My Suicide Note

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Frustrating. When Life Keeps Betraying You Even After Death. “A Ballad of Life: Aram Niakan’s Suicide Story.”

It’s a slap on the face. It’s fu*king insulting how some unfortunate ones are screwed over in death, just as they were in life. There are so many places/countries where they don’t give a rat’s ass for somebody’s last will that it’s enraging..!

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The Funniest Joke, The Second Installment of My Worthless Existence

January 15th, 2017by AKidWithAName

Welcome, ladies and gentlemen, to my near-monthly shout into the void called the internet! Today, we present the second installment of a worthless piece of dog shit trying to reconcile their guilty conscience to no avail!

God, I am such a freak show. I’m not even saying this shit to be “edgy” or whatever. I am actually fucking hilarious to watch. I’ve been replaying memories of my worthless life and let me tell ya, it could win a fucking comedy award. Hok shit.

So, first, I honestly thought that my parents wanted me. Holy fuck, that was a good one. My parents? Ha. Wanting me? God, it’s …

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My Story

January 14th, 2017by 90Grayson

Hello everyone, my name is Daniel, and I think I’m going to commit suicide very shortly, I want to anyways, not sure if I will though, since things in life change so much, but I hope that moment arrives in a week or two. I don’t know where to start, I’m done trying to figure out why I’m like this, why I have suicidal thoughts, why I cut myself, why I feel so much pain all the time. It sucks, it really sucks to be this way, I don’t believe in destiny, but I cannot avoid feeling like I am trapped, and have absolutely no …

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Anyone want to discuss about philosophy

January 6th, 2017by nevertobe

I am planning on ending it in a couple of weeks or so maybe more or less depends when I get my house in order I am a 20-year-old seeking someone to talk about life and philosophy with and share and enjoy my last few weeks and leave in peace

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Some Words

January 4th, 2017by ceeselena

There wasn’t a time I ever didn’t feel depressed. Even with the cocktail of drugs I’m always on. Everything hurts. I miss my dad. He killed him self 5 months ago. Today is my turn. I’m just done. A lot of people say it. Because it’s true. I don’t want to draw this out. I just want to say I’ve been hurting nonstop for 17 years and it’s gotten to the point where I just can’t be bothered anymore. I love my pets, and I feel they’re the only ones who will honestly miss me. Well, I know of about two people who will. But …

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one year at most

January 4th, 2017by nevertobe

please forgive my grammar

I am a 20 years old will be 21 this year I am writing this not as a cry for help but to get it off my chest I am planning to kill myself in less than a year or when the opportunity presents itself I am doing it because of severe mental health issues I am still researching many ways to end it and honestly I feel happy and at peace with the idea of dying I am losing everything that has made me…. well me as my “issues” progress further I find myself scared not by death but living a …

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Confession: 3 times the charm or curse

January 3rd, 2017by BrokenAngel8

This one I have been thinking about quite a bit lately… Though certain things that are good happened this year. 2016 was mostly shit as far as me being emotionally, mentally and physically healthy.

It makes me wonder on why god is letting me live like this and being extremely miserable and unhappy with my life. It made think about the 3 times that I tried to take my life in the past.

The first time I was 13.. I was being severally physically and mentally bullied in school for a variety reasons by some of my classmates. It was suppose to be a prescription drug overdose.. …

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What to do? Death?

January 3rd, 2017by lxmyrick

Hey SP,

I post rarely, but when I do, it is normally impotent to me.  I understand if no one once to hear me, I’m used to it, but if you read this, please help.

So I doing a bunch of midterm, and I don’t give a fuck.  There are so many things that are learned in school that is a waste of time.  For example, foreign language even though today’s modern day uses technology.  Also I am not a dummy, but I’m not a genius, but everyone wants me be a straight A student.  I have a few choices in life, but not enough to control …

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im gonna do it

January 1st, 2017by tylerb4110

im going to kill myself. i dont know when but i can feel it getting closer each day. i just have this feeling of emptiness that grows as the days continue. im only 15 years old. a sophmore in highschool. i should be hanging out with my friends or partying right now or something like that, but no im in my room alone wanting to be dead. i mean its new years eve for fucks sake. every kid known to man is with all their friends. i have friends (kinda) but i hate everyone at the same time i sit in my room all day …

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2016 the eye-opening year

2016 the eye-opening year

December 29th, 2016by Ariayanna1994

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The beginning of 2016 was when I got myself together and had my three beautiful children full time I was working as well. I shelters many people family or not and fed the mouth of people who talked bad upon me. I’ve never been the perfect mom sister daughter but I always made sure everyone was good and taking care. October of 2016 was when I experimented with a certain drug. No the drug did not ruin my life but it changed me as a person. The same month landlord told me I could not renew my …

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Death in the family

December 26th, 2016by Epistemologist2.0

Hello everyone! I am a father (non-custodial parent) of 2 boys. For the past 8 years I’ve spent fighting I. Family court to advocate  for my equal parental rights, as to ensure my bond with my children….Long story short…I lost. The mother proved to be to manipulative. Its funny because the more I fought to be in my children’s life, the more she fought to keep me away. There is really no way I can at this point, classify her as a human being. I’ve had countless, never ending, suicidal/homicidal ideations and the emotional Pain I feel is beyond this world!! To describe my pain …

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Near Suicide Experience

December 23rd, 2016by VicariousEyes

Well, I almost did it. I was crossing the line before the part of me that hates me stopped me. I deleted my previous posts about my intent for suicide because I felt that they were stupid, childish, poorly written and whatever else negative the other me wanted to come up with.

