A girl from my school jumped in front of a bus today. I’m actually home sick, so I wasn’t there when it happened…but, holy shit.
She’s going to survive, it sounds like, but I question how she found the courage to try, when I’ve been mustering up the courage for the last 10 years…
Yesterday I realized that I have panic attacks when I’m near trains or train tracks…probably due to a combination of factors. The girl who killed herself by train not too long ago…and my own plans to do the same…but I worry that when I find the courage to do it like I want…I’ll fail because of this sudden fear.
My counselor told me that there are no train tracks on or near the dorms on my college campus next year, which he found profound and almost poetic–he said it could signal a new beginning. I remember thinking “Well, I’ll have to find another method, then…”
I dunno. It’s just rough.
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How old r u anyway? don’t have 2 answer if you don’t to
It takes courage to commit Suicide, most people call it cowardly, but to live in a life not worth living is cowardly.
Stay strong,
Umbra, I’m 18.