Stories of Hope

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Message to myself..

February 19th, 2018by nonexistingsoul

Hey you. You can still live that way. Living with a heavy heart, a chaotic mind, that’s fine. You can use it as your strength. Being like that pushes yourself to be better. You’re an artist. You can let out your demons in your drawings. You can draw your own world. You can express anything through your pen. If it hurts, draw! Drawing is a big part of your life, you know that without this, you’re useless! Being able to draw is a gift for you! It serves as your protector in life! Even if sometimes you can’t draw, remember that you draw to live. …

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We all have those grey days…

February 19th, 2018by Urm8451n

Yesterday I broke down.

Yesterday I posted here my most utter feelings and ideas, I didn’t censor anything. That man yesterday, was me, it still is me, but for now it is all under control.

I want you all to know that I’m doing well, and this is a fact for all of us , that we all have those grey days, but at the end of each session, we have bright ones too.

I’m not at my best, nor at my worst. I’m just living life as much as I can, and as much as socially accepted.

I sometimes fantasize about suicide, it is how I can keep …

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An update

February 16th, 2018by Elysianvinyl

Hello! If you remember any of my last posts (I don’t blame you if you dont), I’m currently in a mental rehabilitation center as necessary due to my recent suicide attempt. They allowed me technology today.

They’ve been shoving psyciatric pills down my throat and it’s so annoying, but I guess whatever helps. I hope to be out by the end of March.

See you the next time Im allowed my phone. Stay strong.

~Alex.

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Dying to Live

February 14th, 2018by Die2Live

So I want to try something.  A ‘Proof of God‘ project if you will…

I’d like to be clinically dead long enough to see the “other side” and if possible ask God a few questions and then be resuscitated.  (If there is such a deity).

This would actually be pretty awesome to do “Live” on Facebook or YouTube.   It seems I would need a partner to resuscitate me after I have been in fact, clinically flat lined with a heart monitor hooked up to verify time of death.

I have some ideas as to how I would do this, but suggestions are very welcome.

 

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If you were happy and successful what would your life look like

February 8th, 2018by Letmyheartsing

Tell me your story, tell me what you would want to wish for, tell me what would it be like if you were happy and successful at the age you are now or just tell me if you are happy with your life and why.

At the age of 16 and a half I would be in a public high school with Straight A’s, friends, and a girlfriend.

I would have a job and be saving up for college or future Investments,

I would be very intelligent, reading books all the time and making goals for myself to make myself better,

I will be more patient with people that …

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I said goodbye and I meant it.

February 7th, 2018by Urm8451n

Many of you are looking for reasons to keep on living.

I wanted to say that one morning, maybe weeks from now, month, or even years, you will wake up without doubting that you have a reason to.

I wanted to thank you all for all the job you are doing and all the stories that are being shared.

I always felt so alone because I never knew anyone else who is coping with struggles like mine.

I would never have survives without you. In my last post I wrote I’m quitting this site, and well, I’m kind of. But even then, I’m coming over sometimes to …

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Febuary 4th, 2018 wasnt my last day on earth after all.

February 6th, 2018by Elysianvinyl

two days ago, i attemped to take my life. If you remember, i made a post on it a few hours prior. so, heres how that day went and where i am now.

That day i had waken up around 9pm. By 10 i had my mind made up. I ate breakfast, watched TV for a little while. After a couple hours, i began to secure the rope (i had previously bought it) to my ceiling fan, then i tied a hangmans knot that would so just fine.

I chose a chair and placed it underneath, standing on it with the rope around my neck. My adrenaline …

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Time to pick myself up [ My good bye note]

February 5th, 2018by Urm8451n

With days going on, I learn more and more about myself.

I had it hard in my life. I still am alone. I hid anything I can from people who know me in person.

But sometimes, I feel like I had enough.

I decided, hope for long, to stop crying and ranting about my life. I want to move on, and IF my focus will stay on – “what is bad in my life”, or what bothers me, or all those horrible things that are living in my past and present – then I would never overcome those demons.
If …

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General thoughts on teen suicide

February 4th, 2018by Taf Taf

I’ve been reading many posts made by teenagers and, I won’t lie to you, I feel so sad. They’re young and they still have a lot of time ahead of them.Being young is tough,parents can be a pain in the ass a lot of times and being a student can be sometimes unbearable.But still,they can pursuit their dreams,they can try for what they want and certainly they can achieve many things.

In 2016 I read about a 16 year old girl in my country who committed suicide.Her classmates have been bullying her,because she was overweight.Three months ago I read about a young boy in my hometown who …

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Updating as promised + Advice, study related

January 30th, 2018by Urm8451n

Tomorrow is the beginning of February, which holds with in it 4 major finals.

To start with I want to say sorry for the last disturbing posts.
I use uppers [- Ritalin- ] to treat my ADHD, and it definitely causes heavy downs and other irrelevant side effects.

