I hate these scars. they are so freaking ugly. only 2 people know of them, and they don’t even care. I can’t stop cutting, I won’t stop cutting. I NEED to cut my arm.
I want to cry. I want to bleed. I want to scream and shout. and be in this everlasting agony, to suffocate in my own, desolate, barren corner of loneliness. this is who I am. this is what I deserve.
does anyone know, if I stop cutting my arm will the scars heal on their own? it’s hard to keep hiding it, my parents would kill me if they found out. I’m gonna TRY to stop, if I can.
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If the cuts are deep enough, the scars might never heal. They generally start being a lot less noticeable though as time goes by, no matter how deep they are. You can also try using something like bio oil on them, it will help to reduce their appearance. It’s called that in the UK anyway, it might have another name in other places, not sure. I hope you’re able to stop if you really want to. Good luck 🙂
thanks. I also need to stop cause I’m going to a christian school in september, and I don’t know if they wear uniforms. so if their shirts are t shirts, I’m screwed. I will have no other school to go to. do you know how long it would take to heal? my cuts aren’t really deep, i just cut enough so it bleeds a little, and I cut over the same places a lot.
I can’t even take ma hoodie off cuz of ma scars…they fuckin dark as hell!!! I need some shit to make em less noticible.=/ They never gonna go away.
Ma cuts took weeks to heal..they were open for such a long time…so its gonna take a lil while….i need to stop cutting too..but its addicting..
mine are really bad, it doesn’t seem like they’re as bad as yours. but I still have to cover them. its so hot and humid here, I hate trying to hide them, wearing long sleeve shirts all the time.. I started carving words in my arm, it would be hard for someone not to notice them.:/
I dont do words…i just slit n slit n slit…..i dnt cut alot deeper cuz it takes the fuckin piss to heal n all… i cut deep enough for it to be safe…you can see ma scars if ppl took a pic from far away n all.. they all dark n all..i have some scars disappearing and ii have new ones…
yeah i know what you mean. I cut several times a day…
I dont cut everyday..thats a bit too much…0.0 you should stop that..cut every few weeks if u can…
same here. I dont realluy cut that deep, but deep enough to hurt. sometimes I like feeling the pain
It varies. Could be a week or it could be a month or more. You say you cut just enough to bleed though, so I think eventually they could disappear pretty much completely, in a short space of time. If you can, try not to cut over the same places. I know it means more scars, but cutting the same place can make the scarring a lot worse. I wouldn’t worry about them never going away. I’ve had really bad cuts on my arms that looked so horrible when they were healing. I have to really strain my eyes to see a lot of them now. Even if they never go away, they WILL become a lot less noticeable. Hope this helps 🙂
dang it, I’m trying to reply to your previous comments, my internet is freakin slow right now, but anyway, I can’t help it. I have to cut every day. i guess you could call it punishment or whatever
Yhh..ma cuts from like months ago are kinda fading away…but idk abt the new ones…cuz i cut alot deeper…so its gonna take a long time for them to fade away…i can understand that…the only thing i hate abt cuts is..when ppl see em..they go make really retarded judgments abt you and then ur parents nagg n crap..=/
the previous comment, that was @kottonkandiikid ^
@nauseous, thanks for the advice
@kottonkandiikid, people are just really judgemental. they don’t understand all the crap us suicidals go through.
So damn true. Everyone keeps on sayinf “yh, i can understand what your going through”. That’s just funny. I’m pretty sure they havn’t been through what people here have. Don’t how they can understand when they havn’t experienced it. =/
I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t care who see’s my scars. I’ve got my whole arm covered and my upper leg. Since it’s summer it’s harder to cover (almost summer). If anyone has any problems with my scars i just don’t listen. I think they’re beautiful. I understand why you guys cover them though, I used to cover mine until my parents saw all of them. There are too many to cover now..
I’ve started to like my scars too. I agree, there’s a strange beauty about them. I feel a bit weird saying that haha. I used to hate them so much, I’m glad I’m able to appreciate them now. I guess I like the fact that each scar represents me when I was at my absolute lowest, so they are good to reflect upon. Just looking at them helps me a little bit to get through each day. Anyone who sees my scars and judges me based entirely upon them (and people often do); I don’t want to know these people.
Nauseous, i like you. Hah you described it to a T.
I feel the exact same way about mine.
@backtrackinlife – you’re beautiful and the scars that you have completes you – like you said if any body has a problem with them they can just piss off – <3 you
hmm… my scars are ugly. but I guess I dont hate them. everytime i look at them I see that this is my punishment, and i don’t mind it. it looks amazing carved in on my skin. but its so ugly. with the words and cuts and everything. but whatever.
I stare at my scars for long periods of time…
Honey, I’m sorry. Sometimes we all get addicted to cutting or drinking or some other addictive thing. I stare at my scars too, they are ugly but I just get over it. You would be surprised at the amount of scars on my arms.
ah its ok. I like cutting. last night I actually cut so hard it hurt worse than my mental pain. it felt so good
NO NO NO. Please don’t cut. Promise me you will tell me when you cut? Ah email me, GiaBrownrocks@gmail.com
I am not a cutter anymore, I overdose a lot…You are scaring me and cutting isn’t the solution or the answer…Get a new hobby!