I’ve been clean for over a year, but I want my oxycodone again.
When I had told my counselor that I once did oxy, he said, “You know, oxycodone is known for killing your happy sensors.” I laughed and said, “Yeah, but it’s kind of nice when it feels like you never had any happy sensors in the first place.”
I know that I shouldn’t get myself started with that, but I need a new addiction. I dunno. I keep saying that I want cigarettes, but the problem is that if you smoke, everyone knows. Nobody had any idea that I was on oxy when I did it. In fact, people commented that I seemed much more cheerful during that time. I was almost normal…I was at peace. I just want to get high again. Is that so much to ask? I just want to be happy again.
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You’re addicted. Don’t let it get to you. Get a hobby, do a sport anything but that.
I just…I feel like I need it to feel better…
That’s not the way. (: You’ll get better if you don’t get sucked back into that. See what it did to you? Now you think you need it. When you lived more than half your life without it. You can live without it, trust me.
Gahh. I guess I never found anything to replace it with that worked as well as it did.
Guessing isn’t knowing. If that makes sense… Anyway, find something else to do. Healthy! (: Stay calm. Never change.
thats the way i feel about the cutting
I’ll keep looking…
Promise me you won’t try oxycodone?
Haha. I won’t. I don’t have the money to maintain the addiction again, anyway…
Hmph. I guess I can live with that…for now. Beware…I will be stalking every post you make on here! Good luck. (:
Haha! Thanks, Illusion. 🙂
The Illusion Set To Kill
LOL i am kinda glad were not friend you know
Anytime, longtime. (That rhymed…cool) I’ll be here whenever you need me.
Life sucks then you die: Why?
I use tobacco, but I don’t smoke. I’m not saying u should start if you can avoid it, but if it’s a choice between oxy n tobacco it’s kinda a no brainer. Swedish snus is a decent alternative to smoking. It is similar to dipping, but it’s spitless so it’s more discrete. Even my closest coworkers were unaware that I wad doing it on breaks and at lunch. I’ve used camel snus in the past, and they have some decent flavors. I’m not going to throw out all the warnings cause anyone w/ half a brain knows it’s not a good alternative to being free from chemical dependency, but it helps me take the edge off.
Smoking costs more then oxy, I bet.
cuz i wanna fuck up and not have ppl care about me
and if i have someone that will stalk my post that means they care
and i am gonna go back to cutting soon ones i figure out how i can swim and hide it from my bf all at the same time
You make me want to stalk you so bad…which I will. Because I’m cool like that and I care. You won’t fuck up with me, trust me. (:
You shouldn’t cut yourself. What do you use?
i used broken razers and sometimes my pocket knife but i threw out all my broken razers a wile ago.
No, oxy costs a lot if you have to get it off the street…it’s ridiculous.
Ah…I use sissors. NO IDEAS OVER THERE! It hurt though.
ya i bet.
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ok cool do u wanna keep talking here or on fb chat
Message me on fb Immma be outta here 🙂