i feel like rambling so if you choose to read this consider it fair warning…
ive been wondering. how is it possible that we have opinions of our own if were only manifestations of our past memories and experiences? does that mean they are formes upon knowledge of other eoples thoughts, idead, and words? where does that leave room for our personalities, if we even have one of our own? are we unique only because each of us has had a different sequence of experiences? where do our ideas and actions come from but what we feel is expected of us and fathomed of us. What do we truely want but what others tell us we need?
is it all truely just a cycle of syphening off of others reality in order to create our own, then in turn have others do the same unto us?
or am i just insane right now…
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Wow, amazing thought. Though it’s kinda creepy. We’d have the power to form personalities, even if it’s not intentionally.
yeah, and have the power to desroy each other compleatly. feels nice to at least get one of these thoughts out of my head.
i know its clishe
but ive got a itle black book full of crap similar to this. haha. plus somke other writings and stuff.
and thank you
‘Love to read stuff like that. You seem like a really good writer!
thank you. I like to write. but usually i dont show any of the stuff like this. i hardly ever write it down anymore.
I love writing, too. I kinda helps. Weired, I know. Though it really works.
i know what you mean. i havnt written in a bit. just started now with that post about my dream. Somthing happened and it left me just compleatly numb and i couldnt write. Writing goes a long way with helping to get better. I d ont think its weird at all!
The mind is certainly a beautiful thing, as dangerous as it also may be. And don’t worry you don’t sound insane at all 🙂
Allow me to propose this however, are our personalities quirks and ideas forged entirely as a result of our environment, or is there an underlying genetic factor? Instincts.
I’m not as good a writer as you so I won’t even try but something to contemplate, which I love doing. Even if I can’t come to a conclusion.
Just read your dream, even if it sounds really fucked up to tell you that in correspondence to that, you’re style is amazing.
Sometimes I have blockades ( is that the right word? Sorry, English is not my first language ) and I feel really bad and depressed.
Logic.
i agree, the mind is a mysteriously wonderful enitity in itself. The fact that we only use a small portion is baffling. pure anamalistic instincts may play a factor but, unlike most beasts, we are not born with any part of the knowledge our ancestors had engraved into our minds. We are forced to learn, which we are constantly doing. Thats where this thought came from. Would it be right to say we are only unique because of how we came to learn off off each other. Thats how you learned to speak right? Mom or dad kept talking and so you just followed right along, eventually leaerning to understand each sound and its meaning. well, thats how i see it anyway.
Anna,
Thank you for your complement on my writing. I lack a lot of self confidence in my writing so its nice to hear that. You did use thhe right word. Writing blocks happen to me too, and i also become depressed and frustrated because all of my emotions and thought are bottled up and they begin to build until i either write somthing, self harm, or explode.
You’re right, I never thought of that thing with the self harm, I have it under control till I stop writing. I’m really into that shrink-stuff. That’d be a nice self-attempt. Probably stupid.
Self-attempt? i dont know what you mean…
Ive never gotten professional help. I dont really want it and im slightly afraid to get it anyway. In most ways im better of trying to fix myself, by myself.
I’m inclined to disagree that our personalities are forged soley on our surroundings. While it’s evident that our capacity to learn is what separates us from animalistic behaviour, I think it’s safe to assume there is some kind of genetic instinct at play. Though the extent of which it has an effect over environment is impossible to say. Oh yeah it’s that old nature vs nurture debate… 10th grade science is coming back to me lol.
I know I’m pretty new to this site and you don’t know me or anything but can I just say you are a very good writer and it is an excellent way to express yourself, try not to self harm. I used to do it myself so I can relate, but please don’t do it.
If it’s really writing that helps me, I truly don’t think so, cause’ I probably had to be profound.
Me too. I’m too young to get professional help alone and I’m really scared he’d put me into a straitjacket. But sometime I like to know what he would say.
i dont think you understand what im saying. i believe it is a combination. It is both. The people around us is a part of out environment. if we only developed with one of those we definately wouldnt be where we are today. i cannot say whether we would be behind or much further ahead though.
and i cant really make any promises on self-harming. i did it just last night and i cant say i really spared myself.haha. oh well, it comes with thinking way too much for my age.
