Numb

Have you ever had that ‘out-of-body’ expierence? For a while I’ve felt like that. It’s almost as if I’m really dying. Lately, I’ve been feeling so numb.  My birthday passed and it was just like another day. It felt wrong, going around telling everyone it was my birthday. As if I were lying… Then a few other holidays flew by and I simply forgot about them. I got my lip peirced and I didn’t even feel the needle. Much more went by and I just feel like my life is falling and I just can’t catch it. I can’t think straight, let alone write this. I feel so high…sometimes I like it and sometimes it gives me a headache… Nothing around me feels real and I can’t sleep. When I walk I feel like I’m being pushed/dragged around. This world just doesn’t feel right anymore. Have I completely died inside?