My reasoning: I don’t want to give direct details as it is much too embarrassing. I didn’t do anything wrong really. It more has to do with the fact of who I am as a person. I am not a psychopath, pedophile, criminal etc but I am worthless – a worthlessness that can not be put into words and it causes an immense amount of pain in my soul.
When I kill myself it is something that will be completely reasonable and justifiable. I have no other options.
I believe in the “hereafter”. My soul needs to return where it came from for healing because I can’t heal myself here. I need a break. I am tired and scared.
i too, feel worthless. i feel like i cause more damage in this world than good. my death would affect more people than my life does.
i am lonely beyond what i can explain, i feel guilty and ashamed of my past and also my present. i feel like i am incapable of being happy. if i can’t have happiness, i want to at least be at peace. i feel like death would be more peaceful than this life i am living. i do believe in heaven and hell, but for some reason, i don’t completely believe in hell. i feel like once i’m dead, i will just be nowhere, not in some eternal fire. maybe i am just being hopeful.
imagion a blackhole sucking everything in. nothing can escape a blackhole not even light. now imagion me only i’m the opisite i send out pain instead of sucking things in. if that makes since.
@lost tears : I’m sure that’s not true! I don’t know your story but love, I’m telling you, what you think of yourself is not true!
If you’re ready to talk about what’s been up, email me.
I’d love to know what it is that makes you think the way you do, let’s put it this way, I dare you, go on and prove me wrong!
@LOLfailz : why has your dreams of joining either one of those forces crushed?
Well I must say I have never been happier for the existence of enforced laws!
I’m sorry, but I honestly think you’re still here for a reason! A good reason at that.
@jslee : Whatever you’ve done or whatever may have happened to you, of which I’m thinking is the latter, is not your fault. Everybody deserves to be happy, and you sure as heck deserve it just as much as the other person and so over time you’d be able to feel happiness once again. Believe me.
@Kenneth-Oswald : what’s made you to feel as though you’re worthless? Kenneth, let’s make a bet, list down at least 30 reasons why you think that is so and if it’s entirely justifiable then you’ll never hear me question you as to why you wanna die, how does that sound?
I’ve felt the same as most of you have felt, so I understand exactly what you feel. Death is something final, one you can never change, one you can never take back. It’s an unreverse-able curse. One you don’t deserve.
Email me at (filamagnus@gmail.com) and prove me wrong. 😉
I’m here for all of you, and I’m never gonna leave until you ask me to.
I’m here to listen, not to judge. So if you think you need an extra friend, I’m your girl.
thanks readytofly. i think the way i do because i always have tryed ta change didnt work tryed to get better still hasnt worked but im getting better if that makes any since but then agian i never do
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My reasoning: I don’t want to give direct details as it is much too embarrassing. I didn’t do anything wrong really. It more has to do with the fact of who I am as a person. I am not a psychopath, pedophile, criminal etc but I am worthless – a worthlessness that can not be put into words and it causes an immense amount of pain in my soul.
When I kill myself it is something that will be completely reasonable and justifiable. I have no other options.
I believe in the “hereafter”. My soul needs to return where it came from for healing because I can’t heal myself here. I need a break. I am tired and scared.
i too, feel worthless. i feel like i cause more damage in this world than good. my death would affect more people than my life does.
i am lonely beyond what i can explain, i feel guilty and ashamed of my past and also my present. i feel like i am incapable of being happy. if i can’t have happiness, i want to at least be at peace. i feel like death would be more peaceful than this life i am living. i do believe in heaven and hell, but for some reason, i don’t completely believe in hell. i feel like once i’m dead, i will just be nowhere, not in some eternal fire. maybe i am just being hopeful.
My Reason: My dreams of the military are crushed and my second dream of being a cop are crushed too. Nothing else in life really interests me.
… also my preferred method would be shotgun to the roof of the mouth, but here in Canada, we have laws to prevent that…
imagion a blackhole sucking everything in. nothing can escape a blackhole not even light. now imagion me only i’m the opisite i send out pain instead of sucking things in. if that makes since.
@lost tears : I’m sure that’s not true! I don’t know your story but love, I’m telling you, what you think of yourself is not true!
If you’re ready to talk about what’s been up, email me.
I’d love to know what it is that makes you think the way you do, let’s put it this way, I dare you, go on and prove me wrong!
@LOLfailz : why has your dreams of joining either one of those forces crushed?
Well I must say I have never been happier for the existence of enforced laws!
I’m sorry, but I honestly think you’re still here for a reason! A good reason at that.
@jslee : Whatever you’ve done or whatever may have happened to you, of which I’m thinking is the latter, is not your fault. Everybody deserves to be happy, and you sure as heck deserve it just as much as the other person and so over time you’d be able to feel happiness once again. Believe me.
@Kenneth-Oswald : what’s made you to feel as though you’re worthless? Kenneth, let’s make a bet, list down at least 30 reasons why you think that is so and if it’s entirely justifiable then you’ll never hear me question you as to why you wanna die, how does that sound?
I’ve felt the same as most of you have felt, so I understand exactly what you feel. Death is something final, one you can never change, one you can never take back. It’s an unreverse-able curse. One you don’t deserve.
Email me at (filamagnus@gmail.com) and prove me wrong. 😉
I’m here for all of you, and I’m never gonna leave until you ask me to.
I’m here to listen, not to judge. So if you think you need an extra friend, I’m your girl.
Love you,
ReadyToFly
thanks readytofly. i think the way i do because i always have tryed ta change didnt work tryed to get better still hasnt worked but im getting better if that makes any since but then agian i never do