Coping Skills

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Truth is..

  April 9th, 2019 by wearehannahbaker

..two months into antidepressants and I am feeling so much better. I having a really good and fun time meeting new people and readjusting things I wasn’t comfortable with before. I am planning a trip overseas and I am genuinely EXCITED but….when is the other shoe going to drop?

I still have all of you at the back of my mind. I think of each person who is going through a struggle and posts here hoping someone will notice. I wish you all find the right combination of therapy and medication and get better.

I miss my friend Unknownsoldier. I haven’t heard from him in a while. [...]
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Making a progress – 2

  March 26th, 2019 by Urm8451n

Targeting down unwanted behavior, which might have been caused by extreme environments.  Making a behavioral change, to resolve those conflicts.

 

Lately,  1) I have been fed up with making unsocial statements or just being indelicate in social environment.   I also have been fed up with 2) my lack of sleep.

First step, targeting the problems and its reasons; I feel like it is an outcome of physical state.  or is it?

Let’s look further:

1). Being socially indelicate – why?  Because I talk fast. is it all ? No. let’s look further; I ACT quickly probably due to PTSD, and other PAST environments that I have been in, in [...]
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For, how many days can I hibernate before people forget my existence? But would it really be such a bad thing?

  March 26th, 2019 by Daisy_rosieismyrealname

People don’t really get it. It’s easy for me to put a smile on my face and tell people I’m fine. It just feels like hell dragging myself out of bed to do it. I get stuck in a situation of ‘no, I haven’t left my bed in four days, haven’t showered or eaten a decent meal but yes I’m fine, can’t you see the smile on my face?’ Lying is easy. Recently I feel completely unmotivated, numb, bored, tired and solitary. In fact, pretending to be OK is the only real relief. At least then I can feel like I’m worth something, others can [...]
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Making a progress – 1

  March 25th, 2019 by Urm8451n

Hey,

Last 6 month were extremely stressful for my own experience, and a lot of fears or other worries of mine, have re-appeared.

I have started playing idiotic games on the computer in purpose of escaping reality. I have ditched my studies and fell down in the final exams.

 

In my own perspective the last experience was harsh enough to deduct my self esteem and many other aspects.  Now I have to deal with the consequences and find solutions.

 

So what is my plan?

Well first – slowly accept the idea of harsh reality, and tough problems.

While doing the first step, I am also coping with my urges of “running [...]
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What Do You Do?

  March 22nd, 2019 by Justanotherfaintstar


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March 15, 2019—The Day I’m Supposed To Die

  March 16th, 2019 by TheSadAngel

The night before March 15, I was so down to the point that negative thoughts have devoured me. It was painful, to be torn by two sides of which to choose. A part of me—the wounded one—have whispered me to go to the kitchen, took out a knife, and just end it all! The other one was crying, begging for me to stop. In the middle of the night, a potpourri of emotions swirled within me that I was left in a deep turmoil. Maybe that’s why I went to the kitchen and stood in front of the counter where the knives were hidden. I [...]
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Shame

  March 14th, 2019 by Hiccup

I’d like to think I have a lot of decent qualities, but one thing I’d like to change about myself more than anything is my painful inability to communicate well. I’m terrible at articulating myself and having conversations, and it’s extremely frustrating. I can’t help wondering what went wrong during the time I was developing into an adult, but it’s my biggest insecurity and I feel so bad about it. I don’t think I’m fun to be around because I’m so socially awkward and I think it’s at least part of the reason the person I’m interested in doesn’t feel the same.


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Coming back daily for a semester

  March 8th, 2019 by Urm8451n

Hey,

 

after inner thinking, I’ve decided I’ll use this side again got renting and letting out any depressing memories, so it won’t bother my mind at night.

 

for those who don’t know or remember, I’m a computer engineering student, having a lot of difficulties in my life, and this semester my grades are also complete  shit.

 

Will be around for few months.

love you all, nice to meet u,

Jac.


