall off ? (though the chances of it happening were very low –and if I saw any rashes in my skin to immediately go to the ER and it would not get to that point). But I had a horrible episode a few days ago. I spoke with my boyfriend, Eric, about it. I told him how I felt and why I wasn’t so open with him. I told him that I didn’t want to stress him out or to see him …

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Insecurity

  August 7th, 2018 by machila27

Hi, whoever is reading this,

Someone commented on my last post and it made me feel less alone. A lot better. I guess it’s the fact that I’m not the only one feeling the way I do.

So, I’m writing again, to hopefully feel better in this little situation of mine.

This one is a little bit more personal, but it’s an anonymous site so whatever.

Here’s a little bit of a background story:

My aunt (let’s call her Katherine) couldn’t have children. A few months later, she and her husband made the decision of adopting. Right around the same time, her brother’s wife (let’s call her Ann) was pregnant with …

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requiem

  August 5th, 2018 by imsosorry2468

It’s taking a lot for me to write this. I’ve had so conjure up the will or energy to even post here again. I feel so hopeless right now. I just want to die already!

God it’s so hard. To think about the shit storm of pain I’ll leave behind. I hate myself for feeling like this. I think people would be sad for a while but at least they’d be able to move on finally and live their lives without having to worry about me or pay for my therapy or my school or anything . My mom could start to fix her marriage …

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Quick Vent

  August 5th, 2018 by avoidthatthinks

jealousy is such a fucking disgusting emotion. I just want to feel happy for other people and their accomplishments, because damn it, they’re good people. But I can’t help but feel terrible whenever I see someone else achieving an accomplishment, or getting something new or whatever it is.

I mean it’s so stupid to think that I’m getting upset over people getting material items, why do I feel so bad for people who get new stuff? I know that if I had said item or an item that could mean as much to me as it means to that other person, it wouldn’t make me any …

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That Time of Year

  August 2nd, 2018 by TiredStoic

This month will be the four year anniversary of my father’s suicide. He shot himself in the head in his bedroom and I was the person to find his body. It took me awhile to tell anyone I didn’t know how to call my mom (she left to take my brother away for college that night) and tell her my older sister or my younger brother. It’s inexplicable to say the least. I just don’t know how to handle this time of year. And I hate the holidays so it kind of just rolls into it, my dad birthday is also in September. Any other …

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Sigh… I hate my mom.

  August 2nd, 2018 by WanderingDreamer91

Sigh… I hate my mom…

 

I can’t really show pics for proof so I guess you’ll have to take my word for it, and I guess it’s up to you if I reacted wrong and if my mom sucks or not, but yeah, I’ll try to find enough time to post on this on a work day, I hate waiting to type out something important…

 

Also, no offense, but… I think Primal One posted like 15 posts in a row and buried some otherd including mine so I’m not sure if people saw them but whatever…

 

Here we go. :p

 

Me

“I want a girlfriend. 🙁 It feels weird saying …

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fading away

  August 1st, 2018 by acciojessica

only a few days ago, my friend and i had a situation with eachother. i had talked about something where ‘i felt sometimes upset about things she says’ but usually it’s not that bad. she called me up & told me how guilty she felt and how she wanted to change. i felt incredibly upset and cried.

monday; we went back to school, and the thing is i see her almost everyday as we share 2 classes together (we sit next to eachother). we didn’t talk at all. it made me upset inside how she didn’t talk to me as particularly how she was my closest …

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I’m a Boring Human Being…

  July 30th, 2018 by GerbzBaby

I felt so bad today for my friend. He came over to hang out with me and I hardly had anything to say. I hate being this way, my mind drawing a blank everytime I try to talk with someone. Now I’m crying and feel like shit about it. I always want to get away from situations like this but I can’t, I’m always stuck. In these moments, I look back on my nightmares knowing it will eventually come true. I will always and forever being alone. No one ever liked me anyways.. I guess I should embrace it if thats the way my life …

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I hate myself

  July 30th, 2018 by dsemfodi

I hate myself. I hate my face, my body, my hair, all of me. I hate how I can’t be like other people. I feel so insecure with what others have. I hate how weak my body is. I got admitted to the hospital thrice last year and twice this year. I had gastritis and PCOS. I also had undergone check ups for my scoliosis. I’ve had many examinations and I’m still continuing my medicine. I feel sorry for my family especially my Mom. We had been struggling financially due to schooling and my medication. These past few days, I’ve been suffering from pain in …

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Ugh

  July 30th, 2018 by Sardonyx

I can’t tell if I was abused or not. It’s hurting me so much I can’t feel anything anymore. I’m ruining my relationship with my boyfriend and I’m pushing people away. I don’t even like being around them, it’s so shallow and fake.

