Stories of Hope

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My Parents are Narcissists

July 22nd, 2017by BlueDiamond

I’m afraid of writing this post because they might be watching this web-site. I talk and they pretend not to listen, but they’re watching me closely.

I discovered this weeks upon accidently stumbling upon Narcissist parents. They resemble this parenting style the most. When I learned about narcissism. It all everything clicked. Why I’m  so unhappy. Why my self-esteem is so low to almost non-existing. Why my parents confused me, and yet I never wanted to blame them for fear that I’ll upset them like feel their wrath if you challenge let alone question it their ego.

Here, I thought that my mom was overprotected and my …

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4 days ago • Chronic Pain, Coping Skills, Family & Friends Effects, General, I Will Survive, Stories of Hope

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One More Step.

July 21st, 2017by kellinandrew

I tell myself, one more step, every day. When I wake up, I think, just one more day. I try to keep my mind on one day, one moment, at a time. Because when I begin to let my mind drift, I start to slowly drift away. Sliding into an uncontrollable downward spiral. I cannot keep living my life through the small window I have allowed myself. I feel as if I am completely alone. My boyfriend, is gone. Our relationship fell apart after I lost our baby due to a miscarriage. My rape case against my father has been dismissed. So, he is on …

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6 days ago • Chronic Pain, Family & Friends Effects, General, I Will Survive, Rants, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss

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I’m here for you

July 18th, 2017by firefly11291998

Hey guys, if you see this and want/need to talk. I’m always open to talk. I really want to make someone(anyone) feel like they are worth it….

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1 week ago • Coping Skills, Family & Friends Effects, General, I Will Survive, Rants, Stories of Hope

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Lost Hope

July 2nd, 2017by bunniekiss17

I’ve lost hope in my life ever turning around again. My mother has been abusive to me for years now and no one ever listens. I’ve been trying to get out of the house for years now. I’ve talked to social workers many times. It never works. I’m not in a good place. I only have about a year and a half left at home but it’s still hard. I don’t know if I can handle living on much longer. The only one who actually messages me to make sure I’m okay is my brother in law who lives two states away. No one else …

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4 weeks ago • Family & Friends Effects, My Suicide Note, Stories of Hope

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An Exercise Journey

June 29th, 2017by BlueDiamond

I’ve really let myself go. I was at my ideal weight when I was a teen I was 160, and I am big bone, so 145 to 160 is ideal. I loved eating healthy and exercising, and I did all forms such as pilates, yoga, weight lifting, and cardio. I also had the teen metabolism, so I could a whole medium pizza from Domino’s once in a while and still run all over the place. I was lacto oavo vegetarian too, so again I ate these weird but healthy foods such soy milk, or sea weed. Not only I was I thin, but apparently I …

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4 weeks ago • Coping Skills, General, Stories of Hope

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little by little

June 29th, 2017by submarines

Two days ago—I wake up, I go to the bathroom, I get out, and I get an epiphany. It was so weird and sudden, like one of those strange idea that pop so abruptly in your mind you have to take a second to process them. I don’t know why I have it or why it comes; it just does. And it’s very, very weird, because it suddenly feels like I’ve had a damper on my chest and now it’s off. I can breathe again. Or like I can see myself doing things that I wouldn’t have been comfortable doing, or feeling things in a different …

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4 weeks ago • General, Rants, Stories of Hope

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Knowledge is strength

June 26th, 2017by verbalhues

“Experiences are not just what happen to us, they are the raw material we use in shaping our identity, our self. The person we become can think about the events that shaped us, reevaluate them, and choose how to respond to them. We are not prisoners of our past; we can retain control over how we decide to use aspects of our past in shaping who we want to be and to become.”

– Krystine Batcho

Understanding your perspectives changes your perspectives.

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1 month ago • Coping Skills, General, I Will Survive, Rants, Stories of Hope

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why God tortured me like that?

June 24th, 2017by an_old_child

after years of suffering, it’s getting good at last.

i think i’m feeling happy and it seems to last for a while. the question here is, why did God tortured me like that?

i know that the day would come that everything will turn upside down again and i will feel down and suicidal -since no happiness is everlasting and no sadness, too- and i think that i’m not ready for that day.

i definitely feel stronger than before all these things happened to me – i don’t really want to say what i’m referring to by “these” – but i don’t like the idea of being put …

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1 month ago • Chronic Pain, Coping Skills, Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, My Suicide Note, Poetry & Art, Rants, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss, Suicidal Survivors

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Here to listen to you

Here to listen to you

June 23rd, 2017by LostInDebt

Hi guys,

I thought I should be a leaning shoulder to several people out there willing to put an abrupt end to their lives.

Firstly, it is safe to say I have been down that road as well and I know exactly what it feels like to be empty and isolated. I held on to one string (scratch that, two strings actually) : my pregnant girlfriend and God… If my girlfriend wasn’t pregnant, I probably wouldn’t be writing this today because I wouldn’t have anything/anyone to look back to… She loves me too much to hurt her. Then, God! I remembered everything they said about suicide, how …

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1 month ago • Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, My Suicide Note, Stories of Hope, Suicidal Survivors

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Note to self:

June 18th, 2017by verbalhues

You must first fail to succeed, everything in life.

Like your first step as a baby, you try but fall so many times over, but eventually you learn to walk, and then run. That was your first challenge in life. If you decided to quit then, you wouldn’t have learned to walk at all. Sometimes we forget the very first lesson we learn in life: Baby steps.

