My Suicide Note

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I need REST

  August 15th, 2018 by mo992

Me again? I’m still alive?? wtf?? Why me?? Can I just get run over already. I planned it careful. Walk into the road aimlessly. Look at my phone for distraction. Become one of those statistics people use to warn others about the dangers of using your phone. It didn’t work. The bus honked and I was brought back into reality.

Now I feel guilt. Immense guilt. I could have scared the bus driver. I could have scared passengers. I could have scared passersby. I could have scared my friends. But I long for an easy escape. Most people fear death, I see it as an opportunity …

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Sleep in peace

  August 10th, 2018 by angel z

My marriage ain’t working out after my daughter was born. Arguments everyday and all blame is on me! I hate when the person i love the most hurts me the most! I am going to end my life soon by taking sleeping pills so that i can sleep in peace forever!

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God hates.

  August 10th, 2018 by KingReaper1

God hates,

That’s why he no longer creates.

 

I who walk in the shadow of death,

I who ask only be set free from my pain,

I who hath nothing left to gain,

I who have greeted the reaper,

I who has gone deeper.

 

 

I who asked god “O lord release me”.

I who had to see.

God hates that witch destroyed his garden,

God who’s heart has hardened.

 

 

For fate has hold of me,

Showing for all to see.

Tho my scars be shown,

the understanding of my pain….. unknown…

 

 

I’ve ended me seven times.

Yet God makes me pay for my crimes…

Heven nor Hell wants for I,

And all I ask is …

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My Story

  August 8th, 2018 by clichenamehere

So I discovered this place while looking up the best way to kill myself.  I’m a 41 year old police officer and retired military veteran.  I’ve been in a terrible marriage for the majority of the last 23 years of my life.  I’m finally at the point where I can’t take the utter sadness and lack of any joy in my life.  I’ve suffered from differing forms of mental illness for the majority of my life: severe depression, borderline personality disorder, ptsd, etc.  I’ve been on medications and gone to therapy and they seemed to help when I’m actually happy.  I haven’t been happy for …

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I’m so fucking tired.

  August 8th, 2018 by avoidthatthinks

Not sure what to call this, to be honest.

I know I’m gonna kill myself this year, or at least that’s what I keep telling myself. And honestly, I feel almost a sense of relief when I think about it. I know that might sound fucked up, part of me still thinks it is.

I’m just so scared to do anything because it feels like everything I do is wrong. Whenever I do talk about my feelings, people just put me in a hospital or something- which, isn’t necessarily a bad thing, I spent a week in a behavioral hospital and I can honestly say it was one …

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The Damage Done.

  August 6th, 2018 by Brody2018

Well, where do I begin?
My life has been a roller coaster and would probably make an intriguing, but sad film.
So, why am I here?
I want to die. Badly. The decision is made and it will be carried out very, very soon. First a few affairs to get in order, then off to eternal sleep.
Why?
In a nutshell…..
When I was teen I was physically and sexually abused by my stepfather in private. He would sneak into my room, when I was asleep, put duct tape over my mouth to stop screaming. Then after each time he would say that “nobody believes little boys so its no use …

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requiem

  August 5th, 2018 by imsosorry2468

It’s taking a lot for me to write this. I’ve had so conjure up the will or energy to even post here again. I feel so hopeless right now. I just want to die already!

God it’s so hard. To think about the shit storm of pain I’ll leave behind. I hate myself for feeling like this. I think people would be sad for a while but at least they’d be able to move on finally and live their lives without having to worry about me or pay for my therapy or my school or anything . My mom could start to fix her marriage …

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Quick Vent

  August 5th, 2018 by avoidthatthinks

jealousy is such a fucking disgusting emotion. I just want to feel happy for other people and their accomplishments, because damn it, they’re good people. But I can’t help but feel terrible whenever I see someone else achieving an accomplishment, or getting something new or whatever it is.

I mean it’s so stupid to think that I’m getting upset over people getting material items, why do I feel so bad for people who get new stuff? I know that if I had said item or an item that could mean as much to me as it means to that other person, it wouldn’t make me any …

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iam having a hard time

  August 2nd, 2018 by beaxer

I am either not enough or to much and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.  I hate being me,  but I also know I like the person iam because iam good.  Alot of other people don’t see that…  They don’t understand. I don’t want to fight myself anymore. I want to be out in the ocean,  stranded,  contemplating my life because these days it just seems like to much. I feel like iam drowning but my lungs just won’t collapse under the weight of the water. I’m left stuck gasping for air, and my head is already above water.  I don’t …

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Pointless life

  July 31st, 2018 by doesntmatteratall11

A year ago i was at this same point thinking life is meaningless and that i should just end it all, but now a year later i can confirm that, the last year i had spent in a relatioship, i didnt feel pointless and my life was meaningless because i had love, but i was still depressed, ive turned to drugs and that the only way i feel normal, i dont do hard drugs just yet but i can tell i will one day soon….. i want to give up on life completely, ive quit going to school and its at the end of year …

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Easy to die.

