I haven’t posted for a while… today though I just need someone to listen. I was going to tell my housemates, but then thought they’d just think I was an attention seeker, which I’m not even sure is that far from the truth. Hence, this post. You don’t have to read it because it’s probably very silly. I just have to write it.
I went to University today and submitted my assignment. I then had an hour and a half’s wait until my three hour seminar. Usually I’d stay and maybe get some lunch or something, or go and sit in the library. But today I felt so ridiculously scared. So I went home. And then I had to leave the house again after about 10 minutes of being back to go to my seminar.
And that was it. I was scared. And I went home. And it was awful.
I’m pretty sure this and the nauseating feeling I get every time I get out of bed is simply just withdrawal from Mirtazipine, but it’s still very unpleasant. I’m wasting my whole life being scared and I can’t tell anybody because it hardly even matters. What am I even doing?
That’s it, anyway. See? Told you it was silly.
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Not silly at all. And don’t think “it hardly matters” because it does. It’s your life – you need to tell somebody. Coming on here was a good start, you got it off your chest and you probably feel better right? Well I hope you do anyway.
Talk to your doctor about the side effects of coming off the drugs. They can help you get through it. And find someone to talk to who can relate to you. There’s plenty of us on here and you’re bound to find someone you can relate to. Just keep at it.
Its not silly at all thats how i feel too when i go out its caused by bad anxiety it sucks i know you just wanna hide at home trust me i know the feeling. Are you the same girl that wanted to commit suicide with your mum sorry if im wrong? Maybe you could go on meds again or try therapy?
its not silly
trust me cuz i do a lot of silly things
but i hope you can over come your fear
i really wanna say something nice and uplifting but my damn brain cant think right now sorry i am not that much help
but i do care
No it isn’t silly. Sometimes the smallest things can take on the most powerful meaning, potency or feeling and when we try to put our finger on why we got scared or angry or anxious or paranoid the reason why eludes us…
Feeling Scared would be a good title, or I’m Scared All The Time or something along that line. And mhmm withdrawal sucks doesn’t it…
@crying on the inside: No, that wasn’t me.
Thanks for all the other replies.
Oh okay heaps sorry i thought it was the same username