I’m sitting, here, once again talking my friend out of suicide. just found out she tried to TWICE while my fucking internet was down, because I wasn’t there. and you can’t even fucking help me?!
I just comforted you about your fucking cats giving you a cold not less that MINUTES before, and you can’t say more than ‘just try and help her, Imma go. kay. wanna watch a film’.
fuck you. I thought you knew? I thought you cared? obviously not.
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Let me listen to you. Shout and scream at me if it helps… I know how it feels to give and recieve nothing in return xxx
I just can’t fucking believe he’d do this. I’ve spent hours asking him what’s wrong. and he can’t even take five fucking minutes to help me. I can’t believe him.
I thought he of all people gave a shit. guess not.
If he is in the frame of mind where he is needing you too look after him and be there for him every second, I dont think he will be thinking of anyone else.
It is so frustrating I know. I seems unfair.
I recently had my best friend of 20 years drop me… saying I was never there for her… ha I was always there… something in her changed, she wasnt the person I knew for that amount of time, but still it hurts that she felt that way.
Try to be patient. I understand you do not have too and by the sounds of things you are fed up of being the strong one, but Im hoping this person will see that you are therir rock and they will start to see they need to start giving xx
I know I’ll just act fine tomorrow |: but I wonder what they’ll do if I just don’t come online?
yeah I am fed up of being the strong one. having to be there for everyone, and noone giving to fucks whether I’m okay.
I just, I’m tired. I’m this close to topping myself, and they couldn’t care less. why should I bother?
Bringitback:
I just wanted to let you know that you inspire me. I know that that sounds weird after what you just posted. what you said shifted something inside me. I don’t know what it is but i can’t thank you enough
thanks, but I honestly shouldn’t. I don;t have the balls to tell someone they’ve hurt me |: what kind of a role model is that?
You dont want to tell them cause you dont want to hurt them… but listen to me, if someone is going to kill themselves they will. You could spend your life logging on to that computer to find one day they do it anyway.
I am not saying give up on your friend, I would never say that, but you need to take time for yourself… or you too will be in a n early grave.
Im so sorry you are being made to feel like this, but all I can say is that if your friend is in that dark place and is seriously suicidal then they are probably unable to process the thought that this may be effecting you. I do however know, from being in that place, that there is a way out, there is a way to come back to reality and live a full life xx
that’s exactly why.
I managed to get her to calm down for now. Let her vent, and then just laughed and talked until she went to bed.
I know I won’t be able to keep her alive just myself |: I’m just hoping that if I can post-pone it for longer, it’ll start to get better for her.
I think she does know, she keeps telling me to focus on my own life, and that she’s sorry for putting me in this situation. But tbh, I’ll drown myself as long as it means keeping her head above water |:
You are a good friend… they say if you can count your trues friends on one hand your very lucky.
You need to take time out for yourself though. You can only help your friend so much. Do not let it break you so you are in her position. Im sure she is greatful that you are there for her, but I also know that she will be very much wrapped up in her own problems too, so much so that your feeling may be neglected some times.
I woould not blame her for this as this is what depression does to you… just be careful not to forget who you are xx
I am depressed, but I’ll be fine for atleast another year. I still have the energy to take care of everyone else for now 🙂
That’s good I in a way am tired of taken care of everyone else
cuz taken care of my mother has wearn me out and being the only one in this house trying to take care of it when everyone else just makes it a mess doesn’t help either