I know many of you may not want to hear this but trust me, I am in the same boat as all of you I have been wanting to kill myself for a couple years now and lately that is all I can ever think about.
I do go to church and believe in God but in no way am I the perfect Christian or in the position to tell others about God or how to live a holy life. I’ve had my doubts about God and despite believing, I still feel depressed everyday. I’m not here to tell anybody to turn to God or anything like that. But today I went to church and heard this song that I really liked. It’s originally about God and going to heaven and stuff but you don’t necessarily have to think about it like that. I listened to it and just started crying because I truly can’t wait for the day when there is “no weeping, no hurt or pain, no darkness, no sick or lame” which are the lyrics. Who knows if there is a heaven in the end, but for some reason listening to this made me feel like there was gonna be a day where all of this came true. And after spending the last couple of days ready to walk down to the tracks, it was kind of encouraging.
I encourage you guys to check it out – It’s called “You hold me now” by Hillsong.
Again, in no way am I trying to push God or religion on anyone. Just some good music.
Hope you guys will all hang in there tonight- xx
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It’s a beautiful song – thanks.
I listened to “You Hold Me Now.” powerful song. I like most Christian music tho.