Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

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Another Useless Post: I am not quaified for any relationship.

June 17th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I need a short break from this site. I’m starting to get so OCD or too obsessed about it that it’s making me rip my hair out. Yes, this web-site relaxes me, so the break won’t be long like two days max. XD I got contracted myself. Plus, the internet is getting slow, so I need to fix it.

Topic: If you have requirements to attract a certain person, you need to look in the mirror, if you want to know why if aren’t attracting them. BTW, dating preferences do not make you a bigot. I’m not desperate for anyone, and do feel like I’m throwing …

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How do you people go through with this?

June 16th, 2017by Black Holez

I’ve come to the realization that everything that has transpired in my life for the last 4 years has led me to being down, depressed and unable to socialize and do ordinary day-to-day tasks. I just sulk around the house unable to do anything, thinking about things like how worthless I am, how abandoned and rejected I truly feel. If I do go out and try something new, I’m unable to function and do ordinary tasks, making people view me as some kind of failure or a retard because I make a mistake. It doesn’t help that they view me as some kind of mentally …

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Legalities

June 14th, 2017by nokshus

As if it wasn’t already a ***** enough. Fuck sakes you deal with the trivialities daily. The unending grind and minutiae. The milieu of reckless absolvency. Fuck, you go from the boredom to the banality. It’s all stupid shit.

Introduce the legal system or any of the bullshit bureaucracy into the fuckshow that is life and it becomes a whole new ball game. Fuck the legalities and hoops it makes you jump through. For real. Fuck incarceration.

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Relationships

June 13th, 2017by SeeSmith

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Second

June 12th, 2017by Demonqueen

He’s destroyed me.

I won’t survive in prison.

He’s got what he wanted all along.
I won’t be able to have kids.

He’s destroyed every inch of me.
I have nothing left.

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the plan was today

June 10th, 2017by halfleft

We only shared a few words about ending the constant pain.

Wanting so badly to leave,  I could not  say “please stay”

I don’t know how to ask “do you still exist?” I can’t not care.

I am so tired of being reborn each moment into this tragedy.

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First

June 10th, 2017by Demonqueen

I just really want to die.

The last seven years have been a blur.

But 7 years… 18-25. Years I haven’t lived.
Heck, I wasn’t even living before then.

Don’t get into a relationship, you’ll lose everything.
Time, friends, sanity, freedom are just a few.

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The selfish regret

June 8th, 2017by halfleft

When she chose hospice instead of treatment I couldn’t argue. There was no fight left in her. Free morphine and weed, or horrible surgery, pain and more chemo? Sometimes I envy her. Sometimes I wish  I had pressured her to stay for me. Then I hate myself.

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To the ones who know loremaster

June 7th, 2017by My life is over

He is in the CCU and he tried to slit his wrist open and failed. He almost died he is in the hospital. Sorry for the death the hospital just called and said he is in critical condition.

 

loremaster82@gmail.com if any questions

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What could be left?

June 7th, 2017by halfleft

3 months ago my best friend and life partner died of cancer in my arms at just 41. We were each others lives. Tied together for 22 years. Nothing anyone says seems to touch the constant pain and hopelessness. She was and had been the only thing that made my life feel ok. Now I am a ghost in a dead man’s life. I do not want to be here but I am scared to end it myself. So hello?

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Goodbye

June 6th, 2017by My life is over

I’m gonna do it from me to humanity hold on and don’t give up stay strong.

 

 

It will be rope this time

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the sunrise

June 4th, 2017by vee

i’m about to post things that have been going through my head for more than 10 years, but i’ve never shared with anyone. now, why am i saying it here? because no one can know. and here, everyone knows yet they don’t know; and i just need to get this things out, because i feel like it’ll maybe help somehow. last night i couldn’t sleep, and so i was sitting on the couch, watching the sunrise, when thoughts that haunt me decided to keep me company. this time, however, i wrote everything down. keep in mind i didn’t check what i wrote and don’t plan …

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What Hurts The Most.