He’s on sage.
My bad I think I misread ur post slightly… It’s nearly 1 here but I can’t sleep.
Anyway yea I think we are on the same kinda wavelength.
Yea I’ve always thought way to much about everything. I’m not gonna lecture you cause I’m no different tbh, but as I’m sure you already know talking to someone can make a world of difference. 🙂
Logic.
Yes I am aware. But sometimes a world of difference can be a universe short, sadly enough. On the bright side there are a few who can make a universe of difference plus some. But those people usually end up where we are. On a site because of suicide.
Tell me about it. I used to be one of those people. Maybe I still am to an extent. I’ve dealt with people attempting suicide a few times and now of course im the one planning it… But of course I’m not about to talk myself out of it. Touché universe.
I can only laugh at the irony.
Irony was invented by a masochistic man.
I’m Not sure if I’m using the right word. I’m sorry. Right now is very difficult. I’m finding It hard to hold on. 🙁
@77evergone77 I just wanted to tell you, that I’m so impressed of what you did tonight. I’m mean your friend. I wanted to help a few times but I thought it’d be better I’m not gonna interrupt. I could probably tell you much more about it, but I’m not sure you’re fine with it.
Why are you finding it hard to hold on? What’s up? If you don’t mind me asking that is, just wondering if I can help.
Anne
You saw it. Well, actualy. It’s hard not to, all of the comments are right up there. Thank you i guess. This is extremely painful and it horrible having Somone become so close to you then be ripped away. Everything I said to him was true. I don’t know I can keep myself in check if he does it.
Logic.
I’m finding it hard because it’s never easy in the first place when you dispose yourself. Also, someone very close to me want to make an attempt on Tuesday. He’s thought it over and has a full on plan. I don’t think I can handle loosing another. A while ago I left this site out of sadness because the people I came to love started to leave. When I came back, all were gone except for Violet. She stayed and is like a sister to me.
I can’t imagine what it would be. He seems to be really nice guy. I never saw so much love. I really hope that he won’t do it.
I want you to know – even if were not chatting much – I’m here to talk.
Ahh before you get that wrong: I don’t mean to specific any love. Sorry, I’m tired…
Thank you. I’m glad your with us in no wanting him
To go. It’s killing me right now. I can’t even think clearly enough to try to talk about it cuz it hurts. I don’t want to have to try to go through loosing him. And yeah. He, Hannah, and sucks are like family at this point.
i agree
Yeah. This isn’t good. (obviously)
Maybe you should take a break for 2 minutes or so. Just relaxing. You guys seem really exhausted.
I am but there’s no way could relax. Damn. My head feels like shit and I’m shaking a little 🙁
Sorry Anne.
I think I’m gonna cut again tonight. Screw limits.
I probably should say now don’t do it, but I can fully understand you.
But please; try not to do it or stay on the surface if possible.
I know. I’m bribing myself to my mental limits trying not to. At this point I can’t really afford to break. I’ll probably do something really bad. 🙁
i am with u
Oh Shit. Please don’t use a blade… I don’t wanna pressurize you, but please don’t do anything too bad. Did you hear from that trick with the ice cube? It’s probably not gonna work, but worth a try. Or draw red lines where you want to cut yourself.
I hope you don’t. For your job. That’s part of why I’m not failing yet. I can’t let you feel the consequences because I failed.
I’ve tried those. Even the rubber band (it snapped).
I’m doing all I can Anna. Usually I’m not like this. I keep my break downs off of the site as much as I can. But I can’t go off cuz of Hannah and TP
i dont go back until next sat so if i do do it i am good i think
and staring at thes razor is breaking me
i know i will do it if i pick it up
Don’t touch it please. This can’t happen. Dammit. Where’s Hannah and TP?!
I
Know I’m freaking out but I can’t help it.
This is so triggerish…
Sorry, I really try to help more…
I know. I’m sorry this is beginning to triggering. I think I should probably shut up and go now.