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Actively choosing to have children is an iniquitous scandal

by TheG 6/26/2022

written by TheG

I’ve said it many times and I’ll say it again. D.O.N.’.T–H.A.V.E–C.H.I.L.D.R.E.N. It’s not worth it, if not for you, definitely NOT FOR THEM. Life is a rip off and it isn’t even enjoyable. A world built to lever your very needs against you to create profits for those it rewards. From the moment you dump them into a school they’ll be programmed to be taken advantage of. And if you refuse to participate there’s no planet left for you to survive on anyway.

In fact the biggest reason parents have children at all is due to this programming. the system needs more subscribers. […]

6/26/2022 2 comments

It’s been a while. I didnt try to kill myself last year.

by LeaveMeAlone. 6/23/2022

written by LeaveMeAlone.

Hi. I dont think anyone is around from back when I posted here regularly, so I won’t say anything. This post is mostly because a friend of mine told me I should write a letter to the girl that used to be everything to me, and then left me and shattered my whole world even more than it already was. Anyway, I’ll start.

Reading back on the messages we sent to each other, I can tell that you probably didnt like me that much. I mean you said you were cold and empty and that you never felt good about anything but I didn’t believe it. […]

6/23/2022 3 comments

Detached

by onanotherplanet 6/21/2022

written by onanotherplanet 2 mins read

This is my first post on this site after being an infrequent reader since high school.

Things in my life have been going well for the most part…I literally traveled to another country (my dream destination) over a month ago. I have a great and well-paying job (although it’s stressful right now), my own apartment that I can comfortably afford, the sweetest dog, a working car…I am so unbelievably privileged. But ever since I got back from my trip I’ve been so detached from my life.

I feel directionless. There are things I want to do with my life, so badly, but instead I watch TV and zone out […]

6/21/2022 1 comment

My father will be the death of me

by ihaplyiiiwggth 6/21/2022

written by ihaplyiiiwggth

He has been the source of my issues since I was born. He’s abusive in all ways possible: physical, mental, emotional, sexual, and financial. I’ll never be able to leave this place and he’s got my mother wrapped around his finger, so whatever I say about him, she excuses it.

Lately, I’ve been thinking about dying. I’ll leave all of my possessions with my brother (my best friend) and I’ll apologize to all of my friends before I quit. I have nowhere else to go and he’s controlling my life. I can’t leave without killing myself. It’s the only way out.

I have pets, but he’s threatened […]

6/21/2022 0 comment

27, how the hell did I get here

by anonbot1000 6/19/2022

written by anonbot1000

I still feel like I’m a kid but somehow I’m 27. What. The. Fuck. How did I get here?

I’m pretty much a failure in every aspect of life.

career? hah, someone out of highschool can do my job

money? I’m a dumb fuck and managed to lose most of it when markets only went up the last two years

social life? what’s that. I can barely talk to people without being anxious or stammering like an idiot.

love life? who would want to be with a loser like me.

Can’t even do basic shit expected of a human:

– struggle with putting thoughts into words (spent like 30 minutes making this […]

6/19/2022 1 comment

Hopeless

by Dead_not_sleeping 6/16/2022

written by Dead_not_sleeping

I don’t see a future for myself anymore. I haven’t for many years now.. I’m just so tired of it all. I don’t know why people have to be so judgemental all of the time, the simplest mistakes and you’re an idiot or will never amount to anything. It’s just so exhausting to deal with but it’s even harder when it comes from family and friends. I’ve tried my whole life to tell them how there words make me feel but they just laugh it off as a joke and write off my feelings. Then one day when they keep pushing too far you blow […]

6/16/2022 2 comments

4 years later.

by Eccedentesiastsoul 6/14/2022

written by Eccedentesiastsoul

The last time I posted on here was back in 2018.. Since then so much has changed. I was in a shitty relationship for 2 years that went to shit, I graduated high school which I thought I never would and I made it past 18 years. I went through hell during the last two years of high school would be an understatement but I am past that now and do not want to relive it. I stopped counting how long I am clean of cutting for and would not be able to give you an estimate. I do rely on other coping mechanisms that […]

6/14/2022 2 comments

A Letter to my father side

by booksarelife 6/14/2022

written by booksarelife 5 mins read

To my dear

Father: Sorry I wished you were never my father, Im sorry I wished you never existed or wished you couldn’t give a single shit about me. Honestly I don’t even want to say sorry to you. Yes I’m selfish, I guess you never done anything wrong and it wasn’t your fault you were never there. Only thing I hate is that you wish I was more closer to you. How the fuck is it my fault I’m not comfortable around you or your side of the family? Another thing is your kinda sexist. Feel sorry for your daughter and son. I really hate […]

6/14/2022 0 comment

Never Satisfied.

by booksarelife 6/14/2022

written by booksarelife 1 min read

POV
Your life is perfectly fine. Your parents are amazing, so are your family, you have a few but amazing friends, and your living a decent life but you still are sad and never satisfied with life. Then you came to the conclusion and realized, yup I’m the problem. And you are. You always were. You are the burden in every ones life and even in yours. You hurt every one you have met no matter how great they treated you. You were always selfish and useless. You know allll these things yet you never decided to change. So you thought, fuck it, why suffer […]

6/14/2022 1 comment

Too expensive to live

by MREED 6/10/2022

written by MREED

This is just my quick summary rant of my wanting to die, yes I know what I’ve written is long and messy but believe me I have left out a lot of details, this really is a summary and I just need to let it out, any comments even if mean are appreciated, I can’t let anyone know what I’m planning so being able to be open like this makes me feel just a tiny bit better

