Stories of Hope

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I didn’t jump. I lived to see my 16th birthday! :-)

September 19th, 2017by Dawnstar

Broken Arch

I’m not suicidal at this time, and this story, although true, has taken place in the past. Perhaps writing this is part of my own integration process, and maybe it can help somebody else, I don’t know? Anyway, hello everyone, and to quote Hannah from 13 Reasons Why, “It’s me, live and in stereo”! 😉

Unlike the Netflix series, I wish I could list specific reasons why I became suicidal. I wasn’t raped by a family member or anything like that, and I really have a life which (although certainly far from perfect) I’m sure many would be envious …

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11 hours ago • Coping Skills, General, I Will Survive, Stories of Hope, Suicidal Survivors

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Day 3# ->Taking control

September 18th, 2017by Urm8451n

Hey, good day for everyone.
I won’t update about recent progress in the last goals [don’t have time atm]. But will bring up another problem I’m struggling with.
Taking control.

Lately I lost all control of my life.  Lived in poor conditions, stopped working out, started spending time like a freaking zombie infront of my computer, hoping to get new notifications from anything! (even from advertisings) – you could call it a new level of loneliness, but for me it is just plain sad.

My idea of helping me to get into “work” will be using the following skills:
1. Taking responsibility; each individual and its own way of doing …

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2 days ago • Coping Skills, I Will Survive, Stories of Hope

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This post is for all of you…. More than welcome to share mind ideas

September 16th, 2017by Urm8451n

I recently had gotten 2 mind changing comments on some of my posts. It flooded me with thoughts, and eventually it made me decide the following.

I will start posting updates about changing one’s life from the worst to the best (I’m gonna be the guinea pig). Perhaps it is going to be taking some years, or maybe just months, but it will be “recorded” here, and solely for you.

Few FAQ before I start:
How is it related? – It is totally related as coping skills and will give real life examples.
Why would you do it? – Because I want to change, and I’m having hard times …

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3 days ago • Coping Skills, General, I Will Survive, Stories of Hope

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my new kitten

September 16th, 2017by iamdarling

today, i brought home my new kitten.

he is so small, and so sweet – and currently unnamed. i’ll update this post and tell you his name when i have chosen it.

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3 days ago • Coping Skills, Family & Friends Effects, Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, Stories of Hope

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Hope – The Pain Does Go Away

September 15th, 2017by jcau

Hi all,

This is one of my first posts here.

A few years ago, I was in a pretty dark place. I was convinced that my life was a burden and that I’d never be able to shake the bad thoughts that came persistently. Every day was a struggle. Nothing was improving and I was getting suicidal thoughts.

Some of you may be in the same or a similar situation. Please know that things get better. I’m still here. I’m still fighting. It is a fight. It might be the hardest thing you do, but you’re worth it. You’re worth the fight and life is worth fighting for.

You have no …

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4 days ago • Coping Skills, Family & Friends Effects, General, I Will Survive, Stories of Hope

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And then it happened…

September 1st, 2017by Urm8451n

It was an irritating morning, upset stomach and mind full of dreams. it was somewhere back to 2014, 12th grader, happily passed harsh teenage years, I was never anything special – in my own special way. Didn’t achieve too much, didn’t succeed at everything – “blank normal”.

“BACK in those days” :
I had my own problems: my dad wasn’t supportive or even “there”, even tho all allong he was 20 km away from me. Didn’t look good, was sick with horrible sickness, couldn’t find love, didn’t had time to go out with friends. Had avg grades even if I tried to get better. argh…. Regular teenage …

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3 weeks ago • Chronic Pain, Coping Skills, General, I Will Survive, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss

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Pathetic Person w/ Pathetic Reasoning

August 28th, 2017by AllBarkNoBite

At the very least, I hope this scatter-brained post will give you a laugh. Just kidding, I don’t hope for anything, save for what I mention in the following. Well, maybe some sections of this post will resonate with anyone who might read it some day.