I’ve promised to update: I decided to let go of this site for a while, let go off whatsapp, facebook, 9gag and etc.
I know myself, and I know what I need for my own good.

Plans motivates me best, and I will from now on, focus on the studying and on the craving of achieving 100.
—- …

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Coming clean, I had psychopathic needs.

January 28th, 2018by Urm8451n

Few years ago, I was a dead boy walking down the school’s corridors. Walking back, forth, between rooms for each class, and from there back to the empty house.

I always had knew what was expecting me at that house.
I always feared from those ‘good’ days. I was so.. under pressure, I could have felt that life is a – if you enjoy today, tomorrow you will be in sorrow, and if you are really lucky, your suffering will start from the same day you dared to fucking smile.

I kept my mouth shut for so long, didn’t feel anyone around me. They were merely humans to …

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I wish I live in movies, books, novels, comics, anime, video games. Real world / Real life / Reality is boring & depressing.

January 26th, 2018by niki

Honestly, I just can’t understand nor fathom why Most / Majority of people can go watch movies, read cool, creative, imaginative books / novels / anime / comics, or play super imaginative & fantasy video games, and then later on they just go back to reality, as if nothing happens, and they’re ok with everything.

I hate to say this, but Most people simply just lack Imaginations. Even worse, Most people are boring. All people care in the everyday’s reality & their lives is just the most superficial, mundane, boring, & stupid things. Which is very depressing, especially when you feel like you’re just alone & …

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Going to be 24 years old soon….

January 23rd, 2018by tinydaisy22

Years ago, I woke up one day without a fear of my own choices or actions. I didn’t feel time. I didn’t know what age was. Age was just a number that silently reminded everyone of another year that gets us closer to our death.

Hearing the number “24” is nothing to an even older person. It’s as if the youth evaporates into the sky when our age consumes our identity. So, if “24” is nothing then when will we become something? At what age will we start to exist in this world? When will the youth be able to stretch their legs out without the …

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Empty

January 16th, 2018by lonely2k14

So it’s been a long time since I’ve been on this site. Last month, was the worst month I’ve ever been through. No, I didn’t self harm, because, i was way past that point. I was at the point where i felt certain pain and had emotional breakdowns often, but i felt genuinely empty now. Before, I often had reasons as to why I would feel particularly horrible one day, more so than before. But last month, I just was horribly in emotional pain for all 31 days. My grades dropped so much and the drive I had to succeed in school and life was …

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What’s today?

January 10th, 2018by Mosaic

I will be strong,
I made up my mind

So why look back,
Theres still hope in sight.

Day by day,
Step by step

These little things I will never forget.

I once was weak,
But this is my day

I will be strong,
Get the fuck out my way.

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Just a video

January 9th, 2018by eeyore

This is a video I thought was ummm inspirational idk the word to describe this video doesn’t exist

if you do watch this tell me ur thoughts

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this is kinda dumb, but bear with me, i guess

January 8th, 2018by Benjamith

its been over a year since i last used this site. things havent been easy, but theyve been getting better, if only slightly. the 2017 new year made me feel so much more at ease with who i was, and though all of 2017 was a bit of a mess, i managed to not kill myself. i’m doing better, even if it is only by a small margin. i found some friends who have similar issues, and i feel really comfortable around them. i havent dumped my semi-asshole boyfriend, cause we’re only going to be seeing eachother for another few months before we graduate, at …

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Looking Back

January 7th, 2018by colourandlight

  1. I spend a lot of time looking back. Especially recently.

Aged 9. Started self harming.

Aged 10. Tried to throw myself out of the window (several times).

Aged 11. Couldn’t understand why I was the way I was. What was wrong with me.

Aged 12. Distractions. Life. I wasn’t any better, but things kept moving.

Aged 13. Minor improvements. Self acceptance.

Aged 14. Good. Not great, but good. Acceptance. Progress. Self medicating through reading.

and life continued much the same until last year. Not good. Not bad. Clear head at least.

 

I met someone. We’ll call him Oscar. Or O.

He was amazing. A recovering alcoholic, who’d been driven to drink by the …

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happy new year

January 1st, 2018by iamdarling

happy new year

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Remembering those who fight

December 30th, 2017by SilentVoices

I remember the psychiatric wards.

I remember the ice cold floors in the morning, and walking barefoot to the unlockable bathrooms to take a piss. Rolling out of the beds in a drugged daze for the nurse to take my vitals.

”How are you feeling this morning?”

”Fine.”

I remember the series of emotions that flow through me as I process my situation again- for the 5th day in a row:

How long am I going to be here for?

Oh God, I can’t believe I’m (back) here. How the hell do I explain this to everyone? Am I crazy? Does anyone even know I’m in here?

This isn’t so bad, right?

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