Stories of Hope

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All of Them

  August 17th, 2018 by sansfranzdeput

All these people, they stare at me;

They aren’t my equal, but I’m no good:

I want to run far away, but cannot feel my legs;

And if there were a finch, I’d keep it if I could.

 

All these people, they make me insecure;

I cannot keep my mind on what I have to do

If everyone and everything hurts, and there’s no cure.

If only I had a single place; but one happy thing.

 

All these people don’t make any sense;

I’d rather talk to rust forming on a fence.

They prefer to lie about every little thing,

But that makes understanding hard to outward bring.

 

I wish that all these people would just give …

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It gets better

  August 12th, 2018 by unicornsandrainbows

I am writing this hoping that it will touch someone going through a hard time. I have struggled with chronic depression for a little over 10 years now. From self-inflicting harm to suicide attempts, I have had my fair share of ups and downs.

I also suffer from fibromyalgia, and those who can relate know how terrible it is. For a long time I would come home from work and/or school crying because I was in so much pain all the time. My grades were being affected, my social life was being affected, and more importantly my mental state was being affected. I finally decided to …

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I feel hopeful

  August 11th, 2018 by NotSoSuicidalNoMoe

I started taking this drug my psychologists prescribed me. I was initially very hesitant to try it since she said my skin could fall off ? (though the chances of it happening were very low –and if I saw any rashes in my skin to immediately go to the ER and it would not get to that point). But I had a horrible episode a few days ago. I spoke with my boyfriend, Eric, about it. I told him how I felt and why I wasn’t so open with him. I told him that I didn’t want to stress him out or to see him …

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I Guess Im Still here…

  August 5th, 2018 by NobodyKnowsorCares

Dear,
Anyone who reads this, and my last one,(post)

Well im a little ashamed of telling it, but maybe I could share my story with someone who may be wanting to do it.. maybe help them in some way.

Anyways, yesterday night I was basically trying to drive up north and hang myself yada yada,(short story)
I already had a pre made noose out of some strong rope, so I was all set on doing it that night.
(I left around 1 am)

Anyway, around half way to the spot I had chosen,
I got a little hungry,
(3:30am )
And I looked in maps and where I was trying to go …

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just a little more

  July 29th, 2018 by 3333330000055599669

i’ve been suicidal since i was 14, maybe 13, but my memory before my first attempt is blurry. i’m almost eighteen now.

i didn’t intend on making it this far, at all. i didn’t intend on living this long – ever getting a job – making it to my senior year of HS.

but, if you’re like me. it’s probably important to remember something my friend said to me.

“you shouldn’t deem yourself a failure whenever you fall down again, you’re still going, you’re still strong. Your illnesses aren’t you. You’re you; and that’s what matters.”

just a little more, okay?

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Maybe

  July 22nd, 2018 by raperapelemonade

Even though we cant talk to each other directly here. I feel safe here. I feel in the silence, a comradery.

I love reading the stuggles the goodbyes because i can relate so much to these entries and i just have nothing but love for you.

Even if you are a judge of me, i can relate and I’m grateful. Whatever comes… I’m just grateful for this silent hive where our honey is our words about our bloody battles of life, death, trauma, pain more than anyone else in the real world could ever handle. We can speak it here in complete truth and honesty without fear.

I’m …

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Milestones

  July 13th, 2018 by lynndo

On July 14th, 2000, I survived being born.

On April 5th, 2003, I survived my first surgery.

In Spring 2009, I survived my entire grade hating me because of a rumour.

On February 8th, 2010, I survived my first suicide attempt.

On September 14, 2014, I survived my first day of high school.

On February 15, 2018, I survived my first break-up.

On May 23, 2018, I survived being knocked unconscious in the middle of a lake.

On July 11, 2018, I survived a severe inhalation of muratic acid.

If I can survive all that, what’s stopping me from going one more day?

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Guess what! I failed again

  July 13th, 2018 by Danthedead

So last week I made a post here saying that I’d commit suicide, but here I am. I tried to hang myself, but just as I was about to pass out I got up. It looks like I’m far too scared of dying to actually go through with it. I’m going to get a job, move out of my grandmother’s house and drink alcohol ’till I have the courage to finally do it. Sorry for the really long post guys. Also, if you’re suicidal like me you should seek help, I hate seeing people suffer like me, cya.