Once I become financially stable and relatively successful, I might want to kill myself in complete sobriety so that I can prove this point to my dad: Not all suicides are a result of drug-ingestion or addiction. I’ve always wanted to die since I was a child. I even told my mom that “I want to go to Heaven already,” …

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3 weeks ago • Coping Skills, Family & Friends Effects, Fun & Interesting, General, My Suicide Note, Rants, Stories of Hope

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They are back.

August 23rd, 2017by Eccedentesiastsoul

Lately I’ve ben having these migraines that take everything that’s in me to stand. It’s not new, I used to have them daily until they somehow, the same pain transferred to my stomach. I got it checked out by a doctor long back and he gave me pills and said I was fine to go. Now the pain is back and it’s stronger than ever. I’m not being over dramatic or anything but it hurts to the point where I actually think there’s something wrong with me. Before I got back to my country I got a strong one and I literally cried myself to …

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4 weeks ago • Chronic Pain, Coping Skills, Family & Friends Effects, Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, Poetry & Art, Rants, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss, Suicidal Survivors

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The reason for me to live, is so others may not die

August 23rd, 2017by KoertsMeijer1997

I honestly am not sure where to start this all off. This is a very long story, just to let you know. For starters, I am a 20yo male. I’ve dealt with severe clinical depression, anxiety, and anger issues since I was 11yo.

I am a current EMT and am a Paramedic student in Maryland. I joined the fire department when I was 17, and have been an EMT since I was 18.

One of my first calls as a 17yo EMT student, it had been a pretty tough day. We had already run a cardiac arrest, and I was in general having one of my down …

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4 weeks ago • Family & Friends Effects, General, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss

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Back home.

August 21st, 2017by Eccedentesiastsoul

Things are back to getting worse. I don’t know if I can proceed anymore, go threw all the upcoming months, get a year older, it’s just too much. I still have to finish high school and I don’t know how to feel about that. I want to escape. Get as far away as I can from this country but in order to do so I’ll have to get a scholarship and because of my background I don’t think I’ll be able to get one. Even if I do get one, I won’t be accepted for who I am, or at least I don’t think I …

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4 weeks ago • Chronic Pain, Coping Skills, Family & Friends Effects, General, Poetry & Art, Rants, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss, Suicidal Survivors

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Tired.

August 19th, 2017by Eccedentesiastsoul

I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s like there is more than one soul in me. I have to make a choice, either be too kind and suffer the consequences or be heartless and later come crashing down. I could also just stay the way I am right now but the thing is I don’t feel fine. I could never stay like this. Ignoring the way I feel is killing me. I’m just tired and sick of this life. I feel so selfish, I have everything I need to be able to survive yet I’m still depressed. I just can’t go back. Summer is …

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1 month ago • Chronic Pain, Family & Friends Effects, General, I Will Survive, Poetry & Art, Rants, Stories of Hope

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I am a disappointment

August 18th, 2017by haterlivet

One thing i´ve always thought of is that it´s so scary when someone mentally ill and suicidal (me) falls in love. We start feeling whole again. Like we´ve got a purpose, a reason to be here and a reason to start and try.

But one thing that really scares me and hurts me inside to think of  is that; what happens when the person who´s saved me leaves? What happens when the person takes away all the hope and love and beauty and rip out all the stitches they used to put in their partner together again and the broken soul is left worse than they …

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1 month ago • Chronic Pain, Coping Skills, Family & Friends Effects, Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, My Suicide Note, Poetry & Art, Rants, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss, Suicidal Survivors

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Suicide without hurting others

August 18th, 2017by haterlivet

I want to end my life, But i want to end it in a way that doesnt hurt the people around me. I’ve come to learn that this life really aint for me, i tried for so many years to stay strong and fight the pain Im feeling, But its absolutely impossible and Nobody really understands the mental illness Im going through. I dont really like to talk about my depression to a lot of people, Cause they think that Im calling for attention or that its no big of a deal. But i really wish They knew What Im going through

My biggest problem is …

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1 month ago • Chronic Pain, Coping Skills, Family & Friends Effects, Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, My Suicide Note, Poetry & Art, Rants, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss, Suicidal Survivors

