Coping Skills

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It officially ends this week.

February 21st, 2017by MissingMy3Hearts31921

I have officially made up my mind and am at peace with it.  Time to say goodbye this weekend.  I wanted to go earlier but one of my daughters birthday is tomorrow so I am going to wait.

I learned that due to my NP hydrocephalus that I am about 18 to 24 months away from suffering the same symptoms as those with CTE.  It is almost like dementia.  I do not want to sit and be a burden to anyone.  Especially do not want to be a burden to my soon to be ex wife and my kids.  I think I have come to peace …

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5AM BPD/Love/Sob

February 20th, 2017by Elliot97

Do I get up and disappear while she lays beside me, sleeping beautifully? Even if she did no wrong I can’t force myself to believe she hasn’t, If I disappear maybe she’ll find someone better and worthy. I was always told anything said or thought after 2AM should be ignored but it seems to be my wisest moments. I don’t know how or why I think this way, I wish I didn’t. I wish I was ‘normal’… I used to say consistency is key in my previous relationships but it seems the only thing consistent in my life is sadness, suicidal thoughts and total destruction …

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Severe anxiety

February 19th, 2017by mysteriousvisitor

I don’t suffer much bad anxiety. But I start my job on Tuesday and can barely hold it together.

I’m supposed to be happy. “Oh, I bet you’re excited! What an interesting job!”

All I feel is DREAD. Some of it I can define, but some is just being dead inside and knowing I cannot handle it mentally.

Being laid off was quite helpful. I could sleep naturally so I wasn’t exhausted all the time, be with my SO (which is more important than doing some pointless job), work on my writing, and keep a pleasant home.

Work is for ONE thing: to earn money so we can give it …

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Ironies and Contradictions of Modern Life.

February 19th, 2017by Black Holez

Anyone find it odd that our modern world is filled with people who are depressed and had enough of the suffering they are going through? In the past, people who suffered from depression were rare, they had an intact family, had people around them who knew the word respect, men acted like men and women acted like women and rarely were people using each other and being assholes (because if you did, you would immediately get killed). Now we live in a fast paced world where we are surrounded by toxic people who would bring each other down in order to prop themselves up and …

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Depression … and how to overcome

February 15th, 2017by Black Holez

Hi, guys. Was here last year around the beginning of December and early January. If anyone has been following my posts, I was suffering from severe depression and have lost everything – my job, my friends and my relationship with my family. I even lost the will to live and move forward in life. However, I entered into a monastery the last 2 weeks and reflected on what really to do and I can tell you that it has refreshed my soul and given me renewed vigor in my outlook in life. I know this is not for everyone but if you’re into spirituality or …

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Sappy Valentie’s Day

Sappy Valentie’s Day

February 14th, 2017by SeeSmith

You may be suicidal, but you are still loved …in a way.

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Hitting so hard…..

February 12th, 2017by EvilOni22

From time to time I still find myself overwhelmed and just wishing all was over. I fear this will never fully go away. It’s been building up for sometime now. Longer than normal, stronger than normal. Ever so slowly imploding. Back to drinking myself to sleep cause I really don’t know what else to do. Even that has it’s limitations. Work is what I use typically. Just focus on it day in day out. Let’s me simply ignore or avoid what I can’t handle or can’t control…….that’s becoming me now though.

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Snorly (Don’t Tell Smitty):

February 11th, 2017by SweetQuietus

Okay, Snorly, there, there.
It’s gone now.
No more Tromb’s.
Go to sleep now.
Here’s something you can dream about instead:

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Insomnia is taking over

February 11th, 2017by lilxtina

I have never had insomnia before, this is the first time in my life. It is hell and making my depression even worse.

Does anyone else have it? Or has anyone else had it? How did you deal with it?

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2

Hi?

February 9th, 2017by _lost._.one_

I feel so alone, as if I am not good enough.

Today I almost suffocated from my own self-hate. Sigh, not literally, metaphorically. There were so many people in the bathroom all of a sudden and I could not cry, I had to hold it in for approximately ten minutes while they fussed over their picture.

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Need to occupy my mind

February 8th, 2017by daljen

Every day I search for something to take my mind off of wanting to die.  It’s been over a year since my first (aborted) attempt.  Since then, I’ve thrown myself into my work and family. But some days it’s difficult, especially those days when my thoughts become consumed by the failures in my life, and being stuck in them. Today was better than others but I don’t know what tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, will bring.

