im sorry, i do forget, how old are you nicola?
i’m really not writing to try and stop or encurage you to be honest.
just speaking from a perspective of someone who i think has gone through similar things.
i thought i remembered, didnt want to be wrong n all.
i dont want to say you are to young, well i do, as i know my best years were 17/18, so much so i have a tattoo for it, and would want to get another fot it.
but i realise we are all different, and obvioudly you gave your heart to someone who betrayed you, and you gave your whole self to them, and i get that, ive wrote songs about it. was it yur first relationship? like real relationship i mean?
I’m 13…….tried killing myself at least 4 times. For some reason I still want to live, you guys should want to too. Way older than me, I wish I was a little bit older like you guys are. I would be able to get out of here. I would be able to move on to a better life. You guys have more reason to live than I do. It’s the truth, so don’t act as if I’m naive and don’t know what I’m talking about. I know more than most people.
No it wasn’t my first relationship, I was with a guy who hit me everyday for about 8 months when i was 15 turning 16 but this was the first relationship i had after that one, i thought i could trust him not to hurt me.
no i think you sound older than 13 actually, so i dont think you naive. although, you have more of a reason to live, being so young, you can make your future anything, so i mean this, think what you really love, what you would really want to do, no matter what, start at the bottom, do what you really want to do. you will have ahappy life if you do, live for yourself, let people in, but only those willing to let you in. best advice i can give, and to be honest, it can go to nicola too, i may only be slightly older than you (nicola) but still, i feel its god advice for you before your 18th
@nicola. well thats a real reason not to trust people, i had, well have trust issues, it made me keep people at arms length, and made me push them away, i became the bad guy. there are guys yu can trust, you just had to be okay on your own first, then you can see who to trust and who not too. not saying it would be easy and i am a hypocrite, but its true none the less
Thanks for trying to reason with all this shit Bamuel. You’re a very logical thinker, unlike me. I have no logic left, at least that what it seems like.
@nicola; to be honest even without that i can understand, we all deal with any situation differently, but i do see how, obviously, youd feel, not that i can relate totally. with what i can, loving someone who you lst, who was never good for you, i really can, and the thing is, id still go back, and with my mind now, be with her again, even if the out come was the same, just to be with her. and ive been in several relationships. if you would want to have a real conversation about it, id really listen and maybe try anbd help with what ive gone through too, although i would totally understand you not wanting to, it took me ages to actually talk and trust people with this stuff just on this site. but my email is apkelly187@live.co.uk. if you’re in the uk, then can call even.
@riley; well you are 13, you will develop logic as your years go on, and they should go on, you will find things will seem better as you get a bit older and you find yourself, you just have to work at it. dont give up now!
@nicola; to be honest even without that i can understand, we all deal with any situation differently, but i do see how, obviously, youd feel, not that i can relate totally. with what i can, loving someone who you lst, who was never good for you, i really can, and the thing is, id still go back, and with my mind now, be with her again, even if the out come was the same, just to be with her. and ive been in several relationships. if you would want to have a real conversation about it, id really listen and maybe try anbd help with what ive gone through too, although i would totally understand you not wanting to, it took me ages to actually talk and trust people with this stuff just on this site. but my email is apkelly187atlive.co.uk. if you’re in the uk, then can call even.
@riley; well you are 13, you will develop logic as your years go on, and they should go on, you will find things will seem better as you get a bit older and you find yourself, you just have to work at it. dont give up now!
you are SO LOVED AND CARED FOR AND NEEDED. I care about you and i don’t even know you!!!! if i didn’t care, I wouldn’t have registerd JUST to write you this, and read your other post.
your very existance gives me hope. please hang on.
i used to cut. all the time. multiple times per day. i know what you’re going through. i can’t say i know what you’re going through with everything, but as far as the cutting and suicidal thoughts go, i do.
i almost killed myself this year. REALLY almost. i was seconds away from it. but i held onto life because i didn’t want to hurt anyone, and listen to this: I AM SO HAPPY THAT I DIDN’T DO IT. I AM SO HAPPY THAT I AM ALIVE RIGHT NOW!!!!
yes, i am shocked to even believe i am saying this, because i NEVER thought i would make it through that. EVER. but i did. i’m still struggling with depression but i haven’t cut in over 4 months now, and i’m so much happier, and i know i’ll make it through.
i know you will too, love. really i do.
i also have a friend who was abused as a child, is a rape survivor, had her father die suddenly and unexpectedly, self harmed since she was four years old, even once nearly cutting off her hand when she was 21. she’s 30 now. (i’m 19 if you were wondering, so closer to your age.) and you know what, she inspires me so much, because she is HAPPY now. she enjoys life. she goes to therapy, got treatment, does what she needs to to take care of herself…..and is able to use her struggles to help others….like i am trying to do for you now. and i know thatyou are an amazing person, and somewhere, sometime down the road, you will be as thankful as i am to have the opportunity to tell someone what i am telling you now, and what she told me.
