i hate remebering

this website has erased itself from my mind in the few weeks.

i didnt think about.

i didnt type it in.

i didnt even realise that id been absent for so long

(i usually, even if just breifly, am on it everyday to read other peoples stories, or to post my own)

and i like that id forgotten.

it meant that i was having a good time.

i was busy.

i was NOT depressed.

but ive been at home… litterally ALL day for the last 2 days.

and  just 10 minutes ago. i remebered.

i remebered the suicide project

and i hate that i remebered.

i hate it.