  July 31st, 2018 by strawberrycrown

Okay, so I know it’s supposed to be 1 post a day but I need to get this out too. I’ve just been thinking about how hard it is to live – and how hard life is really. But death, it’s such as easy escape. It would be so much weight off my shoulders. It would be all of my problems solved. And for me especially, I have so many ways that I could die like to be honest I should not have the “luck” to be alive today. I could die from eating a peanut, having an asthma attack, cuddling a horse, eating as …

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Im Coming Across my last days

  July 31st, 2018 by Azraelsee

I realize daily now there truly isn’t a reason. Im 23 its not that im bad looking or unsucessful at all or even that im unintelligent. I was quite blessed to have a good looking face, thousands of people who called me their friend and a wonderful job where the people are always kind. I was also lucky to have the drive to pretty much accomplish anything i wanted and being intelligent enough to have been that kid in school who tutored everyone…

The truth is Im planning on my permanent solution because everywhere i go i just end up hurting people and my past.. growing …

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To Whom It May Concern

  July 30th, 2018 by bec1998

I feel nothing but pain. The smile on my face is fake. The happy, carefree woman who was a mascot two consecutive years in high school, who sang for small crowds, who wished for world peace when she was younger, who wanted to be beautiful, has died. There is only a broken, tearful, world-weary woman in excruciating pain. A woman who spends her days crying. Who spends her nights crying. Who can’t take the pain.

I feel like I’m a burden to people, and I want to free them from their burden. I make everyone else sad because I have crippling depression, and I’ve had it …

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If you can relate to my reasons+80%, feel free to reply:) or if you got something logical to say..

  July 28th, 2018 by longgone.bleeding

I don’t know where to start but I’ll just state points. I’m not being negative, I’m just being honest. I almost had 3 attempts that were so thoroughly planned these 2 yrs. I know that the 4th will be attempted with no reverse;)

1) I am too naive for this world. Meaning; my crybaby ass self-has never faded. Somehow it got worse. I am the weakest person to the point of not being able to function properly for at least a min.

2) It’s obvious that I have a mental disorder. I know that it can be managed if I had my mom by my side or …

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Nothing Left

  July 28th, 2018 by Brokentoi

If hating me makes you hate yourself a little less, I’ll do that for you…

I’ve long since outlived my welcome and my usefulness.

Precious little goodness have I contributed to this world; nothing to my own credit do I leave behind. Nobody here depends on me, all will be relieved when I’m gone.

I’ve nothing left in this cold, desolate place to hold me here.

I’ve lost it all. There’s nothing left now for me to lose, anymore.

There’s just nothing left. C ‘est la vie.

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Fine… Im Fine

  July 23rd, 2018 by razorwrists

Sometimes I just feel down and sometimes I feel as if im being held down by something so big I cant breathe It casts a shadow over me I cant quite tell how big but its big enough to cover my mind its so dark I struggle to smile people think they know but there just as lost as me they offer advice but it passes by my head like a breeze not a small breeze its like the breathe of the shadow it inhales and I feel blank then it exhales and still nothing happens im at a stand still but I don’t know …

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My Note

  July 22nd, 2018 by Idont34324know32

I’ve repeatedly been suicidal in the past number of years becoming more and more frequent.  That meant that my note has changed over this period naturally.  The latest note wrote today is as follows:

I’m sorry to everyone Mum, Dad i’m sorry.  I just can’t continue my life means nothing and all i do is cause pain to everyone inside it.  The closer you are the worse it is, so i’ve ended it to save everyone from the pain.  You will feel better when i’ve done it.

I can’t help but wish i made different choices but all i see is death at the end of the …

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A Letter To Myself (poem written by me)

  July 22nd, 2018 by anonymousie

  • dear anonymousie

there you go
ruining everything again
without even trying to
how pathetic are you?

you want to die,
and it’s so rightfully justified
because you’re mediocre at best
no matter how hard you try

you could eat healthier
exercise more
erase your past
you could do everything he wants

but who says that will make love last?

you’ve made mistakes
many terrible
some preventable
most were accidental

you can try blaming it on
being a millennial
but not all of us
are fuck ups like you

“consistency is key”
the only thing you’re consistent at
is ruining everything for me
you’re the one that won’t let you be happy

you know just how to make him hate you
you wonder why he ripped your
pictures off the wall
it’s because he …

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What do you do when you can’t feel anything? Just emptiness, numbness… I can’t do anything.  I’m suicidal. Ive tried so many times. I tried to get better. I stopped taking antidepressants for 2 months now. I didn’t want to depend on it anymore.

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Suicide

  July 14th, 2018 by careforme

I wrote my suicide not last night because everything is fallen apart so here’s what I say

Dear Family, Friends, and my Boyfriend,

So sorry to do this but if your reading this by now I must be dead there’s so many reason why I’ve decided to end my life here they are

  1. Ever since I was born I was placed in so many fosters homes with so many schools and all the bullies I had dealt with
  2. Dad it was just the two of us before she came in the picture you let her control you and me and I hated it I learned to love her but she still thinks she