Weekends are the worst because there’s no work to keep my mind occupied, and Wednesdays mark the point at which they become visible at the bottom of the slide.

So …

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A Greeting, and a Proposal

February 6th, 2017by Forest.of.Lonely.Trees

Hey! I hope everyone’s doing good (as good as it gets here at SP)…

This is my first post but I’ve been lurking for a couple of weeks now, commenting here and there more recently. This site and all of you on it have been a massive help to me recently in many different ways and I wanted to thank you all for that.

I used to spend a lot of time drawing but haven’t been as much lately, this is the last thing I finished and it seemed pretty relevant to SP… (sorry for the poor photo Q)….

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Trust and Pain. Fuck Relationships

February 6th, 2017by Mavourneen

How do you learn to trust again once that trust has been broken?

I don’t know how to deal with this pain and anxiety of not being able to trust

I feel frantic and irrational

 

My boyfriend is talking to his first ever ex, he didn’t tell me until like a week of them talking. From what he’s told me of her she was really manipulative and they ended on bad terms. When they dated she was in a relationship and cheated on her boyfriend with him constantly. It tore him up inside because she said she would leave her boyfriend but kept them both. She’s still with …

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looking for reasons to stay alive.

February 6th, 2017by theyoungone

within the last two months, ive started to feel like i am not myself anymore. i am not doing the things i love because i simply just dont have the time or motivation. ive found myself spending more time living inside my own brain that is telling me constantly to harm myself or end my life in total. i am sad to say that today was a breaking point for me, and i did harm myself after months of being clean. i am absolutely devastated and ashamed in myself, and that isnt helping me with my suicidal thoughts. ive tried coming up with a list …

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I do NOT suffer from a mental illness

February 5th, 2017by mysteriousvisitor

My reasoning:

1. Is my suffering from feelings of depression genuine? Absolutely, yes. Am I able to control it sufficiently? No, I’m not.

2. Does the medication help? Yes, it reduces the pain and makes it possible for me to function effectively. Does the medication make me want to live? No, it doesn’t.

3. Is the issue biological? This is a pointless question because EVERYTHING is biological. If I laugh at a funny joke, it is the result of a neuro-chemical reaction in my brain. So is feeling grief over losing a loved one or thinking about an interesting book I read. Everything I think, feel, or …

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Alcohol

February 5th, 2017by Mavourneen

Does drinking make you suicidal? What do you guys think of drinking when youre sad? Does weed work better than alcohol as a coping mechanism?

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know your worthlessness

February 4th, 2017by SomewhereBlue

I am worthless to the world, to the people I loved, to friends and perhaps to family. This is a fact that when I started to realize and accept I felt a sense of freedom. I no longer live to please others, and others are no longer here to please me.

Keep it in your mind: you are worthless. Believe me you’ll feel free once you realize that.

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~Never asked for this~

February 1st, 2017by Xx-lostsoul-Xx

I never wanted any of this to happen but it did.
I never wanted to feel this way but I do.

I’m tired of faking my interests and smiles.

Cutting never helps, it never helped me feel
in control.

But I liked the pain, the feeling like a flicker of fire dragging across your bare skin.

But then it’s gone and I’m left numb… with nothing else but the scattered thoughts that are jumbled in my head.

I may seem crazy and people can have their judgments about me, but I’m just like everyone else yet I just have more problems then they’ll ever have.

But yet again I never asked for any …

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Betrayal

January 31st, 2017by Parzival

Oh jeez where to start. I actually haven’t logged onto this site for at least a year maybe longer? It’s hard to remember. I was doing a whole lot better and things were looking up. I had setbacks, times where I struggled but nothing unbearable. Well recently my best friend of 6 years (by far the longest friendship I have ever had) left me. This is the person I have gone to with everything and who I probably care about most in the world. We have been drifting for apart for about a month because I attempted suicide over a PTSD trigger and she got …

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Hospitalization

January 30th, 2017by Mavourneen

Hello, I’m 18 and I was recently hospitalized at an impatient facility before my 18th birthday for a suicide attempt. The facility I was at was really comfortable and I made great connections there. I kinda rushed out of it because Christmas was in a few days and i felt a lot of  pressure to be home for the holidays (and I was a little homesick). I’m thinking of going back, but now that I’m 18 I would be in the adult ward and I’m afraid of what that’s like. Im in a really dark place right now and I came to this site with …

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