It’s been so long since I posted, I actually don’t know what to write. I am assuming that’s a good thing. Things aren’t as bad as they could be and I think that’s something I should be thankful for.
It is really lonely though. I have tried to reach out to a couple of friends, not about being depressed or suicidal as such, just for company and I guess everyone else has lives and things to do. I understand that.
I hope that wherever you are.. that you aren’t as lonely as I am.
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I probably am. I know what u mean about friends having lives and doing things and obviously we understand that. It’s just like life is passing us by and that makes us even more depressed. It’s easy to say ‘go out and do things’ but when you’re scared of everything and have no self confidence its almost impossible to help yourself.
I am that lonely. I just cant see any reason to keep trying. Everything is too much to deal with. The only way I can see to end this is by dieing. I wish I could escape all that is happening around me.
I think you will find millions of people that are as lonely as you are, myself included (there are nearly 7 billion people on the planet). We all have ways of making ourselves look more functional than we really are. Hang in there and know you are far from being alone.
Reach out again and tell them how it makes you feel when you don’t spend as much time together. You don’t have to be alone.
I know what it is to be lonely. Oh, do I ever know! A bipolar personality like me is not capable of making and/or keeping friends. Being alone and lonely is a way of life that I have known and lived with since early childhood. Previous posters that reassured you that you are not alone are 100% correct.
Thank you all for the support.
Things are a lot better now. I hope you are all in a better place as well.
brighteyes. xx