My Suicide Note

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  April 18th, 2019 by MaxSheep

I’m tired of being this. I know I’ve only barely told you that I needed help, a therapist or medicine, that any would do. I didn’t have the heart to tell you exactly why since I didn’t want to be more of a burden than I already am, that doesn’t matter anymore though. Don’t feel bad for making me choose between therapy or that investment of yours. Therapy wasn’t working anyways, it started okay but after a couple of sessions I noticed I couldn’t be open about what has been bothering me for more than four years now.

The chances of me changing or getting better [...]
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Save me before it’s too late

  April 15th, 2019 by TheSadAngel

I once decided to end my life at March 15. But then some things have turned upside down and I decided to live. But now, a month after that day, I decided to end my life too. Not now, I say, but soon. Soon. What I have in my mind is after my boyfriend and I’s anniversary, May 17. I just want to feel what it’s like to have a one year relationship. I just want to make him feel loved too, even for one last time. But if things goes out of planned, then maybe earlier. I just need to finish this school year, [...]
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im still here

  April 3rd, 2019 by li

i’m still here 
i hate it 
i fell in love 
but she’ll never get it 
i want to die in her arms 
i hope she’ll understand it 
maybe one more day 
maybe 
i gave her my heart 
but she dont know it 
its on her table 
she’d never see it 
ive been through enought
to know i wont have it 
i guess it is time for me to sleep 
for a long time coming 
 
goodbye 
i might be back 

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I feel bad… yet angry

  April 2nd, 2019 by ariusversea

I don’t want to bother anyone with my problem. And yet I feel as if I’ll explode. For the past week, I’ve had to watch my abuser walk down my same hallways, spend quality time with his friends in his new clothes (guess his mom spoiled him), while I with in my usual frustration, jumpy whenever I feel anyone come near me, wanting to run away and having no one that understands because I CAN’T TELL.

but what if i killed myself? what if i fell out the window? in my letter, i’d blame everyone that protected him, everyone that made me feel like i [...]
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Getting over arrogant people.

  April 2nd, 2019 by Undisciplinedbeing

I’m writing here to no end. I don’t want anything out of it, so I won’t pretend I’m trying to get anybody other than me involved.

 

Tonight, start of writing occurred at one fifteen A.M, I thought to myself that no matter how deep into depression and nervous dysfunction I sink, no matter how better or worse I suffer than during one of the several mental breakdowns I’ve had, I’ll always have to recover my sanity, and grow through the experience, only so I can make sure that nobody under my horizon has to go through the same low as me, not as hard, not as [...]
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What Do You Do?

  March 22nd, 2019 by Justanotherfaintstar


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Today wasn’t a good day

  March 21st, 2019 by crazykidfrommars

Every day is terrible, but today really pushed me over the edge. I can’t take it anymore. I’m going to try ODing on my iron pills and finally dying. I hope my family disposes of my body and not leave it there to rot because they’re some horrible people, I tell you. All rotten, all abusive, all evil people.

So, goodbye. This 18 year old is finally breaking free. No more nerve pain, no more mental illness, no more abuse. Nothing. Hopefully I’ll finally be successful this time. I can only pray.


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i tried and i dont think anything matters

  March 19th, 2019 by lostcase

so i tried because i was so tired and i couldnt care less about anything else, i dont give a fuck weather anyone would be sad or mad, i texted goodbye two friends and wrote the rest letters, one tried to stop me but i told them this is what has to be done. so after cutting many stupid cuts on my stupid leg i looked at my arm and got too weak to cut it open so i opened the pill bottle and ate it all. i was already dizzy from blood loss and fainted on the bathroom floor. a tiny while later i [...]
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Why am I still here?

  March 18th, 2019 by strawberrycrown

I honestly don’t even know why I am still here. I look back and think of how many times I have been up at night crying, sometimes for not much reason at all. I look back and wonder why I have been so ready to go but haven’t yet. I don’t have the energy to be here anymore. I dont have the social capability to function here anymore. It has taken me too many rough patches to realise that there is nothing keeping me back here anymore. I just know that I can’t handle being here for another hour longer.


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My last shindig

  March 17th, 2019 by mr.biaggi46

Last night i had a party at my house with a few friends. I tried to get all my coworkers and friends there, and luckily for me most of them showed up. I kept bringing it up and reminding people that it’ll be my last outting. The last time I will really be out or see people. What they didn’t know was i was planning to kill myself after they left.

The party was fun. Lots of drinks and lots of laughter, so when everyone left I originally thought i was just over reacting. Until i tried to actually fall asleep. All i kept thinking bout [...]
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The beginning

  March 17th, 2019 by awis

Hello everyone, I’m not a native speaker, so at first I would like to apologise for any mistakes I’ll possibly make in this post.

