Coping Skills

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Social Anxiety is an asshole

  August 13th, 2018 by sansfranzdeput

The title makes the theme pretty clear: I have buttloads of Social Anxiety, and it is a living Hell dealing with, ignoring, or confronting it on a daily, and sometimes, hourly basis. I have battled against it my whole memorable life, and I’ve had it up to here- *raises hand to tippy top of head* -with all the bullshit.

I had an amazing day today/yesterday, but all I can think about, all the thoughts I can conjure and obsess over are, “what if I fucked it up? What if the people I talked to and had coffee with in that wonderful, cozy cafe think I am …

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Miguel De Unamuno – Poems

  August 7th, 2018 by Taf Taf

Muerte (Death)

 

To die to sleep… to sleep… perchance to dream.

(Hamlet, act iii, scene iv)

 

You are the dream of a God; when you awake

will you return to the womb where you were born?

Will you then be what you were before?

Will your death be a new birth?

Is this dream absent during wakefulness?

Luckily here the mystery assists us;

as a remedy of our sad life

our fate remains an inviolable secret.

Let your future remain hidden under the fog

and walk calmly

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Where the Lonely Ones Roam

  August 7th, 2018 by sansfranzdeput

If you’ve ever seen any of my previous posts on my chronic mental and emotional afflictions, then you must know this: that I am in pain; and, for most people- if not all- pain is something people hate. They most often turn to addiction or something essentially the same to hide or suppress their issue, whatever it may be.

I myself have had addiction issues before, and still struggle with an addiction to Pornography. That, and my depression and all around loneliness will be the topics I so boringly lay out before you all in this post today.

 

Since a very young age, I have been obsessed …

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Issue atm

  August 5th, 2018 by Lb88

So a lot has been going on in my life lately. I’ve dont what I always do to pick myself back up again but it hasent been working. I try sleeping away the pain. I try singing away the pain. I try painting away the pain. I try talking away the pain. Why now when I feel like I need to be happy more than ever can I not find any of it?! It sucks ighjjj

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requiem

  August 5th, 2018 by imsosorry2468

It’s taking a lot for me to write this. I’ve had so conjure up the will or energy to even post here again. I feel so hopeless right now. I just want to die already!

God it’s so hard. To think about the shit storm of pain I’ll leave behind. I hate myself for feeling like this. I think people would be sad for a while but at least they’d be able to move on finally and live their lives without having to worry about me or pay for my therapy or my school or anything . My mom could start to fix her marriage …

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I Guess Im Still here…

  August 5th, 2018 by NobodyKnowsorCares

Dear,
Anyone who reads this, and my last one,(post)

Well im a little ashamed of telling it, but maybe I could share my story with someone who may be wanting to do it.. maybe help them in some way.

Anyways, yesterday night I was basically trying to drive up north and hang myself yada yada,(short story)
I already had a pre made noose out of some strong rope, so I was all set on doing it that night.
(I left around 1 am)

Anyway, around half way to the spot I had chosen,
I got a little hungry,
(3:30am )
And I looked in maps and where I was trying to go …

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That Time of Year

  August 2nd, 2018 by TiredStoic

This month will be the four year anniversary of my father’s suicide. He shot himself in the head in his bedroom and I was the person to find his body. It took me awhile to tell anyone I didn’t know how to call my mom (she left to take my brother away for college that night) and tell her my older sister or my younger brother. It’s inexplicable to say the least. I just don’t know how to handle this time of year. And I hate the holidays so it kind of just rolls into it, my dad birthday is also in September. Any other …

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Self-harm

  August 2nd, 2018 by yoonsin

Please, if you are considering self-harm or are currently self-harming, please quit.

Let me be an example, a warning to you all.

When I first started, it was a tiny little cut on my thigh, made merely to see how it’d feel- and I can’t lie, it was exhilarating to me. I was thirteen at the time and was enduring copious amounts of abuse from my parents, both physical and verbal, which had been occurring since childhood. It was a strain to my psyche and after that first cut, for once in my life, I felt like I was able to deal with all the pain that …

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Relapse

  July 30th, 2018 by tired20

In high school, I’d cut everyday. It started when I was 14. I had no where to go, no one to talk to. I’d do it in the school bathrooms before school, just go all out. I’d wait for the bleeding to stop, put some folded up toilet paper over my entire forearm, use hair ties to keep it from moving, pull down my sleeve and go through my day. It’s all I could think about, and when I got home, I’d do it again. This went on for several years. Then, I met someone. Someone who got me to start eating again and stop …

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I’m really tired.

  July 30th, 2018 by tired20

I’m so tired. Tired of feeling like a burden. Tired of thinking “I bet my parents wish they never had me. I’m the embarrassment of my whole family.” Exhausted from acting like I’m staying strong so my fiancé won’t worry as much. We all die in the end, so what is the point anyway? “to have fun, to love and be loved, to experience the world in and of itself and behold it’s beauty and nature” blah blah blah, it’s bullshit. We live to work in order to keep living which is mostly spent working and sleeping. From the beginning, my life has been shit. …

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just a little more

  July 29th, 2018 by 3333330000055599669

i’ve been suicidal since i was 14, maybe 13, but my memory before my first attempt is blurry. i’m almost eighteen now.

i didn’t intend on making it this far, at all. i didn’t intend on living this long – ever getting a job – making it to my senior year of HS.

but, if you’re like me. it’s probably important to remember something my friend said to me.