Was diagnosed with depression in middle school, my mother is agoraphobia so since middle school I’ve had to shop for her, take care of her and the house, I […]

6/10/2022 2 comments

When does it stop?

by LamPop 6/6/2022

written by LamPop

Every day I think about ways to stop this overwhelming pain and sadness. I can’t be bothered anymore. I feel that I can’t leave because I have my son to look after and he has already suffered tremendous loss. I can’t focus. I’m going to lose my job if I don’t return. I find no joy in anything. I only want to lie around and sleep or watch TV. I am a worthless nothing piece of crap. The love of my life blindsided me and left – no contact. Just cheated and left after eight years. I’ve struggled with my mental health for years and […]

6/6/2022 2 comments

which is it?!

by Furby 5/30/2022

written by Furby

everyone hates me, no one loves me and no one ever will, everyone wants me dead, everyone cares about me, everyone loves me.. it’s all the same damn thing in my head. why can’t my brain make up its mind? do people care about me or not?? stop giving me a damn headache! i’m trying to sleep here!

5/30/2022 3 comments

I need help.

by lucas. 5/25/2022

written by lucas.

I have been suicidal since I was about 6 or 7, currently I am 12 years old. I have been suffering with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and a lot more. I just don’t want to be alive. I have been hurting myself in many ways, as in cutting myself, starving myself, throwing up after I eat, and doing things to hurt myself accidently. I have tried to commit suicide over 26 times, all have embarrassingly failed. I was inpatient not too long ago; I now am taking anti-depressants & anti-psychotics. I’m just so tired, I hate all of my scars because now they are fading, and […]

5/25/2022 8 comments

Nothing can fix anything, not me.

by RedAndBlack 5/21/2022

written by RedAndBlack

Life is complete bullsh*t, I mean I never signed up to end up wanting to kill myself in the end. Whats the point of living if everyone is going to die in the end, might as well be it over and done with when your young?

And here I am, i dont know what the hell im doing here, what is this place going to help me with, fix my problems?, No.

Nothing can ‘fix’ anything, no medications, no therapy or mindfulness, all of that sh*t, completely useless, a scam. I don’t even know how ‘talking about my problems, and feelings is going to stop me from […]

5/21/2022 4 comments

Sick of It.

by tanpopo 5/19/2022

written by tanpopo

My stupid fucking father is trying to text me right now. After being out of my life for nearly 5 years and coming back for a few months before leaving us again. He’s trying to say he’s sorry like he always does. I’m sick of this shit. It’s the same thing over and over again. He acts a fool and comes back later crying.

I’m so so tired of being my parents little therapist. I’m just a kid myself. I don’t know how to fix your problems. I don’t even know how to fix mine. You’re supposed to be MY parents, you’re supposed […]

5/19/2022 0 comment

I hate existence and I feel like a prisoner of existence every single day

by unoriginalperson 5/12/2022

written by unoriginalperson

I don’t know what to do or how to keep going.
I don’t even want to keep going anyway and I know I won’t.

Everywhere I go there is another person telling me how I should live my life, they coerce me on what I should or should not do. Everyone always drops their worded baggage on me like I’m a garbage can and then I watch them do it to others. People seem so distracted from the horrors of this world; I’m so envious of them, but at the same time I am hurting because they are so unaware of their own […]

5/12/2022 1 comment

im ready to go

by iwannadiesobad 5/9/2022

written by iwannadiesobad

I really have 0 left to offer this world. Im failing out of college, my boyfriend fucking sucks, everyone around me finds me loud and annoying, i may be in love with my coworker but i already fucked that up. I just want to feel the sweet release of death. I am not going to have some big or nice job in the future- i have no future, im a fucking joke, and the best part is that no one even knows this about me, im so pathetic that i lie to everyone about how my personal life is because im so embarrassed.

5/9/2022 3 comments

Reflecting on a toxic situationship

by voidzfan21 5/7/2022

written by voidzfan21

In summer 2021, I was in a horribly dark place. I couldn’t even get out of bed and cried every day. By august 1st, I had met a guy. I met him on bumble bff. I had just spent the last 6 or so months engaging in degrading hook ups and trying to find ‘love’ and has given up. I was his perfect target.

I’ve been diagnosed with BPD and told that I possibly had autism according to a few therapists I had seen before, so basically when it comes to dating, I get obsessive with people and idealize them, on top of […]

5/7/2022 1 comment

so lazy i know i cannot survive as an adult

by sleepy2001 5/6/2022

written by sleepy2001

I am a senior in high school, 18, about to be out on my own. all my friends are super excited, ready to go to college and conquer the world. I am lazy as shit. I turn in my homework late or not at all, even when it is extremely easy because I’m too lazy to do it, i never clean my room even though its disgustingly filthy, and if i wasn’t being literally forced to work a job i would have quit by now. I have considered dropping out of high school multiple times (not now since I’m about finished) because its too much […]

5/6/2022 3 comments

Safety Bubble

by Melon_Lord 5/4/2022

written by Melon_Lord

You know that feeling..

When you’re surrounded by people but feel like the only person on the planet..
You want to scream and kick and cry and yell at them saying “HEY, IM HERE TOO!!”

But you don’t. You can’t.

And everything starts to blur together into one big mesh of laughter and feelings and emotions and nothingness.

And then WHAM!

Everything stops inside this space of self preservation and you feel like you can’t breathe and you’re suffocating and withering and dying, but that’s okay.

You look about. Observe the things happening around you and time has kept moving, pushing, SHOVING, but you’re still there inside a […]

5/4/2022 0 comment

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