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I cant stop, not sure I want to

  February 21st, 2019 by Whovian

I’ve never done this before. The blog thing. I’m here because a friend of mine was on here a couple years ago and told me about it. I’ve read all of their posts and some of them tell about how I “saved” them. How ironic that I’m here now writing my own story. Recently I told a friend what I’ve been doing and they told me to find a hobby to help me stop. I know they’re right because they’ve been through the same thing and that’s what helped them. I tried coloring and playing online games. The games seem to help but not enough. I can’t [...]
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A New Me

  February 6th, 2019 by vwbeatles

I’m officially at the number zero of people I can talk about suicide with without making people triggered, uncomfortable, or being told I should seek help or call a hotline. I guess talking about it just makes it worse and just makes me want to do it even more! Because nobody wants to be friends with a sad *****, you might as well eliminate the sad ***** altogether and kill her off. In addition, I’m officially at the point of no longer making myself vulnerable to the point where I begin to contemplate these thoughts. Did I finally solve the puzzle as to why my [...]
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Iced tea please, but hold the long island

  January 30th, 2019 by darkwillow

Every day after i leave school, (3 times a week), I go to this little pizza place. It’s pretty good and it’s cheap and it’s quiet. And I usually eat my food and just drink their mango black tea. And drink more of their mango black tea. And just stare at the table as if I’m in a bar and I’m trying to forget my worries. Sometimes I stay for over an hour after I eat, just trying to loose myself.

The girl that always rings me up has started calling me her depressed customer friend. Friday, when I walked in, she [...]
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Long rant,

  January 21st, 2019 by c-ta

It’s been exactly a year now since I last posted to this website, which is sort of weird. I like the format of it, so I desperately looked for it and finally found it!

For some BG information (if it’s helpful I guess lol ig it helps me!), I’m 16 (17 in April) and FTM but not at all out to most people close to me in my life, especially including close family. I have a history of self-harming since I was about 12 years old, and my parents became aware of it 1-2 years ago. I have stopped as of now but have relapsed a [...]
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2019…..here we are

  January 12th, 2019 by mo992

I’ve tried to avoid posting for a while now. I’ve been dealing with quite a lot, mentally and physically. I felt that posting would make me feel even worse and paranoid. But here I am again.

2018 was quite slow. There were good things and a lot of painful experiences but I must admit that I wouldn’t have made it without my friends and community. The support they have given me is immense and I can in no way give back enough love to them. For a while I felt guilty, I still do. This feeling comes from the fact that even with all this love, [...]
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My Farewell Letters To Myself

  January 4th, 2019 by CheRup

I have an application on my phone called the Luna Diary. That is where I write what I’m feeling today, but it’s not like any ordinary diaries where you will read what happened today and the extraordinary revelations that happened in the current time. What I actually write in there are my suicide notes from every time I am having an episode. Similar to today, I am currently experiencing one while writing this description. Since my phone is broken, I’ll just have to make this as my temporary Luna app. I guess no one will even take notice to this anyway. (There is an audio [...]
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People Watching

  December 18th, 2018 by 5201jm

It’s the name of a YouTube series by the channel “Cracked” i randomly found weeks ago. I find myself keep rewatching both seasons on a playlist. It covers topics like dating, depression, death/life, etc. through the eyes of a few random young adults animated. It just makes me feel like i’m not going through some of my issues alone, and i don’t mean that as in theres noone around to help me if I actually asked, but that there are other people with the same mindset as me about certain topics(even pass my depression/suicidal thoughts I’d never actually admit to to anyone I know(including myself)). [...]
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Wrist To Shoulder Covered in Cuts

  December 15th, 2018 by NO_REMORSE

But its not enough. I want to bleed out all my life. It barely subsides the pain and monotony i live with in my waking life. Sleep is unfortunately the only thing left for me. I dont want to get better, i want to fall as deep as possible into whatever this is. I want the cuts to show how fucked up i am, how much i hate it here. Maybe if i rebel and drown in this, things will turn out the way i want. Maybe not. I guess we will see.


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I don’t understand

  December 8th, 2018 by Hiccup

There’s nothing wrong with my life. I have friends, a good education, a loving/supportive family, I’ve been doing the things I love, I pretty much have everything I want, I’m not homeless, and my health is great. Yet I’ve still been suffering mentally and emotionally. I don’t understand.


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I don’t know what to do, suicide might be my only option

  December 8th, 2018 by kahann

I’m a 50 year old female who has never really lived and probably never will.

Look, I know I should take responsibility for my mistakes and failings but I feel trapped. It’s like I’m in a prison and there is only one way I’m getting out and that’s death.

It all started when I was 6, that’s when my step-father started molesting me. When I was 7 I told my mother what he was doing, that was the day she started beating me. When I was 12 he wanted to do more than fondle me and pleasure himself, when I said no he got into a mood [...]
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  November 29th, 2018 by Hiccup

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Maybe Not Yet

  November 27th, 2018 by Hiccup

Despite what I think of myself, I still have a reason or two to keep holding on. So maybe I’ll just stick around for now.


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