I actually don’t know what I’m doing. Why am I studying a course I hate, living in a place where I’m suffocated, pretending that everything is okay with my family and friends? Why I am here? What the hell is the point in all this?
I’ve been laughed at my entire life, do I always have to be joke?
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It’s what I always thought about when I was studying in school/college. Even right now I am still pretending to my family and friends that I am okay simply to look “normal” in front of them. But every time I break down, spiral down cry…they get uncomfortable and then pretend it never happened.
That’s what hurts the most.
ugh man yes this is the same for me. hello brighteyes
dear deadotter,
how are you? i read a few of your posts, as usual they are beautiful. it’d be nice for family and friends to accept us for who we are. maybe they are the ones who screwed us up in the first place.
dear umbra artist.
how are you? i know people always ask that, i actually want to know.
it’s nice to meet you.
hey bright eyes, thanks for the compliment, and taking the time to read my posts. I’ve plodding along. Trying to distract myself from crawling back into depression. Most times I think friends and family don’t know what to do or say. They can’t understand therefore wouldn’t accept that we so have these moments of lows.
I know for a fact that my mom is screwed but she’d never admit it.
Hope your day went well, or started out well, since I don’t know your time zone.
im with you. music and keeping myself busy are always best.
i dont think anyone who isn’t in our position can understand. and i dont think our parents would ever be able to admit that they are wrong.
it’s the afternoon here, so yes, going well.
My day’s just beginning 🙂 me too music, and writing….which is why this site has been a good outlet, plus people like yourself, who are not only supportive but also making realize that all these things I am feeling and thinking isn’t out of the ordinary.
I hope the rest of your evening will go well too aswell as the next day. I am taking things one day at a time too.