I almost walked in front of a bus yesterday. I don’t know what stopped me really. I think that’s the best option because if it doesn’t work out the way I plan then I can always say it was an accident.
I really appreciate everyone who has read/commented on my posts. It’s just nice to have some reassurance every now and then. Today is a better day. No pressure, no stress. But the loneliness remains. I’m still completely alone regardless of who I’m around.
I hope wherever you are, today is a better day for you too.
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I hate how loneliness will never go away.. No matter how many people are around.. You still have that feeling.
I hate how people ask me how I can feel lonely if I have people around.
xvengeance, I got the same problem with loneliness. I can be tons of people at an event or a family get together and still feel lonely. I’ve sort of accepted the fact that’s how it’ll be with me, that this feeling is part of me now.
bright eyes-I am so happy to hear that your day went without any pressure and stress. And I have had times when I took a walk and want to step of the curb, then catch myself, so I do have my moments.
Wish I could take that feeling of loneliness away from you. If you read my first post called acceptance, then you know I am another individual that’s prone to the lonely bug just as you are.
Hope your days ahead will be better and less lonely. Or at the very least bearable.
Exactly.. They just don’t understand these feelings. And I hope they never will. No one deserves to feel that way.
bright eyes- they can’t grasp the concept of it. I’ve pretty much stopped talking about it to anyone, except on this site now because every time I do, they put me down, and ask me to stop whining.
xvengeance-It’s fine if they don’t/can’t understand. I don’t expect them to, but telling me to get over myself, and accusing me that I am just looking for attention like I am a four year old is just hurtful.
I agree that no one should feel this way, I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
xvengeance – we get it, and even if we don’t, well always try our best to understand.
deadotter – thank you. you actually managed to make my smile. and i don’t think you should stop talking about it, not with us anyway.
me too, actually reading your post was a good start to my day. It gave me hope that I too could also get through a day without feeling like crap you know?
I didn’t get much sleep, and was up since 2 in the morning. Not feeling too well, thinking I am coming down with a fever. The weather’s been excruciatingly dry and hot so I am trying to take it easy today.
Yeah, I’ll keep putting out my emotions and thoughts in my posts -well when ever I can make sense of them lol, sometimes I can’t put what I think and feel into words. They get so overwhelming.