I’m alone. I’m alone all of the time. I just want to see someone. I just want to talk to someone. I just want to hold someone. But I have no-one. I am alone.
This feeling, it fills me up every second of every minute of every hour of every day. This feeling is loneliness. I’m in a place that has no doors. I am stuck.
I just want to end this pain. I’ve spent to long hoping it will get better. It doesn’t. Even when I think it does. I soon realise it doesn’t.
There are no more plans. The alphabet of plans has come to an end. It’s time for me to do the same.
This hole is eating me from the inside. I’ll be gone soon anyway.
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We’re all alone, none of us truly have anyone. They always slip away, at least that seems to be the case for us unlucky few. Try hanging on though, find anything to hold let it be a person, an item, a thought, they can all keep you company. At this point I feel like a hypocrite, I really don’t want to hang on, but I do, because I might as well do whatever I can to try and make it better.
i’ll talk to you
hey
I’m hardly ever alone, I have tons of friends. And yet I feel the same way. Everyone thinks I’m so happy and successful. And I’m the life of the party, everyone wants me there I’m so funny. And I don’t want to live. I have no hope of anything. I don’t consider myself suicidal though, as I really don’t think I’ll ever do it (for my kids sake I think it would be very selfish). So if you’re feeling lonely I understand, even with people around it wouldn’t change. Books are a godsend for lonely people… I reread Jane Austen novels and they are like good friends, as they never change lol. xo
Further – when I think of you killing yourself it makes me upset and angry for you as a beautiful human being, a gift from God (of whom I believe). I wish I could see all of that for myself. I wish you could see it for yourself. Keep in touch oneman 🙂
Humans are social creatures, we thrive on interaction. Too much is dangerous (becoming dependent on it) but so is too little.
Why do you feel so lonely? x