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Stories of Hope

this one album..

by Furby 9/1/2022

written by Furby

lonely, i’ve been. no matter how much i say that, it still doesn’t change. i’m stuck in this pit.

my own little world has been harder and harder to focus on, a place where i’m not that lonely.. but this one album(s) makes me carry on. it’s called The Metal Opera by Tobias Sammet’s Avantasia.

i found it simply on a whim, i started with one song called The Seven Angels.. and ever since i’ve been hooked.

I bought the gold edition CD, and reading though the whole lore makes me feel more connected to the characters, the world. i love everything about this album and i can’t […]

9/1/2022 0 comment

more nervousness

by Furby 8/24/2022

written by Furby

nothing bad has happened, not yet.

as this day reaches its end, i get this very very sickly feeling in my stomach. butterflies! so many.. i can feel myself almost puking out of anxiety.

but not because anything bad is gonna happen tomorrow (i hope). i’m going to a club in my school, and hopefully meet some new friends. i know if i’m that anxious, i probably shouldn’t go, but i still want friends. i won’t let some butterflies stop me.

8/24/2022 3 comments

Taking the pain away

by Thanatos.Nykthos 8/20/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

I am afraid of harm.
I have grown wise about harm.
But I just found that when I perform it, the crippling pain leaves in a way and for a time while my wound remains.
I am scared of myself now.

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8/20/2022 17 comments

Self Reflection or Lurking About, Lost in Thought

by mindlessgamer619 8/17/2022

written by mindlessgamer619

So I’m back home for the first time in 5 years. It’s so odd to think about where I was since I’d been gone. I’m actually having a good time back. I was in probably my absolute worst state of mind when I was here last time, and now, that seems so far away. I’m a different person now, and yet, some things never change…

I just needed to reflect. I’ve been lurking around this site for a long while at this point. I only hope that people here find closure, their resolution so to speak, however that may be. There are many good […]

8/17/2022 4 comments

Never Loved

by Thanatos.Nykthos 8/4/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

Looking to golden lights, disoriented by gossamer affection

You never loved me- lie no more. Leave me or love me, I shan’t stand for your façade any longer. I see truth, I knew from the genesis of your sin, it held no virtues.
You called my light delusion, and you called my patience an unchecked ego. When I spoke clearly at last, your shell crumbled, you held no quarter to the lies before which you had brought forth against me. You say it “I love you not, I care nothing for you however you shall live.” And so it was laid plain.

8/4/2022 1 comment

One day you will see it

by butto_love14 7/30/2022

written by butto_love14

I am incredibly sorry if somebody made you feel as though it was difficult to love you . I am so incredibly sorry if you have ever felt this way. But i promise you…… the universe will send you someone so unexpectedly. Someone who will every day and forever remind you of how great you are. Someone who will reinforce your belief in love as well as in yourself. Someone who will see your flaws but will forever remind you that your imperfections ,are what make you so perfect. Just tightly hold onto this belief . In the meantime fall in love with yourself – […]

7/30/2022 5 comments

Mr.Gentlemen

by butto_love14 7/29/2022

written by butto_love14

He chooses present over perfect

Trusts over journey of change

Had a strong belief that things go with flow

He belives in simplicity and does best at his abilities

Loves deeply and think deeply about life

His purity makes him who he is!!!

For now he is an unseen world

Soon he is going to be rockstar with all love and success!!!

He knows to wait and believes that there is aways time for everything

7/29/2022 0 comment

MY WAY

by butto_love14 7/29/2022

written by butto_love14

I am who I am

I’ve been where I’ve been

I’ve done what I’ve done

And that’s what makes me

I’ve made my mistakes

I’ve got my regrets

But now I’m moving on

I’ve broken many hearts

I’ve had some break mine

It hurts like hell

But it just takes time to heal

I know I’ve done right

I know I’ve done wrong

Sometimes I’ve done nothing

And that’s just part of life

It’s my life and

It’s my time and

It’s my place and

I’m doing it my own way

7/29/2022 1 comment

Never found – ai art

by Thanatos.Nykthos 7/25/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

The playlists abounded, the only things left besides the journals upon journals, notepads chock-full

7/25/2022 0 comment

“Greetings.”

by Thanatos.Nykthos 7/24/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

https://creator.nightcafe.studio/creation/lgZAU77M5JbFZvkkBCuY

It is human to, at this point, put forth a greeting to the community i have just joined here. Hello. I want to die. I shall start with a recent tale of achievement in my life.
-I am very happy that recently, I secured my avenue of prospective death in a manner of which I shall not discuss, but which brings me great solace to find was appropriately covert and fruitful. I feel peace knowing I can hold the hand of death this way, and have been more productive for having this comfort.

This is all I shall share for now.
Wishing […]

7/24/2022 1 comment

I ‘made it’. Maybe you will too?

by kinziek 6/30/2022

written by kinziek

On a whim I decided to see if suicideproject was still around, and to see if I could log in. My posts were from 2015.

