I feel the end is near. for the past 5 months i have been thinking about suicide. I have tried 3 times with every attempt ending in failure. all 3 attempts i have tried hanging myself and i get scared right as i start to black out. Im scared of the unknown. Im not religious but do believe that there is somethin out there that is greater than this shit hole of a world we live in. I find myself wondering if the relgious people are right. If i commit suicide will i burn in hell for eternity? or will i just simply be dead and nothing will come of it? i feel like the unknown keeps me here bc i dont want to have a worse after life than i have now. even though i hate every aspect of my life and will probably kill myself, im scared of whats to come.
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well I got as far as you :/
recently (october 3rd) I tried hanging again, and i stopped pretty fast because MY NECK HURT. Could you imagine? I was so angry with myself… Turns out haha my neck was tilted back instead of forwards so I wasn’t even chocking… just giving myself a headache 🙁
LOLfailz, no offense, but that’s kind of funny. The way you worded it was funnier.
vbenja, I feel the same way. Reading what you said makes me scared all over again just thinking about it. I don’t know why God would condemn a person for taking their own life, he loves us and I think he would understand a person’s reasoning for taking their own life. Maybe, I think, it’s in his plan that you be with him in order for doors to open up for other people, or maybe the impact of your life being gone would affect someone in a way that God wants, like it’s part of his plan. Sorry for getting all “God” on you, I’m not terribly religious, but the thought of God is more comforting than any other afterlife, so I believe in him.
i’ve never thought about it in that way. like maybe me being here is holding others back from what they are truly meant to do.
lol non taken xD
I don’t believe that God would send someone to hell for suicide. I don’t really know what I believe in terms of ‘God’ and everything, but I believe there is something more to this world. I often wonder if there is something more out there in fact, part of my fear in the idea of suicide is what comes after that also. Strange really. How can anything after this life be worse than what it is now? yet the fear of not knowing is one that keeps us here.
Sorry, I can’t resist… LOLfailz indeed. xDD
What unknown said rings true… but all of us have to go there someday, may as well stop worrying and go with your nose turned up. 😀