To Have Loved and Lost

“And all the time that we walked barefoot in the sand somehow we never felt the rain.. I could walk off the hurt, run through the pain, wipe all the tears pouring down my face. Deny the dream that just never was. I just can’t walk off the buzz..” -Blessid Union of Souls

Well, it’s been nearly a year since the ‘big break up.’ I’m almost scared to believe it but, I think things are getting better. I think I’m getting better. I don’t constantly obsess over what could’ve been done differently anymore, and I’ve started feeling happy more often than I feel depressed. It could just be the changing weather, or the fact that I’m finally working towards my GED and moving to AZ, but honestly I think I’m just healing. Simple as that.
I always told myself that all it would take was time and a little effort, but I think there was always that little voice in the back of my mind telling me I’d never be ok again. Something I let myself believe during my darker days. So I’m especially relieved and happy to be, well, happy again.
I truly believe that everything is going to work out exactly as it should. I’m pretty sure it always does. Everybody remember that, ok? If it seems like things are all wrong, just remind yourself that in time everything gets put right.
I hope that all of you can find some happiness too. Don’t give up on it.

Oh, and p.s. I’m not saying that everything is perfect now or anything. I mean, is anything ever perfect? I’m just saying that lately, things haven’t been as bad as often as they were before, and I’m grateful as hell for that. I know that everyone can find the same kind of happiness. Mostly because I believe every person deserves it, and eventually earns it as long as they don’t give up. Well, good luck with life to all of you.