January 22nd, 2017by Blue65
January 22, 2015. In the next few hours, it’ll be two years since my last suicide attempt. It took me two years to circle back completely and relapse here.
I’ve felt sad before this, but now, I’m back to the cold feeling of hopelessness and sorrow that I had been so used to. The suicidal thoughts are back, and the only thing stopping me is the fear of failure- what happened last time. I became that much more of a burden on everyone I knew, and those whom I thought actually cared for me.
Friends and family forgot about the whole thing. Some chose to ignore it, …