Wow, was I in a bad place. I remember the event in particular that prompted me to start cutting again, and to spiral into one of the lowest points of my life. Thank you to the commenters on those posts. Wherever you are now, I hope you found what you are looking for.

I wanted to write some kind of denouement here, because I am certainly glad I didn’t do it back then. I know reading some inspo stuff isn’t going to […]

6/30/2022 1 comment

4 years later.

by Eccedentesiastsoul 6/14/2022

written by Eccedentesiastsoul

The last time I posted on here was back in 2018.. Since then so much has changed. I was in a shitty relationship for 2 years that went to shit, I graduated high school which I thought I never would and I made it past 18 years. I went through hell during the last two years of high school would be an understatement but I am past that now and do not want to relive it. I stopped counting how long I am clean of cutting for and would not be able to give you an estimate. I do rely on other coping mechanisms that […]

6/14/2022 2 comments

the turn toward better

by heartlessviking 5/19/2022

written by heartlessviking

look, I’m a cynical hateful shell of a person who happens to be having a very difficult to ignore good week.

so if you are assuming that down the line I’ll return to my anti life anti organizations anti capitalist apathy, know that I am too.

I still hate the cheery; “Oh, nice things happen, therefor they will continue” which is usually a terrible lie.

Which is the amount of cautious framing I have to do because if I say things are going better without that, my distrustful wounded brain will rebel, because we’ve trusted people before, and that didn’t work out.

I’m working as an electrician, which I […]

5/19/2022 3 comments

I’m 40 years old this year, and I still don’t know what to do, and whether I should continue to live, or just die?

by niki 4/25/2022

written by niki

Long story short, my life is a complete failure. It’s full of wrong decisions, (in)actions, regrets, mistakes after mistakes, that I honestly think maybe it’s already too late to “fix everything” (eg: I’m losing all the good chances/opportunities, as I’m getting old now). It’s really ironic & tragic, because a lot of people always say that I’m very talented especially in music (I used to be quite an active musician & composer/songwriter, but sadly I’m still not famous & successful), smart, a deep thinker, a highly sensitive person, etc etc.

I am also an idealist, meaning that I actually have a BIG vision & idea for […]

4/25/2022 4 comments

JANE

by Itscolourlife 4/6/2022

written by Itscolourlife

4/6/2022 2 comments

The story of the Barren Fig Tree

by Total3gal 3/21/2022

written by Total3gal

Then he told this parable:

“A man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard; and he came looking for fruit on it and found none. So he said to the gardener,
‘See here! For three years I have come looking for fruit on this fig tree, and still I find none.

Cut it down! Why should it be wasting the soil?’

He replied, ‘Sir, let it alone for one more year, until I dig around it and put manure on it. If it bears fruit next year, well and good; but if not, you can cut it […]

3/21/2022 5 comments

Courage 2 (quit/proceed)

by mortalcode 2/15/2022

written by mortalcode 2-3 min read

Ever let the anxiety sink ,the rage boil up
Ferment the pain, and bottle it up
Reflecting on the past like it ain’t slow enough
Mom’s always sad that I ain’t growing up
Pills help me cope but I’m still fucking up
Fuck going outside, the moon aint show enough
I laugh about death like I ain’t dark enough?
Friends ran away? I guess they stalked enough?
Fam patient with my death like who’s taking what?
keep a sharp angle, latitudes of my cuts
Force you to be strong like you ain’t had enough
have the nerve to ask what’s wrong…
God ain’t fucking […]

2/15/2022 1 comment

Parents.

by Zargon-loves 1/12/2022

written by Zargon-loves

Today i had a fun day and to eat we had a vegetable soup and i said i didnt like it and my mom and step dad are coming at me like “its because your used to fat foods and chocolate all the time” “does your dad pay you to eat” just because i didnt want anymore today im going to start starving myself because if thats my problem im going to fix it. Im tired of this constant yelling i get it every day every other week. I want to leave already. This has been going on for 4 years since i was 8. […]

1/12/2022 1 comment

read this if you’re struggling.

by zy 12/6/2021

written by zy

I was procrastinating on my homework when I came across this website. I’m writing this all off the top of my head so just stand by. So I read so many peoples stories on here and noticed one thing, everyone on here is going through the SAME THING. I myself often have bad mental health and breakdowns, but you know what? nobody is perfect. AND DON’T SKIP, I know everyone uses this as a pity sentence but just spend a minute of your life reading this because you need to open your eyes. Think to yourself, do you think there is a single […]

12/6/2021 8 comments

No One to Blame

by mmmm 12/3/2021

written by mmmm

Maybe, it is me who is my own culprit, it is my fault that I did not act the way I was supposed to in order to survive in this cruel world. Maybe, everything that is bothering me is just an illusion, it is a noise coming from my mind that is making me feel worthless, reminding me constantly of all my flaws and insecurities. Maybe, I wronged myself by having expectations on others, hoping they would understand me, hoping that they will turn out the way I want , hoping they will bring happiness and well-being in my life. Maybe, I should have learned […]

12/3/2021 2 comments

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