If I could just know if i was abused I could get some help. I’m overreacting and probably deserved whatever happened to me because I’m not a good person. I’m a disgusting fat ugly freak who really just needs to hang off a noose

 

Love yall

Feel better

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I’m feeling like a zombie with no movitation to find brains even though I need brains to live

  July 29th, 2018 by sugarcoated

I have lost all movitation. I’m just coasting through my last year of school only barely passing my tests. This is where grades matters the most, but I’m just so fed up. I’m exhausted emotionally and physically. I just don’t care. Not only that, my friendship group has broken up. I have no more support from them. I barely see them these days. The only person that is supposed to be my “friend” always makes fun of me and puts me down, when she is bullying me I ask her to stop, I always do, she says she will stop, but she doesn’t. But I …

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yeet

  July 29th, 2018 by theironbiggo

uhhhh don’t come on here anymore but i don’t really know what to do. my girlfriend can genuinely do better, but she’s got the low self esteem™ so she doesn’t think she can. or maybe she does! not sure what makes me feel worse; her pretending to like me to protect my feelings or the thought that she honestly thinks i’m the best she can do. i hope she cheats on me. i wouldn’t blame her, anyone in her position would. im short and chubby and gross and boring and a complete fucking freak. im not exaggerating, she’s completely amazing and she’s settling for a

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After 5 years .. I am back again at suicide project !

  July 24th, 2018 by jano.19

The Last time I posted was FIVE years ago ..

I never though I’d ever come back .!

Yet here I am

I guess we never really change !

no matter how hard we try to change ourselves deep down we will always be the same .

I fought hard .. and I’m still fighting .. I’m not really willing to surrender not before not now not ever

yet still my inner self , my flaws , my weaknesses.. are catching up with me ..

spend the last five years in what I developed to br a stable life .. it is actually to most people it’s what they want .

I got …

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Advice on lessening impact of death?

  July 20th, 2018 by windydoor

No suicide methods or details regarding method will be posted here. I want to share my pre death plan and receive advice & input.

Context & reasoning

I’ve been suicidal even since childhood so I knew it was an eventuality. Now I am an adult with no dependents (other than my pet rats), and I am ready to follow through on my plan.

I know I do lots of good things for others and there are people who want (not need) me in their lives, but I hate being alive. I don’t see the point in living when it only benefits others. I don’t expect anything more from …

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My mom killed me

  July 16th, 2018 by izzuh

I know she’s the reason i hate myself. I wish I could just shut it off. but her nasty mean voice has gotten ingrained in me. whenever i tell myself that im not enough or that nobody cares, or i wont get anywhere in life, it’s in her voice.

 

the worst part about her lasting impression is like, most of the time i feel like im not even allowed to be sad. Whenever I would get upset or start crying it was always ‘stop feeling sorry for yourself’

any time i get depressed i just tell myself im feeling sorry for myself and i should stop because …

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Sharing/Oversharing

  July 13th, 2018 by itsallsmallstuff

I want a healthy relationship. But part of opening up to someone is talking about wanting to die. Then this perverts the relationship with either a)flirting with the idea of a suicide pact or b)becoming its gravitational center. Has anyone else walked this line? Possibly even successfully?

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‘The Me Show’

  July 10th, 2018 by hyperballad

to start: I’m an alphabet soup of disorders. Three of those are bipolar, borderline tendencies (whatever the hell that means), and Asperger syndrome.

 

My closest support is my partner who is also financially tied to me. And I even feel her slipping through my fingers and this turning into an uncomfortable situation where we only live together because we can’t afford to live without any kind of plan which we currently don’t have and can’t foresee.

I mean. I can easily leave in a month’s time because my mother passed this June and has apparently left me a hefty inheritance. But my partner can’t. She is on …

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Dear Best Friend

  July 9th, 2018 by -mR-

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I haven’t been able to make things okay for you.

I’m sorry that I haven’t helped you ad much as you need.

I’m really trying to help.

And I’m sorry you don’t know what’s going on with me.

But I don’t want you to deal with my problems as well.

I’m sorry I can’t tell you how much I want to cut again.

How much I want to make myself throw up.

How I choked myself this morning until I couldn’t breathe.

How I look out the window and the voice in my head screams “Jump!”

How my mind seems to get more toxic by the day.

But I can’t tell you …

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He is gone…But was never really mine…

  July 9th, 2018 by FallingSlow

He is gone now,
No longer will I see his smile,
He was here for just a moment,
Silence fills his place,
He is taken by another woman,
She is beautiful and wise,
I was a fleeting moment,
Now, not even a thought in his mind…

He was just like every other man in my life. Beautiful yet toxic… Why did I love him in only the short time I knew him? Why couldn’t I just walk away. I screw up everything… Now I have lost 2 friends I hoped would be around for life.
I lost their child, a beautiful angel I won’t ever see again… She was not mine but the joy …

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