There has to be something wrong with me.
It is hard to live when you dont understand how your own mind works and depicts. Â I feel so ashamed of myself as an individual human being. Â I lash out at the people i love, physically hurt them. because i cant control my reaction to comments said, or actions i dont agree with. Â im happy one moment and furious the next.
i look in the mirror everyday disgusted with what i see. disgusting face, teeth that are never white enough, hair that never looks healthy, legs that “go on for miles” (from what ive been told.pssh) that are never skinny enough, stomach that is never flat enough, boobs that will permanently remain an A cup, butt that will never be firm…..
People tell me how lucky i am to be so beautiful. Â I wish, for ONCE in my entire life, seee what they see.
I starve myself for as long as i can until i just cant take it. Â I look in the mirror and become so disgusted i actually vomit.
Im a soon to be collegiate athlete in cross country and track. how can a runner not be thin?.
Im an 18 year old girl. Im 5’7 and 116.5 pounds, statistically marked as underweight. Am i missing something here? why dont i see that????
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It’s like a glow of a pregnant chick. You got it. You got that special shine that everyone wants, and them long legs that go from your ass all the way to the floor. And hell you never know you just might be pregnant. Be proud of who you are and don’t worry about what other people think.
The reason you can’t see what others see is because you’re extremely critical of your body. Also you look for you imperfections if you look for anything its not hard to find. Your prospective of yourself is wholly inaccurate. I’m willing to bet there is a friend of yours of similar body type and you don’t view as you do yourself. I’m not sure how to change your self view as the girl I’m trying to date is maybe 100lbs and still seriously calls herself fat.
you ish not the only one. I always call myself fat always have always will my self-esteem is that low i dont believe what anyone see. They see thin or skinny. I see overweight and need to stop eating but look at me now i weight 113 and im eating an 90 calorie special K bar :L havent eaten dinner in the past two days and i never eat breaksfast if it isnt cook by my mom. :L I guess thats what we see cause we want to be perfect. Like those girls in the magazines with their flat stomachs and skinny thights and junk i am 15 going on 16 next month my height is like 5’6 come on we both have the same problems i dont even run track.