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Maintaining My Mental

by Itscolourlife 1/16/2023

written by Itscolourlife

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trying to maintain my mental health thru someone
someone that love me and know my story
weve been together since 2010
from a friend to best friend to love
from cheerful to depressed version

started to
loving myself
grooming myself
looking into the bright side
trying to be better

but i
afraid to be in relationship
relationship is a frail thing
break like a glass
cant be forever

and what makes me scared the most
what if i dont love him back
what if he develop depression too
what if i fail you?

just like today
when my parents trying to take the mental health stability i earned and […]

1/16/2023 1 comment

I didn’t think I would live this long.

by vanillakitty 1/12/2023

written by vanillakitty

I have been what I call “half-committed” to life and just about everything that entails since I was a teenager. I thought I would kill myself by sixteen. Then eighteen. Then twenty. Then twenty-two. And now I’m here on the brink of graduation with no idea what I like to do because I’ve been flirting with death my whole life.

I’m almost twenty-three years old and never really wanted to “do” anything with my life. When people ask me about my post-grad plans, I change the subject because I don’t know. I am finishing the degree because I’ve been told the only way to succeed in […]

1/12/2023 2 comments

My own box of lie

by Itscolourlife 12/31/2022

written by Itscolourlife

I thought telling myself im getting better
Telling you im getting better
Will actually make me feel better
But its not
Its just makes me feel lonelier more than before
Trapped in my box of lie coating with happiness
Im so sorry i choose to left this way
But even if i ask and scream for help
You wont help me
You wont be here
Only my smile and cheerful side makes you happy
Makes you closer
Guess everyone loves the sunshine
But forget about the rain in the same sky

12/31/2022 0 comment

Anyone else feel forced to exist? ( theist)

by jeda 12/26/2022

written by jeda

I believe in the Biblical God. I’m just upset about the fact I’ve been brought into existence atall .I feel incompatible with it. I find this life insufferable but its not due to my current circumstance I have a job,family and friends but im still unhappy. I think its my childhood that ruined the will to live bit honestly but im tired of dredging up trauma i just don’t think its worth the hassle? Like what would i be healing for? To have a house some kids and a 9-5? Or maybe to travel the world? Make art or something. Sounds awful. Helping people could […]

12/26/2022 11 comments

HOPE

by butto_love 12/10/2022

written by butto_love

There comes a phase in our life where neither we can hold feelings nor let them go. We hopelessly love them without any conditions and even knowing they won’t love us back, we still love them holding all the broken pieces of our hearts….. but that doesn’t prove we are weak. Trust that phase …. it will make you stronger.

12/10/2022 0 comment

HELP: Should i go to my friend wedding party with my condition?

by Itscolourlife 12/7/2022

written by Itscolourlife

Hey hello you there.. if you see this post may you keep reading.. i really need your help.. SO

There will be a wedding party around 2 weeks from now. The groom is one my best friend and the bride is a fake friend/ a witch/idk what i should called her. As you guys know im battling my depression for 2-3 years and i just getting better this month, struggling by myself without medical, parents, or friends help.

Now i am fatter like 10kg more than before. Ive been locking myself all these years and doesnt want to meet my friends. One of the reason why […]

12/7/2022 5 comments

Things that Work

by Plainwhite 12/6/2022

written by Plainwhite

I care about you guys. So, Ive come back to share whats working for me, in hopes that just maybe it will help one of you too.
A while ago I came to the conclusion that, as suicidal as I may have felt, I probably wasnt ever going to kill myself. I couldnt. And it was for the same reason I couldnt build a happy life for myself: I didnt have enough self-discipline. I was really good at making plans in my head, and really bad at actually doing what it takes to make those plans a reality. The thought “Im gonna kill myself” had […]

12/6/2022 0 comment

Through the ups and the downs…….

by EvilOni22 12/1/2022

written by EvilOni22

Life……it’s a complicated thing for many people. Some of it is brought on by ourselves, though some of it is thrown upon us outside of our control. Both good things and bad things work that way. Sometimes you have to take a step back to see the full picture to not get lost in the details, and sometimes you have to take a closer look at things to find your way through the forest. Balance won’t always be the same. The scales can shift. The weights can slide and you have to be ready for when they do. Not everything in the future is foreseeable […]

12/1/2022 0 comment

Gratitude, 11/26

by Plainwhite 11/26/2022

written by Plainwhite

1. My life isnt over. I still have time to accomplish things.
2. There are people who love me as I am right now, flaws and all. I am not unlovable.
3. Today Ive chosen to intentionally love myself despite waking up with painful feelings, and that means that Im growing and making progress.

Todays goal: Less thinking, More doing.

11/26/2022 1 comment

Gratitude is overrated

by niki 11/23/2022

written by niki

Gratitude is overrated, like many other optimistic/positive-thinking advices. Not everybody can do that. It’s unrealistic, and honestly full of BS (bullshit)

Gratitude has become today’s current hype which everyone seems to be doing, and even keep posting about it constantly on social media. Everywhere you see people always talk about gratitude (& with all other optimistic/positive stuff usually).

It becomes irritating however when gratitude is forced and shoved down our throats, as if everyone should (or must) do that. In reality, you can’t just force other people to keep showing gratitude constantly. Things happened, shits happened; problems, pain, & sufferings happen to some people, which is ridiculous […]

11/23/2022 0 comment

Problem in Paradise

by stormy weather 11/22/2022

written by stormy weather

I was in Hawaii with a bunch of friends. Great time – right? Too much booze, lots of laughter. Until I did something silly and one of my friends yelled at me and told me to stop being childish. I immediately shut down and went to my room – on the 29th floor. Sitting out on the balcony bawling I started seriously thinking about jumping. That would teach him, right? I sat there thinking yes, no, yes, no, yes, no. Thankfully the “no’s” won out.