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“This fight of my life is so hard, so hard, so hard”

August 17th, 2017by PrismaticGreyZone

Lyrics:

A spark soaring
Down through the pouring
Rain and restoring
Life to the lighthouse
A slow motion
Wave on the ocean
Stirs my emotion
Up like a raincloud

When did the sky turn black
And when will the light come back

A cab driver
Turned to skydiver
Then to survivor
Dying to break down
A blood brother
Surrogate mother
Hugging each other
Crying their eyes out

When did the sky turn black
And when will the light come back

I’m ecstatic
Like a drug addict
Locked in the attic
Strung out and spellbound

I fought all through the night
Oh oh, but I made it alive
The sun’s starting to rise
Oh oh, these are beautiful times
This fight of my life is so hard, so hard, so hard
But I’m gonna survive
Oh oh, …

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1 month ago • Fun & Interesting, General, Stories of Hope

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Unpleasant Feelings

August 16th, 2017by PrismaticGreyZone

The advice worked for me.

I saw this video a while ago and shortly after that, I had a huge fight with my mom and in the first half of it, I remembered this video and decided to try the advice to stay present for the unpleasant rush of feelings but at the same time I emotionally detached myself from the fight to observed it in 3rd person; I was basically being the referee of my own fight. I observed my own feelings as well as hers and tried to understand her perspectives. During the fight, I kept asking myself, why, why do I feel this way? …

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1 month ago • Coping Skills, Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, Rants, Stories of Hope

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First post, with a question

August 14th, 2017by uptheguff

I’ve been a lurker here for quite sometime, I have read so many post, replies and whatnot, that my head is filled with swimming thoughts.

I understand all too well, what has brought you all here…what has brought me here.

Seems, that most of wish to be free from existence, from the pain….we all have reasons why we want to go, some more than others.  We all have a reason that life is not as it seems but a form or “HELL”.

With all that in mind, I have a question.   All I want is death, all I want is peace, to no longer exist.

About 6 months …

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1 month ago • Coping Skills, General, Rants, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss

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Black days

August 13th, 2017by ImSayingGoodBye

Whatsoever I’ve feared has come to life
Whatsoever I’ve fought off became my life
Just when everyday seemed to greet me with a smile
Sunspots have faded and now I’m doing time
Now I’m doing time
‘Cause I fell on black days

 

With the recent suicide of two great singers. For whatever reason, I’ve looked back into Chris Cornell’s lyrics and started listening to his work deeper than I’ve ever have before. His words touch my inner soul. I’ve never really liked soundgarden or audioslave till now. I always loved the grunge era. And I considered Cornell’s bands on the bottom of the list that time. I have no idea why, …

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1 month ago • Chronic Pain, Family & Friends Effects, General, I Will Survive, My Suicide Note, Poetry & Art, Rants, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss, Suicidal Survivors

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When nothing makes sense…

August 12th, 2017by PrismaticGreyZone

Thoughts become things. (<— LINK)

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1 month ago • Coping Skills, Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, Rants, Stories of Hope

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Is It Really All It’s Going To Take?

August 9th, 2017by Eccedentesiastsoul

I do not think I am capable of being loved. I fear that I am never going to be able to find someone who will love me the way I fail to love myself. It has always been my only hope. What if it’s the only way all of this will ever get better? To find the right person who will always be there for me. The thing is I’ve been lied to so many times that I don’t think I can trust anyone anymore. People talk to me when they need something then they just disappear. If I refuse to do what they ask …

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1 month ago • Chronic Pain, Family & Friends Effects, General, I Will Survive, Poetry & Art, Rants, Stories of Hope

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Two types of people who suffer

August 8th, 2017by eeyore

im not gonna say that everyone struggles or suffering but for those who do, there’s two types

the one who suffers tremendously but keeps going to share their story and to help others

or the one who also suffers tremendously and gives up bc they simply can not handle the endless pain and emptiness (or any other feeling they are struggling to overcome)

 

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1 month ago • General, I Will Survive, My Suicide Note, Stories of Hope, Suicidal Survivors

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