“you shouldn’t deem yourself a failure whenever you fall down again, you’re still going, you’re still strong. Your illnesses aren’t you. You’re you; and that’s what matters.”

just a little more, okay?

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Is This Who I Am?

Is This Who I Am?

  July 28th, 2018 by raperapelemonade

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Relaxing Tips

  July 25th, 2018 by WanderingDreamer91

Intro

 

So like, I was wondering about posting as much 1-3 posts, and then maybe taking a big break for a while… I might come around to comment and stuff, but yeah. :p

 

With that said though, here is my first one with general ideas on things that might help you feel at ease a bit more. 🙂

 

Music

(Solfeggio (Hz), Lofi, Classical, Hipster/Indie, etc.)

 

Sometimes I like to listen to really relaxing music, from anything like the solfeggio (hz) stuff which I heard 432 hz is really helpful, to lofi, to even… one 1 hour indie music track even on youtube. XD I think I got it from Life …

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Celeste (Coping Technique)

  July 24th, 2018 by WanderingDreamer91

Celeste

(Length: 5m 20s)

 

So, in part thanks to Agnostic Angel, though I’ve gotten into it before hand and like it a lot myself already, I decided to post this video here on a coping technique the game talked about that might help. 🙂

 

Basically, if you’re ever having a panic attack, just close your eyes and take deep breaths… imagine a feather floating in the air… your inhales and exhales make it rise and fall, symbolizing your steady breathing.

 

I hope that helps. 🙂

 

It’s a really cute and fun looking game, but I think it might be one of those games you have to buy on Steam… I …

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Fine… Im Fine

  July 23rd, 2018 by razorwrists

Sometimes I just feel down and sometimes I feel as if im being held down by something so big I cant breathe It casts a shadow over me I cant quite tell how big but its big enough to cover my mind its so dark I struggle to smile people think they know but there just as lost as me they offer advice but it passes by my head like a breeze not a small breeze its like the breathe of the shadow it inhales and I feel blank then it exhales and still nothing happens im at a stand still but I don’t know …

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A Letter To Myself (poem written by me)

  July 22nd, 2018 by anonymousie

  • dear anonymousie

there you go
ruining everything again
without even trying to
how pathetic are you?

you want to die,
and it’s so rightfully justified
because you’re mediocre at best
no matter how hard you try

you could eat healthier
exercise more
erase your past
you could do everything he wants

but who says that will make love last?

you’ve made mistakes
many terrible
some preventable
most were accidental

you can try blaming it on
being a millennial
but not all of us
are fuck ups like you

“consistency is key”
the only thing you’re consistent at
is ruining everything for me
you’re the one that won’t let you be happy

you know just how to make him hate you
you wonder why he ripped your
pictures off the wall
it’s because he …

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Maybe

  July 22nd, 2018 by raperapelemonade

Even though we cant talk to each other directly here. I feel safe here. I feel in the silence, a comradery.

I love reading the stuggles the goodbyes because i can relate so much to these entries and i just have nothing but love for you.

Even if you are a judge of me, i can relate and I’m grateful. Whatever comes… I’m just grateful for this silent hive where our honey is our words about our bloody battles of life, death, trauma, pain more than anyone else in the real world could ever handle. We can speak it here in complete truth and honesty without fear.

I’m …

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Something Needs To

  July 21st, 2018 by raperapelemonade

I told my only family member it was time for me to stop. The only person in the world who knew me. He said at least try acid once.

I dosed and became one with the Universe and all that shit. I felt something fall off my shoulders afterwards. I got an understanding of why I survived the first eleven years of my life along with him surviving the first twenty.
-We weren’t meant to survive right?

I got a hippy ass perspective on why there’s scars on my genitals that I can’t explain to a doctor.

It lasted about a month until I was drugged and raped in …

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It’s That Time of Year Again

  July 21st, 2018 by raperapelemonade

2nd year anniversaries are so surreal.

I dont know if it would honor you or offend you if I chose to enter light body that day. I already failed once in a way I shouldnt have failed because of your bad timing. Then you died.

This is a sign I should go with you, I feel sometimes. You said you couldn’t do this life without me, what the fuck do you expect me to do here without you.

Drugs sure help. Maybe they’ll have pity/mercy on me the way they did for you and take care of the dilemma I face daily

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My birth was an error

  July 19th, 2018 by PatheticMale

My agonizing mind
I´m just a broken human being, some freaky joke of mother nature. Sadly, my IQ is like between 130 and 150 which  always makes me overthink every little aspect of reality to the point that I feel I´m going out of my mind.

When I was a child (last time I experienced true happiness) I was always looking on other people from above because they looked just so dumb to me. I still carry some leftovers of this attitude and that may be the reason why noone actually likes me. Nowdays I just look on ordinary stupid people living their happy lifes in ignorance …

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