 

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Sharing/Oversharing

  July 13th, 2018 by itsallsmallstuff

I want a healthy relationship. But part of opening up to someone is talking about wanting to die. Then this perverts the relationship with either a)flirting with the idea of a suicide pact or b)becoming its gravitational center. Has anyone else walked this line? Possibly even successfully?

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lyf is all about sacrifices

  July 12th, 2018 by silentdreamer

Lyf starts getting bored when u just live for the sake of others… It is very difficult to sacrifice all ur wishes in-order to make others happy… This is what happening in my lyf… I seriously don’t know why its always me!!! Its been more than five years and now am fed up with this lyfstyle… Without being able share my feelings and problems to anyone am mentally distressed… I hate my lyf…. really really hate it!!!

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Everyone’s too busy writting

  July 8th, 2018 by FiendInside

Is the true way to heal to write, or to read.

Do you heal by sharing your trauma, or by listening to someone  else’s.

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Cya later

  July 7th, 2018 by Danthedead

So, Imma try and commit suicide today. I already have things ready, I’m only waiting for my grandmother to go out and it’s game over for me. Wish me luck, see you on the other side!

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A beautiful game that’s helped me cope

  June 23rd, 2018 by Agnostic Angel

Heya, it’s been awhile since I posted on here.

So, a few weeks ago, I heard about this game that got released at the start of the year called Celeste. While it does have high difficulty, the relaxing music and encouraging words of the game help the player to persevere. But what really got to me was the way it handled dark subject matter such as anxiety and depression. Not just through the story and characters, but through the very MUSIC as well.

I’m not going to be reviewing the game in-depth here. Both because I don’t want to spoil anything for those who haven’t played it. …

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Procitaj me/read me

  June 21st, 2018 by life aint worth livin if you got no love

All right, this is the end of the road, what you have been looking for all along. I know you wanna read this, so lets get started. This is both my last note and last letter. Reason it has come to this is what you have done to me. I’m sorry for ever meeting you in the first place and happy I am leaving a world where “people” like you exist. I have decided to end this once and for all. Why did you do it, that night? Why? What did I do to you to deserve this? After almost a year of my life …

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In Parting.

  June 20th, 2018 by WickedApparition

I came to share a story, and ended up staying a few days longer than expected. I am proud to have encountered each and every person that I’ve spoken with; regardless of what may, or may not, have been said.

My goal in life is simply to leave things better than the way I found them, yet I can not say with any certainty that I achieved that; though, I can, in one last effort, leave you with a few songs that may do what I could not.

 

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Not Even the half of it

  June 13th, 2018 by Lorilove1

This is what dealing with my anxiety looked like all through high school. And being bullied didn’t help my situation at all , I use to hide in my closet for hours with my headphones blasting My favorite music on repeat until each attack went away. I would cry myself to sleep wondering why I am the way I am. I wanted to commit suicide plenty of times ,  by cutting my wrist and watching myself bleed out. Thinking no one will miss me so why not , one period of time that really stuck out was  My freshman year of high school …

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Success 20 months later.

  June 7th, 2018 by Small bean

October 24, 2016 – I was hospitalized for suicide attempt when I was in my junior year of high school. Didn’t attend school too much beforehand, and lazily lived off of my allowance as I visited the man I loved on a daily basis. His affairs was one of the root problems during that time; along with my blind infatuation, making that reason seem like a joke.

Specifications about my drama aside, I was desperate to die, knife and extension cord in hand; but I was scared to scratch even a drop out of my wrist. I sat on the side of my bed, and thought …

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All I want

  June 3rd, 2018 by Lovebug21

  1. Honestly I don’t want to die. I just want this pain that I feel bury me, to go away .I want to truly be happy .That’s all I want .Juat to be happy, and the people around me to be happy. I only want true happiness. Do I have to die to achive that?
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relation ship

  May 31st, 2018 by nanu

wanna die ..because she left me because of her friends….she dont have any feelings for me…feelings cant be expressed by writing ….just feel it…tried to move on bt cant…i just want to hang on bt i do care for my families..bt all this things hurted me soo much ..

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Love

  May 25th, 2018 by alienCY

I think that living is loving. And true love isn’t just a couple or something. True love is sacrifice. If you try to take love from others to fill your gap then you end up emptier and the others are missing the love you took. If you give love to others though, even if you don’t have love, if you give a piece of you away; you will find yourself more full than before. Loving is giving what you are missing. Love is really beyond logic, it doesn’t make sense, just like life. However, at the end, love is the only thing that remains and …

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