I don’t know

why I want to die. I have a nice home, a loving family, go to a good school, and have good friends. what is wrong with me if I can’t appreciate these things? There are people who are much worse off than I and yet still don’t wish to kill themselves. I’m so selfish and take everything for granted. I deserve to die and definitely don’t deserve anybody’s love. I wish my family didn’t love me so I could just exit this stupid life. I’m so mad at myself for procrastinating doing my biomedical class homework. I just want to tell my group members they can give me a zero on how much work I contributed and be done with it. There is only 13 more days of school left and I want to give up and just say fuck it. I’m mad at my teacher right now because she told us that for last year’s final exam only 2 out of 24 students got a 80% or higher and that’s what I am aiming for b/c I want the college credit, she is also giving us this grant proposal project at the last minute, plus we are working on another unit at the same time and for each lab we only have two days to work on it. That is a lot of stress on me and that is just for one of my 7 classes. I just want school to be over but I know how much work I will have to do before then. Thanks for reading to my stupid and futile rant!!!!!!!