Anyway, I’ve been depressed for going on 5 years now. Long story not-so-short: my parents have had a volatile, explosive, violent marriage full of mistrust, lies, paranoia. My dad is a HUGE guy. Not in the fat sense, in the could crush a train between his fingers sense. So when things got physical between …

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Basketball to nothing

December 22nd, 2016by Itwaslife

I have always tried my hardest at everything I do, always putting in my best effort. Basketball has always been my thing I have been working on it for the last 5 years day in and day out. The thing is I got seriously injured and Basketball is done for me now. It was my entire future and now I dont know what else to do. At this same point in my life my girlfriend just left me and I got fired from my job.
I have nothing going for me anymore and I just want to end it.
I dont think there is any …

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The end is virtually inevitable now

December 22nd, 2016by SoVeryTired

I’ve been in a psych hospital for 6 weeks now. Tried ECT for 4 weeks, but I got resistant to it, wasn’t getting good seizures, and it did nothing to improve my mood. Now that’s stopped, and one more medication was added to the mix, dexamphetamine. It’s giving me more energy, but it hasn’t changed the “colour” of my mood, just the intensity. I still feel sad, just more intensely so, whereas before I was totally flat. If anything it’s made me more suicidal, as I now have more drive to actually see my plans through.

There is a very strong sense that my suicide is …

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Black Sheep

December 19th, 2016by Blue65

I’ve been on this website many times. I’ve seen other posts, read plenty of comments, and I never feel any better.

I always just feel out of place.

Even in an entire website, dedicated to people suffering, just as I am, I’ve found that I’m still just as isolated, as odd as I am outside this place.

I see heartbreak posts routinely. My significant other this, she went and did that.

While their stories drive me to feel for them, they also make me feel worse.

Here I am, in my twenties, in the direction of doing what I’ve always dreamed. I’m well known as the funny guy, the good …

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I’m done fighting

December 16th, 2016by frolicpanseylove

Been very depressed. Few months ago I was called a bottom tier Nigger by my fiances father. He doesn’t believe that we should be together because of my skin and social status. He also hit me and I feel so angry and low that I allowed him to get away with it. I’m a professional guy but he still doesn’t like me. I left a good job because I thought I found my dream job. But it’s been total Hell here and my boss is constantly demeaning me and making me feel stupid. I generally get along with people but she contsrantly degrades me. I …

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Got to keep if nots away to succeed

December 15th, 2016by passionfruit3

I was wondering something the other day I broke out with a massive amount of hives after holding my guiean pig i think im allergic anyway i was wondering if i was to swallow some of the hairs do you think i would get hives in my throat.my friends dont care about me anymore all my Christmas shopping is done they can figure out which present is theres im gone if not i will eventually use a boxcutter to cut my wrist or throat. I need to do this soon in two days as my sister is coming home and they are bringing company i …

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Black, Tired and Ready To Die

December 12th, 2016by fallowearth

Nearly since birth, I have been subjected to human cruelty, this is part and parcel of being born into an unstable marriage to two emotionally unstable people. Only one parent was empathetic and caring, the other was cruel, destructive, violent.

Mother divorces father, family is plunged into grinding, relentless poverty. I’ve struggle all of my life to escape this trap. I have gone to school and amassed mounds of higher education debt. I have kept my legs closed and just worked and studied, like a mule, only to hit the reality of financial limits, racial limits. Human limits. People are not kind. People are cold. Cruel. …

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They say…

December 9th, 2016by lovedOnce

They say that the time make the things easier… But the only thing that time made is show how much I miss you, how much I like you… If could I would just go back in the time that use speak with me.

They this will pass, but every day this is bigger and bigger. Every day I just thing I could make the things right for us, I could be that guy… But I destroied everything, I made you hate me.

They DON’T say that even death is better than live like this. But I know…

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Secrets I’ve always wanted to tell. (1st timer here…)

December 8th, 2016by Asystole

I had no idea a website like this existed, but I’m grateful to have found it.  I lurked and read many things here before deciding to sign up to post. I wonder if anyone out there can relate to my story?  I wonder if anyone out there is my age, or older?  I wonder if anyone shares my burdens? I wonder, I wonder…. I guess we all wonder those things… Anyway, here I am at 38 years old (I feel like the oldest on here) writing to no one or everyone about my desire to die via suicide.  It’s not something new.  There are moments …