With every stage in life, it presents different levels of challenges; fighting to survive your unfortunate circumstances or fighting to defend and accept yourself or fighting your dissatisfaction. These challenges help shape the person you had become and will become, …

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1 month ago • Coping Skills, General, I Will Survive, Rants, Stories of Hope

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The Punching Bag, or The Outcast

June 16th, 2017by BlueDiamond

According to the site’s FAQs, if there are multiple posts in a row, then they will be all? deleted. The site recommends one post per day for the maximum. I love being on here, and being able to write my honest thoughts and feelings, and have a thoughtful audience to engage if they feel like it. It helps to relieve my stress and depression, which it starting to get better. Thank-you, guys.

Topic:

I always had a theory about purpose of the outcast, the person the majority doesn’t like, so they mess with him or her. Don’t think theory more like a thought is the right word. …

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1 month ago • Coping Skills, Fun & Interesting, General, Stories of Hope

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Legalities

June 14th, 2017by nokshus

As if it wasn’t already a ***** enough. Fuck sakes you deal with the trivialities daily. The unending grind and minutiae. The milieu of reckless absolvency. Fuck, you go from the boredom to the banality. It’s all stupid shit.

Introduce the legal system or any of the bullshit bureaucracy into the fuckshow that is life and it becomes a whole new ball game. Fuck the legalities and hoops it makes you jump through. For real. Fuck incarceration.

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1 month ago • Chronic Pain, Fun & Interesting, Rants, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss

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Some hope to share

June 11th, 2017by SoVeryTired

Six weeks ago, on the Saturday,  I put up a post that I had given up and was going to end it.

However, my conscience got the better of me, and I stepped back from the brink (quite literally, as I had a noose around my neck and was ready to jump) and reached out once more. Some of you here supported me wonderfully, and for that I am really grateful.

My psychiatrist upped one of my meds, and prescribed me some sleeping meds, and that was part of what helped me, as it gave me the breathing space and strength to tackle some really gnarly psychological …

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2 months ago • Coping Skills, I Will Survive, Stories of Hope

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He made me feel like a fool again. This time our relationship paid the price

June 10th, 2017by GerbzBaby

I’m irritated to say I’m writing about this particular “friend” again.  I’m beyond angry with him. If you don’t know we and him have a history of “love” together. The last time I hung out with him he was kissing me on the cheek, cuddling with me, laying on my leg/ chest and jealously asking about my love life. Which to me seemed as thoughts still like me but boy was I fucking wrong.

 

Today I found out that he  lead me on and fucked me over for my sister. At first he refused to tell me, saying I would be mad at him forever. Damn …

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2 months ago • Family & Friends Effects, Fun & Interesting, General, Rants, Stories of Hope

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Relative contentment

June 8th, 2017by heartlessviking

I don’t want to say goodbye. I want to reach out to others and remember where I came from. If I don’t do that then I feel like I’d be just as bad as those who didn’t help me.

I’ve been depressed for 7-8 years. That’s off and on. I know people who have had it worse. This last episode lasted almost a year. That’s about 7 months falling into a hole, and 6 months currently climbing back out.

The last few weeks have brought many changes. I finally got a good therapist. I have returned to church. I’m starting to do things I enjoy again. The …

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2 months ago • Stories of Hope

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To the ones who know loremaster

June 7th, 2017by My life is over

He is in the CCU and he tried to slit his wrist open and failed. He almost died he is in the hospital. Sorry for the death the hospital just called and said he is in critical condition.

 

loremaster82@gmail.com if any questions

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2 months ago • Chronic Pain, Family & Friends Effects, Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, My Suicide Note, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss, Suicidal Survivors

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Goodbye

June 6th, 2017by My life is over

I’m gonna do it from me to humanity hold on and don’t give up stay strong.

 

 

It will be rope this time

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2 months ago • Chronic Pain, Coping Skills, Family & Friends Effects, Fun & Interesting, General, I Will Survive, My Suicide Note, Poetry & Art, Rants, Stories of Hope, Stories of Loss

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It’s funny how life works

June 6th, 2017by Sach77

Hey ya’ll

I’m not sure if anyone remembers me, because I only posted two times. But here I am again.

To catch up on my life currently, last August (august 1st 2016) I tried to kill myself, on July 29th I posted my goodbyes to the world on this site. Thankyou so much for the kind words that night. And well I took the pills I had (all but like 5 of them, because I ran out of water). And I lied down on the floor to die.

And yes, I did take enough to kill myself, and I would of died if I didn’t call 911. I …

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2 months ago • General, I Will Survive, Stories of Hope, Suicidal Survivors

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I did my first attempt today..

June 5th, 2017by GerbzBaby

Today I attempted to kill myself by overheating in the car. I drove to school, parked in the lot and didn’t get out. I was sitting in there for over an hour and a half. The only reason why I’m here now was because my best friend saved me. I texted him as I was sitting in the car telling him about how much I was sorry and how I appreciated him a lot for all he has done. I was practically telling him goodbye.. He got worried (I think as any other great friend would do in this situation) and asked me were I …

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2 months ago • Family & Friends Effects, General, I Will Survive, Stories of Hope, Suicidal Survivors

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Empty loneliness

May 31st, 2017by depresseddutchman93

Dear SuicideProject,

I have been struggling with rapid cycling bipolar now for almost 4 years.
These 4 years where the longest and worse years of my life.
I lost interest in hobbies lost allot of friends and ended up in a psychiatric communitie home with 24h nursing it sucks.
I have this small room to myself and im spending more and more time alone my old friends are all gone moving on starting families or building a nice career or future.
Now im here all alone stuck alone hopeless with no plan for a future I been suicidal now for a couple of weeks I just want to end it …

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2 months ago • Stories of Hope

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