I don’t plan to leave any suicide notes, because I don’t have anything to say to most of the people and those to whom I do, wouldn’t want to listen. I’m writing this journal, because I don’t want people to freely shape my image after I die. Especially that they only see me as an idiot, or a monster, or a silly fool. Or a failure (that part is true though).

I found this website, while searching for the most suitable metods on [...]
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short and sweet

  March 12th, 2019 by viola

fuck this shit fuck this country i hate my country’s educational system,, so many kids attempting suicide and no one’s doing jackshit FAST about it.

well, i guess i’ll just be another dead body in the morning. i hate living. i hate life. bye.. see you all in the afterlife…

fucking tired of humans,,, i hope i get reborn as a loved and pampered cat or dog because i just don’t want to think!!! im sick of using my brain!! even when people tell me im smart, im fucking dumb and fail tests and fail to pass my homework on time!! fuck this shit!! i just want [...]
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What Do You When You Tried Your Absolute Best and It Wasn’t Enough?

  March 12th, 2019 by Justanotherfaintstar

Throughout the course of my life, I have experienced a string of failures and have only occasionally managed to make the occasional breakthrough.

I wasn’t able to pursue the career I really wanted due to me not being skilled and experienced enough and there being a lack of entry level jobs to break in to the industry. Currently, I am unemployed and every job I interview for has 20 other candidates also campaigning for the same role and thus I keep getting rejected.

I don’t have enough money to go back to school and at this point, I regret ever going to school at all.

This natural spark [...]
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I’ve Lost Everything

  March 7th, 2019 by Justanotherfaintstar

Every time I have been faced with multiple options for decisions, I have picked the wrong one. Every. Single. Time.

Ten years ago I decided to go to a school that was more expensive than my family’s socio economic status because I thought the investment would pay off and I would get a good job. I had a great experience, but everything came to a screeching halt when I graduated, was hit with my first student loan debt bill and I found myself unable to find any sort of entry level job in my field.

I made the mistake of staying in my home state, which isn’t [...]
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There seems to be a negative correlation

  March 2nd, 2019 by LadyNevermore

This note is just a formality. I know damn well most people won’t care that I’m gone, or why I’m gone. But leaving without an explanation is still sort of a dick move, and I guess I don’t want the last thing I ever do to be a dick move.

Well, what can I say really? Just that there’s an obvious negative correlation between how much someone knows about me and how much they want me around. Sure, I might seem OK at first. But I’m anything but OK. I’m awkward. I’m stupid. I’m oblivious. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to come off as rude. I [...]
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Is it wrong

  February 10th, 2019 by Jojogram

Is it wrong for me to think that people should commit suicide ..? I’m most definitely not for it as I have seen the difference it can make in a life. But … Have you ever put yourself in someone else’s shoes and just thought “Damn … It would be so much easier … Plus I’m not afraid of death… People should be more welcoming of it rather than afraid … But then again they have lived all their lives living it … So something different might nno be as good”

Idk … I’m just drinking here, laying down wirhaw life full of unaccomplished achievements right [...]
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He’s waiting for me.

  February 1st, 2019 by See you soon Dad

Just said goodbye to my dad a few hours ago,  he was all I had left. The MS finally took him, I’ve got a loaded gun on my dining table waiting for me.

Always make time for your family everyone because you’ll regret it otherwise.

Anyway yeah not the best final words but it’s something.

 

Bye


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What is BAD LUCK

  January 26th, 2019 by Itscolourlife

I want to drag you in
Deep inside me
Deep inside the blackhole with me
I want you to know my sadness my sorrow my darkness
But in the end I cant tell you

You have problem too
I know mine is so much more
But I cant give you more sadness more sorrow more darkness

When you said you bring bad luck to people around you
How can I say that Im not alright
How can I say that I have depression
When you are just my best friend

When you said about your best friend death
When you said your ex gf have cancer

How can I [...]
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Goodbye

  January 20th, 2019 by Mac-10toSchool

This is it. I feel it. Now is the time.

Good luck to you all. Much empathy. I love you all.

Goodbye.


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I’m sorry but I have to go.

  January 18th, 2019 by n.retro_waver

I’m not sure how things will turn out. I’m not sure if people who know me will see this. But I’ll just leave this here, just in case…

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Hi all.

I’m really sorry.

The last few months.. No.. the last few years have been extremely difficult for me. I’ve been sick on and off. I was left without any idea of what to do. My options were gone, dashed with the end of art classes and painting. I couldn’t try and force myself into the resto+bakeshop seeing that things had changed so much from when I was there that it was dizzying just to try and keep up. [...]
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