May 29th, 2017by kellinandrew

Many things can happen in life,

This I know.

But what do you do,

When the pain is to much to bare.

You hurt yourself,

And call It fair,

You tell yourself that it is your you fault,

That you should have cared.

Now it’s to late.

I didn’t think it would happen to me. At all. Why would it happen? That is what I don’t understand, he tries to help, and I know he cares. It hurt him too, but why? Why does it hurt? Why am I so upset? The baby, can I …

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This is not a suicide note

May 28th, 2017by infectioushumanwaste

It is a note from a girl who doesn’t wanna be death or alive anymore. I don’t wanna share my name, my country or another things about me. I just wanna tell you that how I became into this person. First, I don’t know whose gonna read this it is too long. If you read please add comment.

As everyone else, my story starts with my family. I was born in a family full of love but also has got a problems. I love them all and the only reason that I’m still alive is my family. But also there are other side of the story. …

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Loss left me empty

May 25th, 2017by JasonTodd97

My mother passed away. And now Im just empty. Lost. Gone without her. I spend most of my days wishing I could just join her. Everything feels hollow and empty without her here. Before she left I was focusing on my medical and mental health. And now I work and go to school and mentally kill myself just trying to keep my head above water and Im never sure how long its gonna last. Im drowning withoht my north star. My hero. My guiding presence. She was the one who raised me and now that shes gone so is everyone else. Ive got no family …

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I Want To Die

May 25th, 2017by Todamnbad

My life has always been a living hell. Grew up in a dysfunctional family. Suffered a lot of verbal abuse and some physical. It was so bad my friends were scared to come over. That started when I was 8 years old and all that time beforehand, I had a normal childhood. It was when my mom got the new boyfriend shit changed which was when I was 8 and so forth. I was a smart kid and I considered myself smart. A and B student through high school. Had high self esteem. Didn’t have too many friends which didn’t bothered me. Lack of friends …

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Why am i alive

May 25th, 2017by ImSayingGoodBye

Seriously… why the f am I here? I just don’t get myself.. everything planned is ready. The tools are placed. But I’m making excuses. Why? I keep telling myself “eventually it’s over, but stay a few months longer for the hell of it” I bought a computer for games. Considering I spend most of my time now.. hiding from sound. I had surgery to fix my ears.. didint work.. we’re going for another attempt/ approach in a month.. I don’t know why I’m trying to fix myself when I’m just going to suicide soon. I guess I’m just scared and I still wanna live in …

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First Time

May 24th, 2017by JasonTodd97

So here I am. A 19 year old failed writer. Basically an orphan.  Mom died 5 months ago now in January. I wont bore anyone with my sad story because well, we all have them.

We are all broken. But my edges are so jagged they just keep cutting deeper. So here I am. At the precipice. Invited by books about websites like this. Too curious and too broken for my own good. Maybe finding other like minding souls or falling into my own madness.

Here I am.

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I need to be a human.

May 23rd, 2017by Maddie.Shit

hey everybody,can you help me this time?this time my problem is not about my parents hating me or my overweight or friends and people around me ,this time my problem is that i lost my feelings ,dad was about to die, mother freaked everything out and finally they separated,if it was the old me ,i would have died to hear such news.if it was the new me ,i would have been very happy .but guess what?i did not give a fuck about this sometimes I wonder if someone has stolen my heart?where had all my feelings gone?right now i rarely cry ,but when i do,i …

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I want to disappear

May 22nd, 2017by _Angel_x

I don’t know what to do.

I don’t feel anything anymore and I can’t stop crying.

I’ve started cutting again.

I’ve started drinking again.

And attempting to throw up my food.

It’s all come back so fast it feels like the world is crashing down on me and I can’t take it.

I need everything to just stop for a few days. College, the future, Time , Life.

I just need to disappear and I fear if I don’t find a way then I’ll just kill myself.

I’m so fucking tired I just cant do this anymore.

I give up.

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