Secrets I Could Never Say To Your Face

I wear dark hoodies during the summer because I’m to self concious to do otherwise.
Yes mom, I know exactly where those cuts are from, I put them there.
The entire year you tried to convince me you wheren’t a douchy hipster, I didnt believe you because I liked you too much, I don’t like you anymore and I now realise that you really are just a douchy hipster.
The most hurtful words anyone ever said to me hurt me more then they should have.
I always feel like people are talking about me or hate me more then they actually do.
I lied when I filled out my psychology report, I only did it because I knew you would tell someone.
Sometimes I’ll wake up from a dream liking someone I didnt like before because of what they did i my dream.
I feel like there is no future for me no matter how hard I try.
Every 11:11 I wish for the same thing, I wish I was like Olivia Dunhamn (from the tv show Fringe) I still don’t know why.
I know you’re tying to boost my confidence but when ever you say I look nice in shorts, I immediately change out of them, thanks anyway Mom.
I feel like I lost your friendship this year, and gained more meaningless ones.
Some songs grab a hold of me and don’t let go.
I feel like I think about everything more than everyone else.
If I wasn’t so boyish, I probably would have less friends than I already do.
Sometimes I think people are just friends with me because they pitty me.
My greatest fear is that my little cousin Alex will kill himself before he can truly live life, he’s not even 10, he’s had severe anxiety and depression all his life, I feel like he’s missing out on his childhood becasue of it. I’ll always love you Alex <3
I'm always looking for an escape.
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