you just have to hang on long enough to get there.
recovery IS possible. please, reach out for help. call a hotline. tell someone you trust what you’re going through. also check out TWLOHA.org .
reaching out for help is a sign of strength and courage. and i believe in you fully, both in your ability to do this, and in your ability to completely recover and heal and have a long, happy, and fulfilling life.
you are lovely inside and out, through and through. your spirit of resilience through all you have been through is incredible. you have a beautiful future, and so much to offer the world, so much potential to make a positive impact. don’t waste it.
please, i implore you, keep living. you deserve help and care, and I PROMISE it gets better. i know how hard that can be to believe but it really and truly does. i can’t imagine being more hopeless than i was, and here i am today, writing you this genuinely. i am happy to be alive, and i know you can and will make it through this and will be happy too.
if you would like to talk to me, my tumblr is love-and-smiles.tumblr.com . feel free to message me on there. i will be there for you, whether you want advice or just someone to vent to, or a distraction from what’s going on…or anything in between.
sending you tons and tons of strength, courage, hope, and love!!!!!! <3 <3
LOL, I DID have logic. Everyone does when they get older and focus on what their peers/family do. My logic is gone, because I push it away from my mind. I do the obscene. I’m not stupid, I know more than alot of people think. That’s what sucks about my age. They figure out I’m 13, and they think I have nothing to say. I have alot to think. More than other people do my age.
hey riley–that message about living is for you too <3 giant hugs!!! and i know, 13 is young but adults don't realize how real it still is. i was anorexic when i was 13, and those are real feelings. depression at any age is real too. i hope you'll continue wanting to live and reach out for help as well…and again feel free to message me on my tumblr love-and-smiles.tumblr.com . and i also agree that going through something like depression gives you a lot more perspective than people your age. most of my friends are 18 and 19 like me, and get caught up on getting a bf/gf, stressing about grades, etc…. going through something like this, whether you're 13, 19, 40, or 75, makes you realize what is really important, i think. <3
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bye im hopeing to end my life soon to
Im seriously done this time.
5th time lucky.
I said the same thing on my 7th try… just try to talk to someone, it may help
im sorry, i do forget, how old are you nicola?
i’m really not writing to try and stop or encurage you to be honest.
just speaking from a perspective of someone who i think has gone through similar things.
17, 18 in november
I know it’s young.
But in 17 years i’ve gone through enough to know i wont make my 18th.
i thought i remembered, didnt want to be wrong n all.
i dont want to say you are to young, well i do, as i know my best years were 17/18, so much so i have a tattoo for it, and would want to get another fot it.
but i realise we are all different, and obvioudly you gave your heart to someone who betrayed you, and you gave your whole self to them, and i get that, ive wrote songs about it. was it yur first relationship? like real relationship i mean?
I’m 13…….tried killing myself at least 4 times. For some reason I still want to live, you guys should want to too. Way older than me, I wish I was a little bit older like you guys are. I would be able to get out of here. I would be able to move on to a better life. You guys have more reason to live than I do. It’s the truth, so don’t act as if I’m naive and don’t know what I’m talking about. I know more than most people.
No it wasn’t my first relationship, I was with a guy who hit me everyday for about 8 months when i was 15 turning 16 but this was the first relationship i had after that one, i thought i could trust him not to hurt me.
no i think you sound older than 13 actually, so i dont think you naive. although, you have more of a reason to live, being so young, you can make your future anything, so i mean this, think what you really love, what you would really want to do, no matter what, start at the bottom, do what you really want to do. you will have ahappy life if you do, live for yourself, let people in, but only those willing to let you in. best advice i can give, and to be honest, it can go to nicola too, i may only be slightly older than you (nicola) but still, i feel its god advice for you before your 18th
@nicola. well thats a real reason not to trust people, i had, well have trust issues, it made me keep people at arms length, and made me push them away, i became the bad guy. there are guys yu can trust, you just had to be okay on your own first, then you can see who to trust and who not too. not saying it would be easy and i am a hypocrite, but its true none the less
Thanks for trying to reason with all this shit Bamuel. You’re a very logical thinker, unlike me. I have no logic left, at least that what it seems like.
If you read my other post
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/so-scared/
then it explains some other stuff ive been through
then maybe you could understand my reason for this decision
@nicola; to be honest even without that i can understand, we all deal with any situation differently, but i do see how, obviously, youd feel, not that i can relate totally. with what i can, loving someone who you lst, who was never good for you, i really can, and the thing is, id still go back, and with my mind now, be with her again, even if the out come was the same, just to be with her. and ive been in several relationships. if you would want to have a real conversation about it, id really listen and maybe try anbd help with what ive gone through too, although i would totally understand you not wanting to, it took me ages to actually talk and trust people with this stuff just on this site. but my email is apkelly187@live.co.uk. if you’re in the uk, then can call even.
