will anyone miss me

i say i want to die, i do. then i think, if i do this, if i kill myself i might hurt people. as soon as i think that i think its silly, that people would miss me, that if i left people would hurt because i was gone. when i contemplate about life, i realize that no one acknowledges me when im alive, so why would it bother anyone if i was gone. yeah i have a family, no dad, but hes a dead beat anyways. i laugh at things on facebook that are like groups with the title “i wonder who would miss me if i died” because i know no one would miss me. waste of time! fuck this