I never thought too much about revenge suicide until then. Other times, other reasons. But revenge suicide is […]

11/22/2022 0 comment

I need advice

by i_need_advice 11/7/2022

written by i_need_advice

11/7/2022 2 comments

by Plainwhite 10/27/2022

written by Plainwhite

It seems like today Im especially aware of my desire to be liked and acknowledged by other people. Despite my feelings sometimes, what I truly want is for my life to matter. But Im also aware that these desires have been holding me back from living authentically. Its almost like Ive been stuck in a lucid dream and now realizing that the time has come for me to cut the shit and wake up. I have to let go of the desire to be liked, because when Im not liked, I suffer, and then I suffer anyway because I forget who I even am in […]

10/27/2022 2 comments

by Plainwhite 10/24/2022

written by Plainwhite

I didnt realize until last year, in my early 30’s, that I was supposed to be building someone this whole time. I used to think people were the way they came, and that was it. Now I know that the majority of who someone is has to do with what theyve built themselves up to be. Of how much effort theyve put into building their lives up.
I look at my time differently now. Do I choose to play video games or to go workout? Do I work on that book Ive always wanted to write, or do I get high and watch cartoons on […]

10/24/2022 2 comments

Hope…ful/less?

by Jaeline 10/23/2022

written by Jaeline

Even when the world is cold, I still want to find the heart not to be. -LIT (jjolee)

It’s been a while since I’ve written here, and every time I remember this place I come and reread posts that I only have as drafts, I remember how passionate I wrote them with pain and crying while at it.

Tho this time is different, and still think life is worthless and I want to die, I now don’t actively look for death, I dunno if it’s because I’ve come to terms that I’m not brave enough to commit suicide or because I’ve […]

10/23/2022 1 comment

Geesh

by urban 10/16/2022

written by urban

Another milestone and my heart can’t take it anymore. I cursed god for the last time and now I really have no meaning. Why live? I have no family, not like oh I just don’t want to talk to them, no they shitty people and they abandon me with my shitty mother. so they all condone child abuse and neglect. I’m tired of nobody having my back and I’m still being kind and nice sitting here smiling every day in people’s faces but who gives a fuck about me. God do like to watch people suffer and not fair.. why give someone a shitty life […]

10/16/2022 1 comment

Please read this.

by Im begging you not to give up hope 9/30/2022

written by Im begging you not to give up hope

Hello there, friends. I just ran across this website tonight. At first I was shocked because it seemed to be promoting suicide, but then I read the rules and realized that wasn’t the case. However, I didn’t worry any less about the people on this site. I don’t know any of you but I’m guessing I know the feelings you’re feeling. Please take a look at what I have to say.

Disclaimers

I’m going to make a few disclaimers before I start. First of all, if I accidentally say something that offends you, I apologize and recognize that your viewpoint exists. However, I don’t apologize for speaking […]

9/30/2022 12 comments

FUCK IT – Update – Hard decision//Never Loved//Obdurance

by Thanatos.Nykthos 8/10/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

FUCK TIME TIME IS A B!TCH

FUCKIN RANT O’CLOCK, FUCKLES MCGEE!

GUESS WHAT?! I’m FUCKING waiting now, and I FUCKING hate it!

WAITING FOR THIS STUPID FUCKING SOLUTION which is GONNA MAKE MY LIFE BETTER

but FUCK WAITING OH GOD

I WAS STABLE for like A WEEK AND A HALF damnit! FUCK COPING! FUCK QUESTIONS from PROFANE PREACHERS of PALLID HATE!

HERE’s the UPDATE, because HELL YEAH that’s useful!

Part ONE:

I wanna make some FUCKIN DEMANDS, damnit!

I WANNA COFFIN, DAMNIT! and you BETTER NOT THROW AWAY ALL THE SHIT I PUT TOGETHER TO LAY THIS WHOLE MESS OUT FOR YA!

alright, now to the kind and well-deserving members of thesuicideproject.org, I’d like to […]

8/10/2022 7 comments

A failed duty

by A Crestfallen Angel 8/6/2022

written by A Crestfallen Angel

Ever heard of situations where vilains try to get rid of someone because the person they want the most attention from isn’t giving it to them but to the another. It makes them so furious because they only make time with that person and only want to talk to that person that they don’t care if they exist because that person is present.
It’s very sad to say I feel their rage.
Of course I don’t want to hurt anybody but I can’t promise I haven’t thought about it.
She gave birth to me
So why does she give a stranger more attention than […]

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8/6/2022 0 comment

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Hard decision

by Thanatos.Nykthos 8/3/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

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Goddamnit, I’d hate for this to just be some bum other journal for me. But- At break point, I know that need.
Tonight I make the daring leap, I do what I hate myself for, what they will never forgive truly. For they cannot love, They cannot care for anything other than their purchase ‘pon me.
They will hate and weep, plead and probe into me, but my adamantine message cannot falter. Tonight will be difficult, I fear it’s malfruition. I pray to honest God for strength, for forgiveness for the resolve of self I have lacked so long, and for grace abounding […]

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8/3/2022 3 comments

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