It’s four a.m. again
father, forgive me for this sin
uncomfortable in this life
I can’t put down this knife
I’m carving words in my arms, baby.
Hey, scars are part of my charm, maybe
I need the touch of a hand
This isn’t what I had planned
I need relief from this life
I wanna slip away into the night
don’t wanna see the sun again
but can’t get swallowed up by this tragic whirlwind
I wish the ocean was warm
I feel like drowning
I’m losing my faith in me
I can’t remember the last time i felt free
from voices inside my head
when I taste liberation, they just feed me fear instead
You say I’m out of control
at least I still have a soul
no, I don’t need your advice
some compassion would be nice
I can’t take any more of your pills
they hold my head up
but still it feels so wrong
I can’t believe the price that I’ve paid
for this chemically-induced, perceivably ideal, take-it-with-a-glass-of-water day.
It’s four a.m. again
father, forgive me for this sin
uncomfortable in this life
I can’t put down this knife…
I feel like drowning.
16 comments
I REALLY LOVE THIS IT IS REALLY REALLY REALLY GOOD
thank you 🙂
i love it…its deep….i feel clam after reading it…is it a song? sing it!
hahahah lol, it is a song!! how could you tell?? And thank you 🙂 Haha, well I do sing and write songs… 🙂
thats cool!
how old r u?
im 12..so sad … 13 on 23…lol, but bdays dont matter
I’m 16, almost seveteen. My names Violet 🙂
that is the coolest name ever
beats mine…celia….icky
but then there this guy i know named bram…xD
Haha thank you very much! I like the name Celia, I think its pretty. Are you Spanish or Mexican or…well, there’s lots of heritages out there. Sorry if I’m offending you at all :p
That actually is awesome, Violet. Lol everyone here seems to write music or some shit I swear to god.. not that it’s a bad thing 😛
Haha, well thank you 🙂 I love writing songs, well I just love writing in general 🙂 I love to play piano and guitar mostly, I play some saxophone and abit of violin too. Hehe, tell ya something silly (I only started playing the violin because it sounds like Violet) haha!! :p
This is beautiful, pure amazing. Seriously, almost brought tears to my eyes reading it. I can’t get over how good this is! I can relate to this so much. thank you for writing this, don’t ever stop writing, you will go far in life if you keep this up, I promise.
THANK YOU!!! I’m glad you enjoyed reading it that much. If It brought tears to your eyes then I’m doing something right with my emotional literature 🙂 Hmm…”you will go far in life”. Seems a little far-fetched to me if I do say so myself, I mean i think this poem is pretty self-explanatory. I’m feeling very close to the edge right now, someone needs to either pull me back away from the water that I’m wading in knee-deep…or I’m going to drown.
i really liked it. it was very good it explains alot about u and i appretiate that
thank you 🙂 Im glad!
I understand. But I just ask you this, as long as you do live, don’t stop writing. You have a gift that some people would kill for. I’m sorry things are going bad for you, I truly am. but doing this, putting your emotions in to poetry is very good, and I know it helps me. Does it help you at all?
Well thank you, that means a lot to me. It does help, songs, poety, a novel, whatever I’m writing it usually helps. Just as playing the piano, guitar, or just singing as good as I can with a song I love helps. The arts are a great way to express what you are feeling without having to feel embarrassed or ashamed. I would encourage everyone to write in some way, but I know its not for everyone. It’s the best outlet I know tho.