Do you know how to swim?

I haven’t been swimmin in forever

I don’t i’ve never drowned before. could be fun

as opposed to…?

I wanna see it coming when I die. Like I wanna know I’m going to die before it happens if that makes any sense. Like if someone shoots me I wanna watch them do it, or if I get hit by a bus I wanna see the bus and know it’s gonna hit me. I wanna die with a warning

Fuck that I would hate the suspense. I still do, it kills me sometimes waiting for something to kill me. And i wouldn’t wanna jump off of a building cuz half way down I’d decide it was a bad idea and die of a heart attack instead.

Nah, but it does give you way too much time to think…

I’ve only ridden two roller coasters in my life, both on the same day. It was at Worlds of Fun. I love adrenaline rushes. That’s what keeps my world spinnin. Shit i’m in the fuckin Marines anythin can happen to me. I jus don’t wanna die with regrets. If i do die then so fuckin be it, i fuckin die. But at the same time i don’t wanna die while i’m on my way to maybe apologize to someone. then they’ll never get my apology and they’ll think i was total douchebag before i died. Not that everyone in the world loves me right now but i like to pretend they do for now. Ya know what i mean?

You too

I guess i can’t really say who’s a good person and who’s not. I have a hard time tellin myself I’m a good person.
And I’m glad your still here. You can take alot, but you shouldn’t try to take everything on. People need to start taking on their own problems and learn to be strong.
I know everyone’s heard that before but people really do need start believing in themselves and fighting back. They have the power to do, nothing can stop them. It’s just a matter of doin it.

I hate the word hypocrite. everyones a fuckin hypocrite, you, me, Ron fucking Howard, everyone.

You gain something to lose when you succeed. When you have something to lose it’s ten times easier to keep trying. So right now you’ve got nothing to keep trying for, so you gotta fight for something.

It’s a lil round about way of sayin if you want something, take it. Only in this case if you wanna be, in a fucked up way, I’m tellin you to jus be happy

You’ve lost your weapon to fight with and you gotta find a new. Like when a samurai has to use a gun, or a hippy has to yell, or my moms has to resort to smoking reds. Your expecting the same things that made you happy before to make you happy again. instead, you gotta find something new to love

Mad fuckin fun, roller derbies! I haven’t been to one in for fuckin ever and i could use it

lol my counselor didn’t talk to me about my problems. she taught me how to make crack…

She was cool and it did help to talk to her. She didn’t tell me anything about myself, didn’t try to say who i was or what my problem was. All she said was that i had an anger issue and gave me a technique to relieve stress by blowing on my finger tips then clenching my fist real tight, and jus keep doin that for a while. It helped a lil

your fat

Why what usually pisses you off?

What’d you do about it?

one_day (what is your name?), your not an angry person. your jus drunk. thats all. i get mad stupid when i’m drunk too. start talkin bout burnin kids and shit and robbin liquor stores and all sorts of shit

My boys gone through so many fuckin phones. He gets pissed at his girl when he’s talkin to her on his phone and he fuckin throws it against walls and shit

i do the same to my laptop. this fuckin thing dont work right now form how many times i be throwin it all over the place. i only have it to keep in touch wit my family back home and all they do is piss me off.

Found out a girl i used to know and had a thing for but never had the confidence to take her (any other girl in the world but her i guess) is gettin married here in a few months. i found that out in a friend of mines room, threw my fuckin laptop on the floor displacing the hard drive inside of it, and then i almost kicked the shit out of my boy