going out more, usually it’d either be ‘No Ema!’ or ‘Nah, wanna catch up on sleep, see ya’ guys’. But I’ve been mentally pushing myself out that door. (:
It works…while I’m out, I feel great, happy, I have fun. No suicidal thoughts, no cutting, no crying, no lyeing on the floor wishing I was dead. But when I come back in? when I walk back through that door, it, just, hits. like a fucking train. urgh
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I am feeling a bit like that too. Like I can actualy feel better for almost a whole day now, sometimes two but then theres always something in my head that drags me back to where I was. I cut myself and got drunk alone last night although I said I wouldn’t do it again.
I have that feeling a lot too. Sometimes what I do, is I email a person I was with and tell them what a great time I had, and am looking forward to the next time. Then they email back saying the same, etc.
I hope it gets better, I mean, I don’t know how going out more will make it better, but it’s certainly better than staying home all the time sulking right?
going to a friends tonight :3 maybe they’ll have weed xD wow that’d be great if he had weed.
I promised myself I’d never cut again too but I did it again |: you can’t just quit cold turkey thought, you’ll slip up eventually, but it’s okay to have slip ups. Aslong as you’re doing it less, you’re getting better :3 just keep that in mind.
Well done. Humans are social animals – they need company.