@riley; well you are 13, you will develop logic as your years go on, and they should go on, you will find things will seem better as you get a bit older and you find yourself, you just have to work at it. dont give up now!
@nicola; to be honest even without that i can understand, we all deal with any situation differently, but i do see how, obviously, youd feel, not that i can relate totally. with what i can, loving someone who you lst, who was never good for you, i really can, and the thing is, id still go back, and with my mind now, be with her again, even if the out come was the same, just to be with her. and ive been in several relationships. if you would want to have a real conversation about it, id really listen and maybe try anbd help with what ive gone through too, although i would totally understand you not wanting to, it took me ages to actually talk and trust people with this stuff just on this site. but my email is apkelly187atlive.co.uk. if you’re in the uk, then can call even.
@riley; well you are 13, you will develop logic as your years go on, and they should go on, you will find things will seem better as you get a bit older and you find yourself, you just have to work at it. dont give up now!
PLEASE, PLEASE DON”T DO IT!!!!
read this http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/whylive.html
and this http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
you are SO LOVED AND CARED FOR AND NEEDED. I care about you and i don’t even know you!!!! if i didn’t care, I wouldn’t have registerd JUST to write you this, and read your other post.
your very existance gives me hope. please hang on.
i used to cut. all the time. multiple times per day. i know what you’re going through. i can’t say i know what you’re going through with everything, but as far as the cutting and suicidal thoughts go, i do.
i almost killed myself this year. REALLY almost. i was seconds away from it. but i held onto life because i didn’t want to hurt anyone, and listen to this: I AM SO HAPPY THAT I DIDN’T DO IT. I AM SO HAPPY THAT I AM ALIVE RIGHT NOW!!!!
yes, i am shocked to even believe i am saying this, because i NEVER thought i would make it through that. EVER. but i did. i’m still struggling with depression but i haven’t cut in over 4 months now, and i’m so much happier, and i know i’ll make it through.
i know you will too, love. really i do.
i also have a friend who was abused as a child, is a rape survivor, had her father die suddenly and unexpectedly, self harmed since she was four years old, even once nearly cutting off her hand when she was 21. she’s 30 now. (i’m 19 if you were wondering, so closer to your age.) and you know what, she inspires me so much, because she is HAPPY now. she enjoys life. she goes to therapy, got treatment, does what she needs to to take care of herself…..and is able to use her struggles to help others….like i am trying to do for you now. and i know thatyou are an amazing person, and somewhere, sometime down the road, you will be as thankful as i am to have the opportunity to tell someone what i am telling you now, and what she told me.
you just have to hang on long enough to get there.
recovery IS possible. please, reach out for help. call a hotline. tell someone you trust what you’re going through. also check out TWLOHA.org .
reaching out for help is a sign of strength and courage. and i believe in you fully, both in your ability to do this, and in your ability to completely recover and heal and have a long, happy, and fulfilling life.
you are lovely inside and out, through and through. your spirit of resilience through all you have been through is incredible. you have a beautiful future, and so much to offer the world, so much potential to make a positive impact. don’t waste it.
please, i implore you, keep living. you deserve help and care, and I PROMISE it gets better. i know how hard that can be to believe but it really and truly does. i can’t imagine being more hopeless than i was, and here i am today, writing you this genuinely. i am happy to be alive, and i know you can and will make it through this and will be happy too.
if you would like to talk to me, my tumblr is love-and-smiles.tumblr.com . feel free to message me on there. i will be there for you, whether you want advice or just someone to vent to, or a distraction from what’s going on…or anything in between.
sending you tons and tons of strength, courage, hope, and love!!!!!! <3 <3
LOL, I DID have logic. Everyone does when they get older and focus on what their peers/family do. My logic is gone, because I push it away from my mind. I do the obscene. I’m not stupid, I know more than alot of people think. That’s what sucks about my age. They figure out I’m 13, and they think I have nothing to say. I have alot to think. More than other people do my age.
hey riley–that message about living is for you too <3 giant hugs!!! and i know, 13 is young but adults don't realize how real it still is. i was anorexic when i was 13, and those are real feelings. depression at any age is real too. i hope you'll continue wanting to live and reach out for help as well…and again feel free to message me on my tumblr love-and-smiles.tumblr.com . and i also agree that going through something like depression gives you a lot more perspective than people your age. most of my friends are 18 and 19 like me, and get caught up on getting a bf/gf, stressing about grades, etc…. going through something like this, whether you're 13, 19, 40, or 75, makes you realize what is really important, i think. <3
please, both of you….i wish you’d tell me you’re alive and getting help. i care about you so much.
<3
i know it can get bad some times, but hang on with me! we can make it through this!