I’m going to explode if I don’t get this out

I need help serious help, but I’d have to talk to someone about it. And I’m not doing that, not for a long long time.

I hate everything.

Every little thing.

Everything bothers me now, and everything’s building up that one of these days I’m gonna explode. It’s not gonna be pretty. This is so unhealthy, but I can’t talk to anyone because I don’t trust anyone.

I absolutely hate going to church. Don’t get me wrong, I love God and everything. I pray many times a day, read the bible, and I’m always trying to do the right thing. But I hate going because of how I’m treated when I’m there. People don’t talk to me but that’s no surprise. My brother’s girlfriend, my brother and my mom always pick on me. My mom makes fun of me at home too but it’s 100x worse there.

She doesn’t even let me voice my opinion. She says she’s just teasing me but it’s not teasing. It’s being mean. Stupid.Lazy.Stupid.You’rewrong.*****.Evil.Stupid.Idiot.Retarded.Fucking Stupid.*****.Whatthefuckiswrongwithyou.