I’ve given up. I can’t control myself or anything I do. There’s a monster inside me that I’m afraid is ready to come out. Maybe that’s a reason I’ve been feeling completly dead. I’m afraid…I’ll admit it now, before it’s too late. I’m afraid that the monster inside me will overtake me and I won’t be able to control him. He’ll kill everyone. I’ve been holding him off for so long… I won’t allow myself to go close to anyone. I fear I’ll hurt them, physically or mentally. I don’t want to hurt them…but I feel like the monster will take over again. I’ve seen what he’s done and I don’t want anymore. I don’t want to see it again. I need to end it before he takes me over…I don’t know what to do anymore…
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Calm down… you are scared, and that’s normal. You won’t hurt anyone, Fear is our greatest weapon.
How do I calm down…?
I can’t control it.
ok let me tell you details. I have had this feeling for years. I prevented going near a knife. I got rid of it by admitting that i m in control of everything. Either you submit in front of that force which is driving you crazy or you make it submit in front of you. The choice is yours. Say loud to yourself.. I am in complete control of my body”. That is the only way. Also the best way to solve a problem is to write it down. write down how you feel. Then write down how you can control those symptoms. You will find the solution. Remember we all are going to die anyway so why not enjoy life and stop letting anything ruin our day.
Cause you don’t want to hurt anyone, so you won’t.